Herb Alpert: Come Fly with Me

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Image from his album Come Fly With Me. I am not stealing it but promoting your album.

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Herb Albert is probably one of the first artists I was crazy about with the Tijuana Brass.

I remember dancing over and over to “Taste of Honey”, which broke records as the number one song on Billboard more than once.  If I am in a “blah mood”, all I have to is turn on the remastered CD of  Herb’s “Whipped Cream” album on my ipod.  You just can’t listen to Herb Alpert and feel bad it’s just impossible.

My dad had everything he ever recorded up to the late 70’s anyhow….. on a 33 rpm and then CD.

“Whipped Cream”, “Tijuana Taxi”, “This Guy’s in Love “, and “Peanuts ” are to name just a few my favorites.

I never knew that Herb Alpert was a bronze sculptor for over 30 years and his works were showcased in Los Angeles. …close to where I used to live on Orange County.

I also didn’t know Herb Alpert had a foundation to help young children and promote the arts….until today when I searched him on Twitter and found his real page…and I began updating my knowledge with his latest albums and reading about the huge stars he discovered.

To Herb Alpert:
“Mr. Alpert, I hope you read this because I think someone as multi- talented as you is born once every millenium. You have added countless hours of Joy to my Life and you are still adding it as we speak.

It is just now I am a professional writer, photographer, and marketer. I used to teach piano over twenty years – and I began writing music when I was nine-years-old.

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People in “Vegas” just don’t pay for piano lessons. They just show up with their kids and expect you to teach him for free!

Two Passionate, Love Filled, Hope Filled Poems from Ramon Loyola

I met Ramon Loyola on Word Press when I was searching the world over to add new content to the writers work lab etc.
I saw his extraordinary poetry and read his blog and how excited he was (as I would be), seeing his books in a book store. I could relate. I really loved what I saw. I asked him if I could print two of his most hopeful positive poems/prose on either Totally Inspired Mind or The Writer’s Work Lab-and he loved my idea.
When I find something wonderful, something special, that has that has a unique quality to it, I can share it with the world. And so I did.

Paulette Le Pore Motzko

If And When by Ramon Loyola
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When you love,
Let the touch feel your warmth
So that it burns like a flame
In the bosom’s deepest cauldron,
Lingering.
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If you love,
Memorize the face that stares,
Its lines drawing all meaning
To all the desires revealed,
Undeniable.
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When you love,
Let the eyes see your heart
So that it remembers like child
In the mind’s most profound innocence,
Loving.

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If you love,
Cherish the oneness that keeps,
Its grace denying all weakness
To the soul’s unknown yearnings,
Fleeting.
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When you love (finally),
Let the kiss seal your fate
So that it binds like a chain
In life’s undying memory,
Eternal.
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Copyright Ramon Loyola, 2014

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Don’t Let It Go by Ramon Loyola

When you feel the warmth of the sun
On your goose-bumped arm
Like the feeling of a frenetic hand
The fingers nimble on your tingling skin
Where the sensation of gladness
Overwhelms you like that grand vista
Of a fresh meadow
Green and lush and
Misty and wide
Don’t let it go.
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The feeling is real
It can only get better,
Don’t let it go.

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Run up to the sharpest corner
At the end of the street
And grab the sun
Resting in the expanse of your palm
Don’t’ let it go

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It is as real as the veins
In your clenched hand
When you find the child again
Lurking deep in side
But rearing its head
Peeking through the small hole
On the forbidding fence
Between sorrow and bliss
When you seek for
The small joys
As you plan in the rain
Don’t let it go

The moment is clear
As vivid as the sky above
Don’t let it go

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It will slip by if you do
Glide along past you like a stranger
Who cares more for dire untruths
Don’t let it go
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It will leave you insignificant if you do
Undone in a crowded room
When you fall
Madly, truly and ever deeply
Where the hurt is inevitable
Where the heart is soured by
The insincere laughter
The dishonest words
Despite the piercing pain
The opposite of love
And heartfelt tenderness
Don’t let it go
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The eyes hold it in
The only truth in that look
Don’t let it go
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The memory will fade
The regret will set in
Making you forget the face
The eyes the skin the cheeks
Don’t let it go
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It will fade forever
Gone to the light
The water is deep
The air is thin
Hold your breath
Wave your arms above your head
Let your hair get wet
Freeze your toes in the frosty morning
Let the sun scorch your flesh
Laugh like nothing else matters
Shout to the top of your lungs
Weep silently and weep some more

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When you have tasted all
The nectars of pleasure
When pain has racked your bones
Has broken your heart into smithereens
And has made you steel for peace
And serenity has tempered your soul
And has stumped the chaos that confused you
That rumbled in the earth
Keep it close
Don’t let it go
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The firm paths are showing you
Like the sun guides the flowers to bloom
Don’t let it go
The answer is leading you
Clasping you tight like a lover in heat
Seeing your light at last
And when you find yourself finally
Don’t let it go
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It is fleeting but it will stay
As surely as the promise of mornings
Ramon Loyola, Copyright 2014

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Photography and Digital Arts by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
Copyright 2015

My mom Ramona Lea Le Pore has been confirmed alive when will buy the Moreno Valley sheriff in California. Corrupt Power of Attorneys and Nevada Playing God

Due to very a very malicious man Mike Bunker, who became my mom’s and dad’s power of attorney illegally in California where I used to live; he stopped me from seeing my mother for over two and a half years. Never is one person, family or not, supposed to govern the financial and medical affairs of a senior. Why is that?

If there is an abuse entrust then everything goes to hell that’s why as in my case and my mom case.

My mom was diagnosed with COPD 2 years ago and my stupid brother was bringing her cartons of cigarettes and dumping them on the doorstep how is that for stupid? I would not buy her cigarettes the mother she begged me to because I didn’t want to be have been in my head giving her lung cancer. I wanted to know that I just did good things for her I gave her my time, effort made meals for that I knew she loved and wanted to make during the time of my stay there from 2001 till almost 2 years ago I wanted to make sure I did my best for her.

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if it’s your mom and me couple years ago for Thanksgiving dinner when I took her out wearing around for dinner nice new outfit that I bought new shoes new everything and I figured that time little bit I know how much hell would be in store for me and I nearly would almost die, nearly strangled to death by someone i thought was a friend, because Nevada lowered my social security forcing me to live with others. A whole host of other things that happened and I’m still here to talk about it. But its pretty bad when the only way to see your mother is on the face of a mug!

Or on a 16 x 20 mural of mom and I before Mike Bunker abducted her from the Yockey address in Garden Grove, with no note forcing me to file a missing Persons report! Again, what a disgusting man.

She was so happy when I left…no goodbyes. He traumatized my poor mom…facts.

I would need to get paid megabucks to live in California or be hired for my abilities instead of denied because of my disability.

I was the only one to look after my mother’s welfare and cared about what she thought. As a person with Alzheimer’s disease live who doesn’t understand what’s going on, nobody explained to her that by signing this contract that Bunker was going to become a power of attorney of everything related to her.

You can’t hold someone that to sign a contract when they have Alzheimer’s disease cause they don’t know what they’re signing.

The attorney that did that should go to prison…..and I want to see him go to there so he cant draw void contracts on anyone else.

The repercussions that happened for signing that contract made my life a living hell and made my father’s life hell it made my mother’s life hell and I’m the only living one really to talk about it all. My mother but she can’t really fight, can she?

Mom was made to sign the contract making Mike Bunker power of attorney on all of her affairs. Dad gave him debit cards, bank account numbers and the works!

If I’d been there explaining this to her, instead of my brother Mike, the contract would not exist because she would have understood what her signature did. I did not know that.

One week after my dad died Bunker was in my mother’s house taking everything out of it ….everything from their plasma TV, stuff in the freezer, and he was laughing about it and thought it was a joke. It wasn’t a joke and after throwing me on the street, not caring if I lived or died the week before Christmas …I had to leave the state and live where it was cheaper….Survival it’s called.

I want just be served, and it will be.

I have so much evidence on him from photos of destroyed property, etc, to proof he had a family meeting at the Hyatt Regency on his birthday. Dad was dying at Chapman Care senior home then.

His sick, demented sense of humor will be coming to a halt very soon.

wasn’t hilarious nothing was funny about it all disgusting he took the stereo equipment he took everything he took a lazyboy recliner that my parents sad and everyday to watch TV together and it was hacked up thrown in the garbage can and I have photographs.

I have been in communication with district attorney about elevating the existing civil case to criminal level.

He made his bed but its just pathetic someone could be so lowly to do that for a cash payoff.

Whatever he promised two brothers and my sister, that they would sell out family that they would basically betray me and throw me away like I was garbage. I went on in spite of it all.

My mother is my only family I will claim, the rest I am ashamed of for one reason or another.

He forbid me even talking to her on the telephone. He lied to me, told me I didnt count and evicted me from thr property in Garden Grove the week before Christmas 2 years ago. Is that a winner?

He thought I never come back and insulted me with names that aren’t G rated.

First things first.

What kind of monetary settlement would you charge if someone stops you from seeing and talking to your mother for two and a half years?

What would you want to do that person what if they destroyed personal property of your parents?

I’m asking the world this because right now I have pictures I have evidence I have enough evidence written in photographs that I could put him in prison for the next 25 years.
Not to mention not seeing I got what my dad wanted me to have when he died.

art of me wants to but I’ve got to go and examine the situation and see how she’s being treated. I want to see in writing where almost half a million dollars went, which was the proceeds from my parent’s duplex.I want to see it in writing.

When my dad passed away over 2 years krosis and stroke several years ago as told by three probate attorneys absolutely without a doubt I’m old some money for my dad well I didn’t receive that because god knows how much of it the power of attorney embezzle. Even if it was one cent my dad had, I want it and by CA state law I am listed as the youngest child of four dad had. The state should have seen I was awarded something by CA law. The state didn’t the sherbet which is why I’m kind been contacting the district attorney in Sacramento.

Three attorneys lied to me and let’s just say I don’t want to pay money to pad some shiny shoes guy with a fancy brief case, like I did when I divorced in 2001.
How would I handle it myself and if we would’ve gotten lawyers involved in the case when the going on for 12 years! I probably could have written in the insurance policy in a really big only settlement because of the best of times the ex husband was a pretty damn good guy and he is a real rocket scientist if we did it ourselves that would have been much better.

This is some of what I been goin through today and throughout the week been really trying one of the most abilitati weeks I’ve gone through in my life I’m very happily relieved to know moms okay and that I finally have corporation from getting ready and they take me really seriously now.

When I lived in Orange County I went to the Garden Grove police department contacted Riverside protect Adult Protective Services didn’t do anything garbage. I called Riverside Adult Protective Services and I told him his moms dead I’m going to hold you liable because so help me God I was calling over and over they never did nothing I wanted to move her to another power of attorney and I wanted to move forward I felt it was better for her and nobody listens the only people that took what I said seriously with the Alzheimer’s Association of Riverside County.

Thank you for to support and your prayers and kind words all over the world. About  100 countries read Totally Inspired Mind now after two and half years.
CONTINUE PRAYING I STAND UP FIR THE PRINCIPKE OF THINGS. I AM MY MOTHERS VOICE BECAUSE SHE CANNOT SPEAK FOR HERSELF.
I WROTE A BLOG POST BY THAT TITLE.

PRAY FOR MY HEALTH, FINANCIAL STABILITY AND LOVE IN MY LIFE.
ENVISION ALL THAT FOR ME AND IT SHALL BECOME REALITY SOONER.

I WILL BE MEETING  with Senator Dina Titus here in Nevada SOON. I SPOKE TO HER ADVISOR TODAY. $549 IS WHAT THEY LOWERED MY SSI CHECK TO NOW! WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THAT?

A FRIEND OF MINE AND ANOTHER WHO IS BLIND GET OVER DOUBLE WHAT I DO. THE SENATORS CANNOT PLAY GOD WHEN returns to a disability, be at physical mental neurological is in my case or otherwise. You can say that one is better than the other it’s not right common it’s against my civil rights for somebody to play God.
I was there with her made meals for her by her clothes because he squandered the funds that she had and I tried to do the best that I could do instead of being disabled and on a very limited income with SSI. I just spoke with the head of the Moreno Valley Sheriff’s Department and he assured me she’s fine and I will have total cooperation from them to see my mother anytime I want from here on out and that is the best news I got for the last week. And as you all know who read this blog for over two and a half years she kind of means a lot to me you know without her, I wouldn’t be the courageous, artistic, compassion lady I am. She was my cheerleader, MY ANN SULLIVAN I was a sickly kid diagnosed with complex partial epilepsy at nine years old, choose my cheerleader, we laughed we joke a lot of good times I miss that for two and a half years my bunker and bring a bunker were so vindictive hateful and hurtful but they would even put the phone up to her ear to let me talked to her by phone! Can people be so cruel yes am i cruel now do I ever want to be like that now and I’m gone all it takes is one person to care and because of me my father live much longer than he would have otherwise cuz I’m going to call the paramedics then went up and down the driveway for a good 5 years I’m the one that made sure mom have clothes to wear when my sisters room all the way I tried to give instead of take and I feel good about that. My self respect and that’s huge commodity and very hard to come by they don’t have as much money because I didn’t happen to her bank account but that’s alright have a conscience and peace of mind is what I wanted and to know she’s OK and well taken care of and I can see here for here till the end of time until God allows us to not see each other anymore until she joins dad in heaven….is wonderful to me.

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Ramona’s Alzheimer’s Disease Daily

https://paper.li/PollyMotzko/1356862348

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A painting of the sea my mother painted…Ramona Lea Le Pore. …the one who gave me life, opened the world of reading at four year’s old, taught me how to play piano at nine year’s old, taught me compassion, integrity, values, confidence, and was my Anne Sullivan when I was a sick child diagnosed with epilepsy.
She is responsible in large part for the person I turned put to be.

I will always remember the many creative works she did.
Her 85th birthday is on June 19th and though I won’t be able to see her in CA in the 24 hour acute care Alzheimer’s group home she lives in, I am making her famous though she doesn’t know it.

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I want to monotize this newsletter and have the proceeds go to finding a cure for Alzheimer’s disease.

I knew I couldn’t prevent the progression of the disorder, but I could help others prevent it and work towards the cure.

Paulette L Motzko.
May 9th, 2015
3:18 p.m.

My Humble Abode is Coming Together More Each Day

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Moi at Denny’s close to my place.  I was wearing a beautiful dress my ex-mother-in-law bought me years ago, that was only worn a few times.
Last time I couldn’t wear it but have lost weight.
Was the most pleasant,  cool breezy day that day. It reminded me of southern California.

People were complimenting me everywhere I went which put a lilt in my step.
My waiter friend Flavio took the photo of me and I did some photo editing to it, making it look like it was drawn.

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I cooked up the best dinner now last night with my pans I missed so much when they were in storage so long.
Marinara sauce with sautéed portobello mushrooms, yellow squash, zucchini, red sweet peppers, red onion and garlic infuse the sauce with freshness and life.

That was the topper for cooked tortellini filled with Italian sausage and Parmesan.

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Picture of a mural I had made of mom and I on a stellar day at the Huntington Beach Pier two years ago. It seems like a century but I know I will see here again.
If mom only knew how many times she was mentioned and talked about as my best friend, life giver and cheerleader.

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The simple pleasures and delectable flavors of healthy foods that just happen to taste great: my breakfast parfait consisting of Greek yogurt, orange blossom honey, fresh strawberries and vanilla almond granola.

It is hard to believe that ABF Freight UPACK brought my treasures if the world in 3 of these just weeks ago:

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It has been soooo wonderful to play my music again. ..songs I composed as well as favorites like the many pieces in my Henry Mancini compendium. On the piano happily sirs “The Days of Wine and Roses” waiting for me to play again.

It is the first place since living on Melody Park Circle in Garden Grove that I have nice neighbors who love hearing me play.
Many have encouraged me to record my music and think of entertaining in a nice club here. I have my black book with my repertoire in it and crystal tip jar still, that miraculously made it in the move with very minimal funds and a flimsy box holding it.

You see, when that Mike Bunker (power of attorney over my mother now) told me to get out of a house that dad bought with me in mind in 1984 when I was single still and going to college years ago. He didn’t have a gun to my head but threatened me verbally, sent emails all the time and threatened to call the police on me. I just wanted the heck outta there. Now on this end, through being rushed and having minimal money for moving expenses, things were broken, stolen, ruined bur the things I valued most, that I packed, made it fine.

I put many thousands into that house I moved from that sold for a pretty penny. I know it was wrong but I know what I did for mom and dad was very right and I paid a good percentage of their mortgage and later was the one who called the pera medics when dad had one of his emergencies. Mom lost the cognitive ability to dial a number in the phone, due to her severe Alzheimer’s disease. How the siblings could have their heads on the sand to all those facts when they became callous to the point of malicious to make a sale and collect some money, I will never understand. ..and that’s good because I couldn’t and wouldn’t steal or lie or sell out as they did. In life you have to respect yourself and your actions and though the road there was a tough and treacherous one, I knew mom needed me at that time. Once I knew all her needs were being met short of seeing or talking to me on even a phone caused by Mike Bunker and my sister and whatever hatred she lugs around every day. They are a glorious example of what happens when too much power us given and abused by someone akin to Hitler. I pray justice is served every day with me now having filed a civil suit on the two for fraud, elder abuse and exploitation of three disabled people: me, my mother and dad in heaven now.
Please say a prayer that I will be able to see my own mother again and talk to her as before Mike Bunker came into the picture.
I am also owed money from my dad’s estate when he died but Bunker lied and said there was one less kid so he could take my share.

Wish I didn’t have that story to tell but the good news us I was the one sacrificing my time, my life and my monetary Funds to make sure mom was alright and I did that and more. I look at the one picture I took off the wall if mom and a gold crucifix my Nanny had and smile that that’s all I took. Mom was alive and dad had just died and it wasn’t right raping and pillaging the place as they did. I will show those photos to a California judge.
I know mom is alright by way to of an investigator with the Moreno Valley Sheriff’s Dept. Why they can’t tell me the physical address where she can be visited is ludicrous.

It is a time of new beginnings and new experiences and I hope I will have more time with mom, whether she remembers me or not. I pray she will.
You all can pray too.

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
February 11, 2015
5:30 am
Copy right Feb 2015

Images by Paulette L Motzko Studios

I want true peace of mind and will get it because I simply don’t give up when it matters.

Let Us Remember All Our Veterans and Military Troops

I want to give a warm 10 minute virtual standing ovation to all of our military and troops of The United States of America.

For the daily sacrifices made by all our military branches, who are modest real heroes who do more in one day than most in a week.
I will never fathom the strict life you lead of taking commands 24/7, all in the name of protecting what we Americans hold dear-our freedom and safety.

I ask God to protect and keep you safe in dangerous zones and I hope you will be back to safety with your families soon.

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Thank you for making the selfless sacrifices you do every day from the moment you wipe the sleep from your eyes, to the special moment when you can lay your weary head down in your bed.

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Thank you for being away from your families and friends and little children in the name of protecting me and our country.

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I will never be able to thank you enough but this is a pictorial tribute.

I want to help make happen in my life time a time when all Veterans and disabled people such as myself, have all their corporal needs met- so they can live in safety and dignity.

Paulette Le Pore Motzko
Copyright November 2014

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I wish war didn’t exist but because wars were fought in the name of righteousness, justice and freedom- –

Paulette Le Pore Motzko thanks you now and in the service of the future.

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Photo Sketch of Paulette L Motzko taken by Nick Belman Veteran of The USA
Digital Photo Editing by Paulette L Motzko

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
Copyright November 11th, 2014
1:58 a.m.

Photos found on Pinterest from various sources

Remember our veterans today and always.

Thank You Redheadedwhovian For Nominating Paulette L Motzko for Most Inspiring Blogger Award!

The Most Inspiring Blogger Award was one I hoped to earn one day and through the many hours of writing, design improvements, and finding what I believe are the best stories from a wide variety of sources, my creation inspired another grateful soul to nominate me.

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Yesterday I arose bright and early with the birds today at 4 a.m. and felt refreshed.

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I walked about a mile…maybe two, and moved at a good clip and didn’t feel winded. All my days at The Las Vegas Athletic Club are worth it in how much better I feel.

I wrote a proposal to do a feature story, photo & marketing package at The Clark County Library.

I was able to get my new library card too and check out a few Italian cooking magazines too.
I went to The Blueberry Hill Family Restaurant and had maybe the best bowl of chili I had in a restaurant and a friend picked me up.

I got home and found to my surprise that Totally Inspired PC won another award and it was The Most Inspiring Blogger Award this time.

Thank you everyone.

I will fill these blanks in tomorrow.

The curtain to this day is closing.

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Seven Facts About Paulette Motzko

1. Paulette Motzko believes that her attitude is the single most valuable asset you will ever carry with you. Her advice regarding YOUR ATTITUDE is: Guard it; Take care of it; Defend it; Plant more seeds that bloom into beautiful flowers every day. The “seeds” are the things you do for others, the way you spend your time, and who you allow in your life as well as who you associate with. Make sure all the people in your life set high standards for themselves so they can be good influences in your life.

2. We all have stories about our lives to tell. Even though I have had more than a few tragic tales to tell that happened in my life, I refuse to let them define me. Just because evil and apathetic people treated you as though you were less than garbage, know you aren’t and don’t treat others like you were. Treat people like you would have wanted to be treated if the world had been perfect.

3. I taught piano to all ages for over 20 years

4. Was married to a real rocket scientist for 15 years.

5. Stands up for all disabled people because she herself has an invisible disability epilepsy.

6. She tries and does the right thing, not the easy thing and hopes to have no regrets in life.

7. Paulette dreamed she could fly after watching Mary Poppins when she was four years old. The movie still remains one of her all time favorites.

My Nominations For Most Inspiring Blogger Award

1. Marco Jair Lopez http://MarcoJairLopez.wordpress.com
After Marco contacted me to look at his blog I was impressed with what he had written. I wasn’t aware it was only created a few days before. Though Marco is only 21, his wisdom is far greater. His story I reblogged has been on the Top Ten list since I shared it, and was number one on the site yesterday.
I know he is going to do great things with his words.

2. Paul Militaru’s Photography Portfolio
Htt://photopaulm.com
Paul’s amazing crystal clear photographs always awe and inspire me. His poetry and word pictures conjure up memories and always make me smile. If they don’t spark a pleasant memory, I can imagine I was there, or wish I was.
Thank you also Paul Militaru, for being one of my biggest fans on Totally Inspired Mind.
Every day, with every post, your recognition is appreciated.

3. PurpleRays at PurpleRays.wordpress.com

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It makes me feel good inside and out knowing when I invest hours on this site, which were over 4, it is seen, recognized and appreciated by all.

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Paulette L Motzko

Paulette L Motzko was the photographer who took the photos, edited them and put them into the Photo Badge pictured “Get Inspired”.

Totally Inspired Mind Photo Badge created
Other Images found on Facebook & Pinterest and Author Experience.

October 3rd, 2014
11:33 p.m.

Words of Gratitude to My 1,355 Followers on Totally Inspired Mind

Good morning Beautiful World!

I am drinking my morning coffee writing this on my Galaxy S Relay Smart Phone and feeling deeply appreciated by all the new people who have commented to me directly this week.

I am constantly running into new writers in my daily life who want to know how to get started, and I tell them to write every day.

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I also urge them to create a blog for readership, exposure, notoriety and a book list. That is what I did over 6 years ago when I read an article in a Writer’s Market book. I had heard the word “blog” but had no clue what it was and why people would write on it.

Now many years later, I have many different blogs on WordPress and wouldn’t use any other medium. WordPress is the only site where you can have a site up and running for free in a few hours of quality, uninterrupted time.

It also has a “reblog” button allowing you, the blog creator, to share other people’s work without asking their permission.
Most people are grateful when I choose to share their work on one of my sites and I end up corresponding with them.

I want to thank my many readers and followers of Totally Inspired Mind and those who have shared my link with others. 

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Have a blessed day!

Sincerely,

Paulette Le Pore Motzko
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Photo Credits:
Sunflower photo taken by my friend Francesca Cangialosi

Thank You Image found on Pinterest

Photo of Paulette Motzko which was taken by her talented friend Vesna Hanhart in her Las Vegas studio.

8:30 a.m.
Wednesday, September 17th, 2014
Updated with images Midnight September 18th, 2014

Totally Inspired Mind: Where Positive Minds Congregate

Brand New Day…Sunflowers Smiling Photography by Francesca Cangialosi, Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko, Copyright 2014

The Sunflower Smiles

“Tall and proudly I stand face upturned to the sun. Green leaves surrounding my cheery face making people smile. I know when God made me He knew I would give joy to others. I Line the fences in most every farm in America and am the focal point of every garden patch”….
I am The Sunflower.

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Every twenty four hours we are granted a new start and a new day when it doesn’t matter what happened prior. We can begin again, start anew and do our best effort in the quest to achieve our goals.
In the day light, the beautiful warmth of the sun casting its uplifting glow on us all.

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Photography by Francesca Cangialosi
Prose written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
Copyright September 2014

No Matter How Scientific Your Job, You Cannot Deny The Fact That Prayer Works!

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Even my ex-husband the rocket scientist was not an athiest, because he knew prayer worked in miraculous, unexplainable ways.

It isn’t important we understand everything in life; we never will understand all of life’s mysteries.

I had enough faith to fill a mountaintop and still do because I am a walking miracle and have lived most of my life with intractable epilepsy. After 2001 when I divorced my ex-husband who was never happy and was constantly depressed, did I realize that his problems weighed me down.

Some have it all in life…the successful job, the huge house and the everything…but are not happy people.

Some find the best in every one they meet and though their lives are far from perfect, they are told they have good Karma and are so wonderful to be around.

It is all how you play the hand God gives you in the game of life.
I have always known, that though at before Vimpat came out I am taking with the highest success rate for seizure control and lowest amount of side effects by UCB for partial seizures ever in history; health was a hit and miss thing for me.

Now I want to be a spokesperson for the drug and UCB…just need to contact the right person.

Back to the opening paragraph and photo…
We don’t have to understand why something works….but that it does.

I have a simple motto in life:

Do what works and do it over and over again, and avoid what doesn’t work….
And learn from your mistakes and don’t repeat them.

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
Copyright, August 9th, 2014

Every Day We Are Born Anew with the Sun with Magic In Our Hands

For Miss Katy who does a beautiful and artful blog called The Motherapi Shoppe on WordPress.com.

In response to her having a birthday on July 22, 2014 I wrote her this birthday haiku that illustrates that every day is a birthday and a chance for new explorations and insights.

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Every day I’m born
With the sun comes promise
Magic in my hands

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Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko

Copyright July 31st, 2014

Miss Paulette L Motzko with friend and photographer Leonardo Valencia

Miss Paulette L Motzko with friend and photographer Leonardo Valencia

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The Meeting of Two Artistic Souls: Ruby and Paulette Motzko

The Meeting of Two Artistic Souls: Paulette and Ruby

Photos of us together at The Bahama Breeze will be added of us that were taken as soon as I get them from Ruby P.

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
7 Rules of Life image found on Facebook from Image From The Heart
Ray of Light Photo found on Flickr

Copyright July 2014

July 11-12, 13th, 2014

Ever meet someone who comes into your life like a ray of sun after 20 days of darkness? Ever look into someone’s eyes and you immediately connect? I did earlier today with Ruby P. I met her at the University of Las Vegas NV yesterday afternoon when I was once again hoping and praying I would find my way to the Disabled Students Center, and felt as lost as I had felt each time I was there. I hate being confused and lost.

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I never had trouble like that at Golden West College in Huntington Beach and got a grip quickly after looking around. I never had that trouble when I was in the Master’s Certification program at Chapman University in Orange, CA where I graduated top of my class in the Voluntary Leadership Program and held the Summit Meeting, which was an honor and also a major accomplishment I will relish the rest of my life. I think the trouble is with the University of Las Vegas is too me it has too many of the buildings look alike with nothing to differentiate them. People paid $250 each to hear me speak about what epilepsy was and wasn’t and I filled up a classroom at Chapman U of about 50 people. It was a wonderful experience and it wasn’t even difficult to do. It was as though I had lived my whole life preparing me to do that; it was extraordinary. I didn’t tell them I had it until the end of the hour long presentation with an overhead projector and Power Point handouts. To see the shock on their face and the tears in their eyes when they looked at me and smiled and said “I never ever would have guessed you had epilepsy; I thought a friend of yours did, like you said. You didn’t let your disability get you down.” Those words were better than the applause and it was what I worked for since being a kid at nine years old made fun of and called names by a bunch of brats called kids who made fun of anything and anyone who was different than them. A few stood out like Sandra Newman and Cheryl Lightcap-who was blind and who didn’t judge and helped and knew ME-the person.

Anyhow, back to my meeting of Ruby who saw me at ULVN lost and said, “Hello Sweetheart, can I help you? Are you lost?” At that point, I was disheveled and worn out, hot and sweaty, (all of which I cannot stand.) Prior to meeting Ruby I was going through an ordeal getting my Tegretol prescription at Walgreens this week; I passed out two days before from the heat and carrying too much on the bus-with all my “people” I know gone on a trip to Los Angeles. Ironic that they went where I have wanted to go to go to my storage vaults there. Due to lack of communication and never being able to talk to the lady who owns the place I rent-no way. So close and so far away.
Even though I wore my sunscreen and more in the makeup I wore that day, my cheeks were flushed looking and I felt worn out. I will get the scooter or my Chariot of Fire, as I called it back in 1998 when I was having intractable auras every day to the point where, even with 3 medications, they were not working. Now, provided I am in the heat for short periods, which isn’t possible YET, and I keep myself hydrated, I am fine. I have a stable place I can call “home” now. It isn’t mine and what I used isn’t mine, but it is something and stable. I am moving up on the rung of life and though it rakes on my nerves because I have been waiting for so long…but I am used to having my own. My things may not impress others, but they are mine and after all I have lost, they are all I have left…along with my great friends who asked every day-how are you? Where are you? What is going on? I was entitled to a housing voucher since the amount I get in SSI is very low. Perhaps some string pulling can be done and this post I will have the mayor of Nevada read and see what results from it. The open mouth gets fed in this world, and I don’t mean eating!

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Prior to meeting Ruby in the hot and steamy parking lot-I had said an emphatic prayer asking God to see to it I would never be alone and my life would be easier. Within 10 minutes Ruby appeared as though a messenger from God. It was longer than this but what I basically said was: “C’mon God, I am a nice lady and I am trying to work hard and seeing nothing for it. Make things easier on me…please, for God’s Sake and don’t allow me to walk alone any more. I am sick of it. End my struggles.”

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Ruby was there and heard of some of my trials and tribulations and, even though I didn’t ask for a darn thing, she went to her purse and looked to see what she had and simply kindly gave it to me. When I saw her pull out a $5, and then another $5, and then another $5 and lastly another $5-I just look astonished and shocked at the same time and felt bad she was handing it to me, but I needed it and with the kind smile on her face, with her son Josh standing there smiling-I took it and said a whopping “thank you” and we hugged.

You see, what nothing is for one is everything for another. I remember when I was married to the rocket scientist and money was not even thought of, was always there-I gave $20 bills to homeless people that were living in the streets-and I saw them there. I was never in the street-but I have seen some bad places and dangerous places, just because they were cheap.

(I felt like I won the slots in Vegas. (I have been here 2 months and haven’t put one quarter in a slot machine-why? I can’t afford it. After paying two months’ rent in one month and buying a few household things, a very few personal care products-the money was gone after paying my phone bill. But then again, when you get under a thousand bucks a month-it vaporizes.)

She invited me to go to Bahama Breeze restaurant and, once again, asked me again and I my heart was melted by her kindness and generosity combined. It had been ages since I rode in an SUV or any car for that matter, since I am always schlepping around on a bus on my own. She ordered coconut shrimp, onion rings the size of donuts with coconut breading-which were amazing, empanadas with a curry beef and vegetable filling and lobster quesadillas. I am not sure if I died and went to heaven between the company, the beautiful tropical surroundings and then the food.

Turns out Ruby is a visionary woman like me who can see photos in her head of what she wants to paint and does graphic design reminiscent of her favorite artist Picasso. Her digital paintings she showed me on her IPad were simple but elegant but had intricate stories about her life imbedded in each one. With each word she told me about why she painted the photo, I saw how deep feeling she was.

I knew also that she and I would collaborate on creative endeavors be it written, painted, digital imaging, web sites, books, videos-or a combination of many of these mediums. She was born with special gifts and I was born with special gifts-so unique and so different from one another, but each can understand the other and appreciate what the other does in a way that two usually cannot.

Financial hardship is temporary and it is because I don’t have all of the things I earn a living with at my fingertips like my desk, books and piano-to teach on. I am finding new business leads in marketing, writing projects and photography projects that are highly rewarding, more rewarding than teaching ever was. I paid the house payment when the ex lost his job with Boeing years ago in our 6 bedroom cape cod style house. I had 20 piano students in Sandy, UT and taught every Mormon kid up and down the block. It was a wonderful place to live and have only great things to say about the Mormon church and their philosophies. I didn’t agree about everything they did, but you don’t have to. You only have to show respect for the other’s beliefs, and I did, so I got respect in return. Pretty simple stuff really.

I wrote a piece before this comparing me as the Phoenix Rising from the Ashes-which was my past life in southern CA.

In it I mentioned about my longing to find a good man, a gentleman, an intelligent, intellectual, generous-man-other than my dear friend Ron B-who doesn’t want a relationship or to marry.

The man I am thinking of moving in with who is a gentleman and kind and good is Greg M. We have been friends-which he was smart enough to see I really needed one. The trouble is he has no phone and there are decisions to be made and I need someone who can be reached.

I am not sure yet who my room mate will be but it will be someone financially & mentally stable…pretty funny requirements, but in southern CA, I never met anyone that met those simple requirements who was a good person that I would want to wake up every day and look at! Or, they were on drugs. Tons of drugees in CA all going to surf on the beach covered with tatoos and piercings in strange places.
In Las Vegas, NV people make eye contact, which is refeshing, go out on a limb to help you, and are not wired up to their bluetooths as often or texting all the time.

A man named Fred called me tonight- who is an electric engineer met at a restaurant and who took a liking to me-and was visiting Las Vegas when he was but had a house in Los Angeles. He wanted to go out with me and is single. I have always liked engineers and they have always liked me because I am creative. Time will tell.

One thing is for sure, God does listen when you pray a desperate prayer calling out into the oblivion.

You have to be very specific though. The more specific you are the better your results will be.
I know I will never be alone again. By moving to Nevada, I have met wonderful, kind, thoughtful caring people who have shown me more genuine kindness and who have not lost humanity, as I saw from my own family.

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Sometimes your family is nobody you are related to-that was my case it turned out. I am not the only one in the world that can say that, which gives me some consolation. Sometimes people choose things instead of people, greed instead of generosity, and apathy instead of love.
I began with my mother, who read to me before I was ever born, then taught me phonics, the piano, the guitar, kindness, compassion and a giving spirit. For her I began and with her I end it seems, with friends that are stellar who would do anything for me, and I them.

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I created this photo quote from words my mother Ramona Lea Le Pore said to me…

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I have a nice place to live and it will continue to get better and better. Through the literal hell I went through last year I was shown genuine love and kindness and to the point of doing without from one of my friends let me sleep in his own bed and he slept on the couch! I swear to God-and for that I will never ever forget-and will help him in every way I can. Another friend helped me get my medicine and is sending it to me. He cares more for me in his little finger than the “family” I am related to. If you lumped all my siblings and my brother-in-law/power of attorney together, they lack the compassion, integrity, intelligence to create even one normal person! Everything has a cause and effect in this world. They responded in the worst possible way to what should have been loving kindness and sensitivity to their sister-and they failed miserably where my mother Ramona’s needs were concerned-monetarily and physically. I am broke largely because I bought my mother what she needed as well as myself since only I was making sure she had what she needed. I also enjoyed spending time with her, because with advanced Alzheimer’s disease, I knew my time would be limited with her. So, whatever she wanted she got-while I was with her. All the focus was on dad.

I apologize if some of my regular fans and readers have heard this before, or something similar to it. In writing this, I wanted to just “get it all out there and then move on”. It is needed so I can re-build myself and move forward in a healthy way.

I had no medical care as long as I got alimony and my medical care costs a lot of money. I was selling things to afford my pills, and I am not kidding! I couldn’t collect alimony and SSI; it was either one or the other. I don’t know who makes the rules in CA, but they need revamping! Now in a week or so, with the help of my friend Ruby, she is driving me to the Medicaid office and it should a pretty easy thing, according to what I have been told in very high places, and from people who have done it.

My goals this week are to switch the Medical to Medicaid. That is my goal this week and to call some places where I can get a scooter for around town….

The above sentence was typed last night around midnight. Today Ruby calls me and tells me I can borrow a scooter she has that she isn’t using that would help me more than her. Yes, it is an answered prayer. Trick is, one more hinge-where I live is upstairs and there is no storage! (God likes playing games like this with me, making things hard and giving me something then making it impossible or near impossible to accept the gift!) I am a more industrious thinker than that though. I have two friends who live walking distance from me: One is Dr. Tariku Mekonnen-who happens to be sitting across from me at Starbucks-as though God put him there. We know the answer to the root of the problem is simply move to a ground level room, which I will begin looking. Then I can have a garage or storage for it. Where can I live for $350 a month here in Las Vegas, NV-or is there an even better plan awaiting me? I think so; I know so. IT was great while it lasted and was a good launching platform to catapult me to better and bigger and more harmonious places, where it is quieter and where I see the people I live with and I choose who I live with. There is a huge difference in that statement.
If I lived on ground level I could take my hand cart and put my computer and camera and other things in it-which is like the trunk of my invisible Mustang Turbo! Hey, when you don’t drive you have to invest in the best shoes made because my feet are my tires, and they have to carry me a long way.

I don’t drive due to a very near fatal accident over 15 years ago, and I am happy to be here. I can pay for a nice rental car and someone to drive it, and I will happily be the passenger and hand-select the right music to listen to….and put a smile on the driver’s face. That is where I was supposed to be. It is safer there than behind the wheel. The ex-used to always tell me “go for your independence” all the time, and like a nut I did. Then the worst nightmare happened; I had a seizure behind the wheel and the car ended up gnarled up in the chain link fence of a school yard! The worst part was I was unconscious and didn’t see the accident happen! I was unconscious for a while-then a guy who saw it happen called the paramedics and all along Sheer Lane in Huntington Beach, CA-where our house was-at the time-were people praying and hoping I would emerge unscathed. I didn’t have one scratch and no kids were killed-THANK GOD TEN TIMES OVER. That was enough for me. I am a quick learner and I must have said thank God a thousand times and said “I will never do this again!” I almost lost everything including my future by having a little so called “independence”. I heard my neighbors applaud and say “Thank God she’s alive!” The Ford Tempo I was in looked like a dinosaur from Jurassic Park picked it up and smashed it and threw it a mile. So, you could lay thousands of dollars on a platter and I wouldn’t drive if you paid me. I also wouldn’t do drugs that I don’t need, or drink because it would interfere with the medicine I take and send me to a hospital I don’t really want to go to. (I can think of much more fun things to do. Besides, I get drunk of Martinelli’s Sparkling Cider!)

I am a rich person because I have what I need and a lot of what I want now. Not all of what I want, but I will get it because I have been told by people that I have “drive” and “moxy” and courage and a “will of iron” and I am not afraid to work and to study to get something good in the end. I have also been told by a Maria Lourdes Lipardo, a friend who lives in the Philippines that I am transparent. Ruby told me today that “You are a truly sweet woman” and last night she said to me, which had me think and rethink myself because I never heard it: “Goodnight Sweet Child of God.” One thing’s for sure, I never talk bad about anybody’s back-unless it is truthful- who are in my life, because I am not friends with anyone like that!

This week I got everything I needed and a few unexpected extraordinary unique GIFTS that no money can buy like my new friend RUBY P.

Thank You To My 1138 Followers on Totally Inspired Mind: Where Positive Minds Congregate

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Paulette Le Pore Motzko

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July 1st, 2013

Las Vegas, NV

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Today it was the hottest day I have experienced in my nearly 53 years—a whopping 115 degrees! I felt like a human cookie being baked in an oven called Las Vegas, ha ha.
Buying a case of water bottles was in order, so when I go out and take the RTC bus, which is pretty damn good, and world’s better than OCTA in Orange County…I won’t melt.

The trick of surviving in Las Vegas, NV is to learn the less is more rule: less clothes, less drying your hair….just go out side with it wet and the hot, dry, sometimes windy weather will dry your hair naturally, as though you were under a hair dryer!

Wherever you live, be it by the sea, in the desert, or in the mountains, I wish you health and that you have more than what you need in terms of money, so you can worry less and enjoy life more.

2053 Posts Later Paulette L Motzko Says “Thank You to My 1057 Followers!”

Today I thank these countries for tuning in on June 2, 2014 at 9:30 a.m. The day is young so the best Totally Inspired Mind has done in a month was 6000 followers, which makes me smile inside and outside.

 

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This blog is my gift to the world!

 

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Photos taken of Paulette L Motzko by Nick F Belman at The City Hall Park in Brea, CA a few days ago.

Be True To Your Best Self

Time Wasted You Never Get Back
Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
May 22 and May 26th, 2014
Copyright May 2014
Time Wasted you never get back to invest in yourself and your future. If you don’t live each moment wisely now, you will only have a bunch of lackluster memories and regrets.
Be your best friend and only associate with positive people who are not rude, who do not yell and wouldn’t think of hurting you if their life depended on it. Your goal is to find people who treat you as good as you treat them-which should be with dignity and respect.
Be a giver and do small things for no reason other than you are able to. Not only will it give you countless memories and smiles when you recall all the times that you made a difference in someone’s life, but it will enrich your life too.
Don’t mope about family members who aren’t supportive.
Count your blessings and the friends in your life now as petals of a rose that blooms in the vase of your heart.
When you add enough of those people together, you have a “Bouquet of People” who enrich your life and who you can always count on to care about you. They are your FAMILY. The TRIED and TRUE of HEART, the Kind & Loving-
Those people are who make you shine like an Aurora Borealis light in the night sky.
If a person is there for you in the worst of times, they will be there for you to celebrate the best of times! Remember that.
People change. When people change for the worst, you do the same and change too by not including them in your life!
You owe it to yourself to only let the best in your world.
Making wise choices are a privilege we should use more often.
If someone is helping you, loving; keep them around for a while.
If life was a big brick of Cheddar the bad people are like mold on cheese. Watch out because that “mold” could spread on you and ruin the whole piece!
(People love that one when I tell them! I love picturesque analogies. You remember them!)
Sometimes blood relatives suck blood instead of offering health promoting benefits. If you are sick when you see someone, don’t see them. If the person upsets you uncontrollably-don’t see them. If you have ulcers and cannot afford the ulcer medicine, like I once had-remove the source of the ulcer! I did and I was related to 3 of them! I tell you not because I am flaunting this fact, but because I want to “liberate you” to know it is perfectly fine to not associate with someone-family or not.
When I looked up the meaning of “family” in the Webster Dictionary, I was astonished to see so many variations of the word. For purposes here, I like this basic definition:
“A people or group of people united by certain convictions.”
Although this one fits the general term we think of as a family unit:
“The basic unit in society traditionally consisting of two parents rearing their children.”
If you find that you are always agitated, upset emotionally when you are around someone-simply remove them. It is OK. No horrible repercussions will happen from doing do, other than you exercising your right to be an adult.
By the same token, associate more with those who value what you value, care about what you care about and don’t have a selfish mentality to only focus on them.
Almost three pages later and 600 words later, I am searching for the words that will sum up this article.
Everything has a chain reaction. Make every action positive in your life, including the people you associate with and the activities you do, as well as the words you say. By making a conscious effort to do the things outlined here, as well as employing positive self-talk and not allowing negative, self-talk or words to materialize, you will be editing your life.
I was married to a rocket scientist for 15 years and I think I am still part “engineer”. Engineers are modest people who always think of what they do in terms of “one of the group”, never taking credit for anything really.
I remember when I graduated at the top of my class at Chapman University in their Master’s Certification program in 1997. I was selected by my peers to run a class at The Summit Meeting 1997 that year. People paid $250 each to hear me speak and teach about what epilepsy was and wasn’t, how you acquire it and about the many falsehoods. I was the CEO & Founder of The Epilepsy Connection at the time. I created a PowerPoint Presentation with animations and had an overhead with transparencies that illustrated the many psychological aspects a person deals with when they have the invisible disorder.
In order to say the main points and to create the thing, I remember Mark-my ex-husband the rocket scientist, telling me-
“Do it this way instead: Cross off everything that is false and you will be left with the truth.”
I was doing it the opposite way but after he said that, I couldn’t believe how easy it was to arrive at the main points I wanted people to walk out of there with.
I say this because; you want to represent the truth and purity of intention with no hypocrisy or manipulative people around you. When you think you have found anything other than the truth and the best it can offer, edit it, so you will always be left with the truth, and what represents you the best.
As for the presentation I did for the people at Chapman U. I told them that a “friend of mine” had the disorder and I know I could help others who had it.
At the end of the presentation, I told them “The friend was me.”
People had tears in their eyes, and many did a standing ovation, and came and looked at me saying, “I never would have known!”
I looked back and said, “I know. People with epilepsy can do anything anyone else can and anyone at any age can acquire it by a fever, convulsions or a coma or a blow on the head. I had all of those things and nearly died before my second birthday. I have nearly died 4 times in my life and only want the best of the world to come my way and give the best back as long as I live.

 

 

 

 

 

 

With Pencil, Paper & an Idea -I Have The World!

With Paper, Pencil, Imagination & an Idea You Have The World!
Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
TotallyInspiredPC@gmail.com

May 22, 2014

Haikus Created when I had No Phone, No Computer, Nothing but Myself & Ingenuity
I recently ended up in a really bad hospital I was never supposed to have ever ended up in. Void of all communication and inundated with negative stimuli. I will tell you more details, if you ask and as time goes on. I  suffered through three days there and had my privacy violated, and time wasted and all for no valid reason.

Being that I am a “high functioning primate” I will search relentlessly in whatever situation I am in to find all my available “tools” and then I implement them!

These Haiku are a product of being in a situation I should never have been and making the best of out a prison-like existence. I am seeking a malpractice attorney regarding the specifics of how I got there, the money I lost and damages done currently.
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The world is changing
All people constantly change
Adapting brings strength

Moon glow
Moon glows in the dark
Lapis lazuli skyline

A glowing pearl moon

One of the worst things
Is to be in a bad place
That you want out of

The Purple Mountains
Against Saguaro cacti
Arizona Views

Industrious Mind
Survival of the Fittest
Will keep you Alive

Books are my best friends
Wise thoughts captured on pages
Change lives for all time

Immortal Pages
That Inspire, Teach and Show
My books will do that

All Haiku written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
Copyright May 2014

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