Two Passionate, Love Filled, Hope Filled Poems from Ramon Loyola

I met Ramon Loyola on Word Press when I was searching the world over to add new content to the writers work lab etc.
I saw his extraordinary poetry and read his blog and how excited he was (as I would be), seeing his books in a book store. I could relate. I really loved what I saw. I asked him if I could print two of his most hopeful positive poems/prose on either Totally Inspired Mind or The Writer’s Work Lab-and he loved my idea.
When I find something wonderful, something special, that has that has a unique quality to it, I can share it with the world. And so I did.

Paulette Le Pore Motzko

If And When by Ramon Loyola
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When you love,
Let the touch feel your warmth
So that it burns like a flame
In the bosom’s deepest cauldron,
Lingering.
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If you love,
Memorize the face that stares,
Its lines drawing all meaning
To all the desires revealed,
Undeniable.
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When you love,
Let the eyes see your heart
So that it remembers like child
In the mind’s most profound innocence,
Loving.

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If you love,
Cherish the oneness that keeps,
Its grace denying all weakness
To the soul’s unknown yearnings,
Fleeting.
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When you love (finally),
Let the kiss seal your fate
So that it binds like a chain
In life’s undying memory,
Eternal.
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Copyright Ramon Loyola, 2014

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Don’t Let It Go by Ramon Loyola

When you feel the warmth of the sun
On your goose-bumped arm
Like the feeling of a frenetic hand
The fingers nimble on your tingling skin
Where the sensation of gladness
Overwhelms you like that grand vista
Of a fresh meadow
Green and lush and
Misty and wide
Don’t let it go.
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The feeling is real
It can only get better,
Don’t let it go.

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Run up to the sharpest corner
At the end of the street
And grab the sun
Resting in the expanse of your palm
Don’t’ let it go

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It is as real as the veins
In your clenched hand
When you find the child again
Lurking deep in side
But rearing its head
Peeking through the small hole
On the forbidding fence
Between sorrow and bliss
When you seek for
The small joys
As you plan in the rain
Don’t let it go

The moment is clear
As vivid as the sky above
Don’t let it go

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It will slip by if you do
Glide along past you like a stranger
Who cares more for dire untruths
Don’t let it go
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It will leave you insignificant if you do
Undone in a crowded room
When you fall
Madly, truly and ever deeply
Where the hurt is inevitable
Where the heart is soured by
The insincere laughter
The dishonest words
Despite the piercing pain
The opposite of love
And heartfelt tenderness
Don’t let it go
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The eyes hold it in
The only truth in that look
Don’t let it go
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The memory will fade
The regret will set in
Making you forget the face
The eyes the skin the cheeks
Don’t let it go
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It will fade forever
Gone to the light
The water is deep
The air is thin
Hold your breath
Wave your arms above your head
Let your hair get wet
Freeze your toes in the frosty morning
Let the sun scorch your flesh
Laugh like nothing else matters
Shout to the top of your lungs
Weep silently and weep some more

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When you have tasted all
The nectars of pleasure
When pain has racked your bones
Has broken your heart into smithereens
And has made you steel for peace
And serenity has tempered your soul
And has stumped the chaos that confused you
That rumbled in the earth
Keep it close
Don’t let it go
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The firm paths are showing you
Like the sun guides the flowers to bloom
Don’t let it go
The answer is leading you
Clasping you tight like a lover in heat
Seeing your light at last
And when you find yourself finally
Don’t let it go
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It is fleeting but it will stay
As surely as the promise of mornings
Ramon Loyola, Copyright 2014

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Photography and Digital Arts by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
Copyright 2015

Friends Becoming Family and Answered Prayers

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Always be grateful for the people in your life that enrich it by their presence.

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My friend Leonardo Valencia is one of my best friends in the world here and has become family. We met inJune of last year, when I moved from Southern California to Las Vegas….my new desert home.

My friend David Rayburn is one of the nicest men I have ever known, and I was blessed when I moved on my apartment here and he became my neighbor and now great friend. He is strong, courageous, funny and sweet and we are two doors away from eachother. I have someone who loves my cooking and truly appreciates me and who I am. It seems that we both possess what the other needs.

My friend Ron B and I go back about ten years and we talk nearly every day, even though he lives in a small town back east called Hollistan, MA. Distance knows no boundaries when it comes to great friends and the bond that they share between each other.

My friend Francesca Cangiolosi and I met when I had my cooking blog called “Cooking Up a Storm All Over The World” up and running. I couldn’t afford to keep it running on Ning. Com and was having trouble with billing, so I let what I created over six years vanish off cyberspace. It was a conscious decision on my part I don’t regret. Friends now family like Francesca. She not only cooks really great but has a heart of gold and is one of the smartest most courageous people I have ever known. I am so grateful to know her.
She has been there through the good and the bad and stood beside me to weather the storms; that is a true friend. When she offered for me to come live with her, she became family.

Sometimes friends are better with who your family turns out to become. People change and are motivated to do cruel and evil things for monetary gain. Mine did but I can only be concerned with the fact that I held on to what mattered values and great friends emerge through the darkest of times.

Great friends enable you to see the strength in yourself you didn’t know you had.

Also, look around you and count the many blessings you prayed for and we’re given the answer to your prayers.

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Jot down some of the things that made you know God was listening to every word of every prayer.

Note: In no way are all my friends mentioned here. They would be too numerous to mention.

Written by
Paulette Le Pore Motzko

March 2015
Painted Pictures of Laguna Woods From a Distance, Simple Flowers, and Lucky Streak photos by Paulette L Motzko, PLM Studios.

Copyright March 5th, 2015
7:27 p.m.

A Virtual Valentine From Paulette Motzko’s Heart

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After two years since the birth of brain child Totally Inspired Mind, it has grown to nearly 2000 followers and     the readers come from misty all if the United States and Europe. New friendships have blossomed like a tulip springing forth in the spring.

The comments you all write fuel the fires burning deep within me to air stories about a wide array of topics and to delve into the field of music therapy, progressive relaxation, imagery and visualization exercises.

Holistic approaches to wellness and talking about how we’re all connected on this planet earth, even in spite of seeming differences are touched on.

I love how a story aired becomes so much more when it inspires another special and unique soul.

Each post that helps others and lights the way to new horizons becomes a living breathing, positive influence that changes attitudes and lives.

Thank you for the awards you have given this site, each and every reader…

I wish you love and joy and peace of mind and a healthy body.

Happy Valentine’s Day….

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Go out with friends if you don’t have a romantic partner….

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Celebrate Life and Living Fully With Others Dear To You.

Wall papers for your cell phones provided by Zedge.

Paulette L Motzko
Copyright Feb 13, 2015

Who Needs a Good Morning Hug? Hug The One You’re With & You’ll be Hugged Too!

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Good morning to all the 1,507 followers of Totally Inspired Mind: Where Positive Minds Congregate.
Thank you for sharing the stories, points and words of wisdom I write and hand select each day.

When you wake up in the morning don’t just run to get your morning cup of coffee (like I swear by) but show LOVE and THOUGHTFULNESS to every person who is in your path.

Set the coffee maker up the night before, make lunches the night before, set your clothes and accessories out & even take a shower the evening before (it will relax your muscles and help you sleep better), so all you do is wake up, be grateful you did wake up for another day on this great planet we share, and drink coffee (or tea or whatever you like), pray, meditate and get ready.

Allow yourself TIME so you can relax and NOT HURRY. Hug your significant other and tell your kids you love them as they head for school & work.
Show yourself you love yourself enough to give yourself TIME the night before and when you awaken so YOUR ATTITUDE will be BRIGHT along with the RISING SUN..

Written by Paulette L Motzko
October 29th, 2014
Copyright, 2014

Paulette Motzko Sends Good Karma to Each & Every One of Her 1,413 Followers

Thank you to all of the many readers and viewers who tune in and read the carefully chosen and selected words on Totally Inspired Mind: Where Positive Minds Congregate. The stats goes as such: 2, 721 posts varying in topics in 245 categories, and 2003 tags.

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And speaking of Karma or “what goes around comes around”, as my Nanny said…

I wish you the same you give me…
JOY
LOVE
APPRECIATION
I wish you all the good stuff in life. If you are in emotional pain or physical pain, I hope you seek the help you need to feel your optimum best.

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LOVE wallpaper hand selected from
Paulette L Motzko for all of you courtesy of Zedge.

And the feeling I know I am doing my part to make this world a better, happier place…
One word at a time.

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Rainbow Ocean wallpaper courtesy of Zedge. A gift from me to all of you. You can save the image and use it as a wallpaper on your smart phone or computer.

Thank you to the 396 who shared Totally Inspired Mind with others.

1. Marco Jair Lopez’s “Know Your Worth” is number one on the Top 10 of Top Posts and Pages

2. In the number two spot is the Home Page/Archives

3. Number 3 is “Some People Feel the Rain and Others Just Get Wet”, which usually makes it on the Top 10 most every day.

4. Number four brings the CNN story “12 Inspirational Women in STEM”

5. Number 5 spot is the CNN story “Unemployment falls below 6% for the first time since 2008.”

6. Astonishing Photo- Realistic Portraits You Won’t Believe Were Painted by Hand” courtesy of CNN

7. Number 7 comes “Dear Music, I will Never Be Able To Thank You Enough For Always Being There For Me.”

8. The Biggest Facebook Hoaxes

9. In the number 9 spot comes one of my personal favorite newsletters I created called ” The Quest For The Cancer Cure”

10. Lastly comes “Your Epilepsy News Resource”

It has been a really interesting week for so many reasons. Just meeting Marco Jair Lopez and mentoring him  on how to make blogging easy.

Wherever you are have a blessed evening.

Paulette Le Pore Motzko

October 3rd, 2014

3:20 p.m.

 

 

I want to thank The United Kingdom

The Good Ole USA my Homeland

Romania

Canada

Afghanistan

India

Philippines

Portugal

Singapore

Tunisia

 

God Bless, Preserve & Love America & Share This

God Bless America – Celine Dion – YouTube http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=v6fl4QgItA4 (Share from CM Browser)

Our country needs blessing in so many ways and our world needs even a bigger blessing. No matter what your faith or what you believe, it is possible for us to preserve our water systems, recycle our trash and help keep our country in good condition like a valued heirloom or pocket watch handed down to our children. Our country is much greater than a bauble or trinket, but without taking care of our cities, our suburbs and our neighborhoods and being environmentally conscious, our country will not be here to pass down for future generations.

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
Copyright July 27 2014

God bless the USA

Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose-Great Book

I just checked out the  book by Eckhart Tolle entitled “A New Earth: Awakening To Your Life’s Purpose” today at the Vista Library. My friend bragged about what an outstanding book it was and how it changed her life, and I must say it has been a joy to read.

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The spiritualist Eckhart Tolle talks about the beginning of the world and the first flower that ever bloomed and how it began and spoke of how Jesus talked about how we should be more like flowers. (I am not quite sure how, to be honest with you. Maybe you can elaborate on that thought.) Also, Tolle talks in the book of how flowers, more than any other primeval plant were associated with the human feelings of beauty and love and inspired countless poets and philosophers and painters and writers.

Also, Tolle mentioned that flowers influenced the concept of Zen in Buddhism and because of their fragrance and beautiful colors were one of the first things that we treasured and valued as beautiful that were not needed for survival.

And so goes what I have read of the book. As I read more, I will write about what I have learned.

What do you associate with beauty and love?

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko

Christ is the Head of this Home, the Unseen Guest at every meal, the Silent Listener to every conversation.

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My new found friend had this soon to grace the walls of her new place. I saw it and loved it and had to share it with the world and you, my readers.

Who is the head of your home?

What would others be listening to, if they eavesdropped?

What kind of blessing do you say at each meal?

Paulette L Motzko

June 6th, 2014
10:37 a.m.

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Home at Last by Paulette L Motzko

May 4th, 2014
9:00 a.m.

Home at Last

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We go through things in life that have us wondering why it all happened or we needed to go through these things. As we get older, the types of experiences number and we go through some trials, some tribulations and others-just puzzling with no real answers why.

What can we do when these things occur?

Keep going!

As Winston Churchill said: “What do you do when you go through hell? Keep on going! Keep going!”

I am typing with both hands now, and though it doesn’t feel like it did before and my left wrist is still sore-it moves without surgery! And though my index and ring fingers are sore when I type, I am typing back at my 80 w.p.m. and in time-I know it will get better.

My idea of occupational therapy is making homemade bread, typing, cooking, playing piano and just watching, very carefully, how I pick up things.

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My upright rosewood grand I will play again hopefully soon…

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I want to thank all of my many dedicated readers who said prayers for me that my wrist would mend itself and my fingers would work again, as before way me-because that prayer came true and was answered.

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I also want to thank the many who have followed along, Like Paton Place-me, my living situation and who prayed I would find a wonderful place to live.

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I found it and yes, I am home at last.

I am now a personal chef and caregiver for a wonderful lady in Laguna Woods, CA and all of her grown up children feel I am their Answered Prayer. They are mine and it is so peaceful, quiet and serene here. I am doing the same thing I did for my mom and dad but this time being appreciated and respected and compensated for it all!

She is my new found friend and the look in her eyes is one of genuine appreciation and love and kindness. When her son Don brought me to see the place I would be living and to meet his mother Mary Ann yesterday morning-I reached out my hand and said, “It is nice to meet you Mary Ann; I have heard so much about you!” She looked a me with a big smile and opened her arms up to give me a huge hug instead. We both wear the same Miraculous Medal around our necks and her mother prayed to the Blessed Virgin Mary-just as my mother Ramona still does. Aida had a smile like the sunshine and was also warm and kind and it was so wonderful to meet a family who so genuinely work with one another and care about their mother as much as I cared about mine.

My big bedroom overlooks a large balcony and this morning I was able to hear the birds from the evergreens planted all over the 18 miles of what is called Laguna Woods Village-sing their morning serenade.

There are shuttles that go in and out of Laguna Woods Village all day long-and since I don’t drive for medical reasons-it is like heaven to me. No more walking a mile or more in the heat, waiting an hour for a bus-from OCTA! I walk down the stairs and there are benches scattered all over that will take me virtually anywhere I would want to go!

Anyway, all I know is my blood pressure has dropped since moving here, I have met countless nice and helpful people here. For instance, I was trying to go to church with Mary Ann this morning but had no idea when the Laguna Woods Village buses ran. With a place as large as this, it is no wonder I feel lost here! I got a map of the area and opened it up and it was still confusing. I kept asking people how to get a bus back to the Laguna Woods Village area and ran across Mary and David-a handsome sweet couple coming out of J.C. Penny’s where I was told to wait for the bus-but I knew the person who told me was wrong! Turns out, I guess I am a good  “people reader” or have great hunches because Mary and David were my neighbors! Mary has the prettiest eyes and beautiful, curly, short hair and David, even though he was walking with a walker, with a hurt knee-made time for me-and said, “Oh, let’s just take her there Mary!”

I think these two really had wings hidden under their shirts! I know there was no random chance here, as sure as I know I felt a miracle was lurking on Craig’s List the day I found the ad that changed my life and Mary Ann’s. As much joy as Mary Ann has added to my life, in the short span since I have known her, I hope to add quality to her days as well.

I am looking forward to bringing in my desk and swiveling reclining chairs in on my  balcony and getting a little table to set my coffee cup down when I listen to God put on a Morning Serenade of birds here.
Here in what I call my Writing Room….or Outdoor Office

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It will be nice to bring in a few of my beloved books I miss, make meals with my Bobby Flay fire red cooking pans-that will cook meals for Mary Ann and hopefully her children and their children. Little did I know something like that would happen when I bought them. I only knew-with the way I take care of things, they would outlive me-like my rosewood grand piano.

Just when you feel like giving up-DON’T!

Just when you think you are forsaken-PRAY!

Open your heart up and lift your hands upward and pray the prayer of a despondent one, and then use the brain God gave you and do everything in your power to CHANGE YOUR SITUATION.

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Chances are, a miracle will happen, just like it did to me.
Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
Photography by Paulette L Motzko
Digital Photo Editing by Paulette L Motzko

Copyright May 2014
Sunday, May 4th, 2014

Happy Holidays & a Prosperous Healthy Happy New Year 2014

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May all of the fans, readers and followers who tune in to hear my words, see my pictures and the articles, poems, quotes that I hand select from thousands of topics…

May you have a joyous Christmas or holiday season, however you and your family celebrate it.

Totally Inspired Mind: Where Positive Minds Congregate was nominated for Best Blog of The Year 2013 by Don Charisma of DonCharisma.com.  I was soooo happy and felt a genuine sense of being rewarded when he told me yesterday.

Also, ChildrenAreOurFutureNow.wordpress.com also won Best Blog of The Year 2013 and Most Inventive Blog too.

Those two are held near and dear to my heart as well as the first hosted on Ning.com called “Cooking Up a Storm All Over The World!” CookingUpaStorminCA.ning.com.

I hope this rings in a year of health, prosperity and all things wonderful for every one of you!

Paulette Motzko

Images from Pinterest, Authors Unknown

Thank you.

Happy Thanksgiving to all who read this.

Curt Austen shared his prayer with the world and I share it with you all.

May you have peace of mind and health.

Many people can aquire many things, but they might not have peace.

When you have a place you can call home and enough money to cover your needs and a few of your wants, then someone special to enjoy it all with–you have it all.

Paulette Motzko
Thanksgiving 2013
5:34 p.m.

Who said this? “Often you see small and big wires, new and old, cheap & expensive…

“Often you see small and big wires, new and old, expensive electric cables that are useless, for until the current passes through them there will be no light.”

“The wires are you and me, the current is God. We have the power to let the current pass through us- to use us- or refuse to be used and allow darkness to spread”

I hope you like the first installment of “Who said this””

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There are Four Important Words In Life….

There are Four Important Words In Life....

I live by a credo that if you don’t have integrity you really don’t have anything, or more aptly put-you aren’t anything!

Lots of people claim they are successful, but if you aren’t a good person, you are missing the DNA of a human being’s soul.
Love, Honesty, Truth and Respect for Others are key to living a good and rewarding life and allowing others to do the same.

Paulette Le Pore Motzko

“Young Sea” by Carl Sandburg & Photography “Big Expanse of Blue” by Paulette Le Pore Motzko Photo Montage I

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Young Sea & Big Expanse of Blue

Photographic Word Montage by Paulette Le Pore Motzko and Carl Sandburg

The sea is never still.

It pounds on the shore

Restless as a young heart,

Hunting.

The sea speaks

And only the stormy hearts

Know what it says:

It is the face

        of a rough mother speaking.

The sea is young.

One storm cleans all the hoar

And loosens the age of it.

I hear it laughing, reckless.

They love the sea,

Men who ride it

And know they will die

Under the salt of it

Let only the young come,

Says the sea.

Let them kiss my face

And hear me.

I am the last word

And I tell

Where storms and stars come from.

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Prayer is a Cry of Gratitude and Love in the Midst of Trial and Joy

Prayer is a Cry of Gratitude and Love in the Midst of Trial and Joy

That quote came from a saint I am was named after when I was confirmed in 2001-Therese. She promised to shower roses from the Throne of God for anyone who prayed for her intercession to God.

I don’t understand it but I have many roses I have found-where no roses grow-after praying the Chaplet of St. Therese.

Then again, we don’t have to understand everything. We never will.

We should worry less about what we all believe, what race we are and things that stop us from communicating with one another. Tolerance and understanding are the bridges to the signing the next Peace Treaty.

A Pot of Jasmine Pearl Tea Plus My Time Equals a New Cooking Site

a Pot of Jasmine Pearl Tea Plus My Time Equals a New Cooking Site

My latest web creation is called “Cooking Up a Storm With Miss Polly”, me being Miss Polly, my persona in the cooking world. Polly was always my nick name when I was a kid and it was more endearing than the formal full name I use for journalistic endeavors of “Paulette Le Pore Motzko.”

I created http://www.CookingUpaStormWithMissPolly.com to be a Web Cook Book of what will be my cook book entitled “Springboards For Your Imagination” by Paulette Le Pore Motzko that will hopefully be released by next year.

I have to figure out how to create the kind of very sophisticated index that will not only have the type of dish, but ingredients of the dish.
As the recipes are put in there they will be auto indexed so you can find what you want and see at a glance how many dishes on the site have that ingredient in it.

I am going to have to work with WordPress and Matthew La Miuex my amazing computer tech friend to see how my vision can become a reality, much as this site was once a dream, along with TotallyInspiredPC.Wordpress.com.

Take a look and subscribe to both of them. There is no greater praise when you are a writer.

Paulette Motzko

The Many Things I Love

Things Paulette Motzko Loves….

Written New Years Eve 2012

Fresh baked bread nestled in a basket with its aroma luring you to taste.

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Carnivals, cotton candy, and children smiling and adults feeling as if they were young.

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Any pier with salt scented air, and wind swept hair blowing looking out at the big expanse of blue.

 

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Stationery and hand written letters written with calligraphy pens to written to someone special.

Country stores and wooden bins filled with colorful candies, friendly salespeople eager to sell.

A pot of tea steeping while my guests await the soothing flavor the conversation and company is better than the tea.

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45 records and memories of the days when I put one on the big stereo and played the song back.

My mother with her sweet smile and emerald green eyes. She is the reason I turned out the way I did. Without her I wouldn’t value what I do.

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Recipes and dishes from long ago, recreated meticulously by their creators, bits of history and culture you can taste.

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Synphoniums and music boxes that play angelic melodies and make my soul smile.

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Player pianos and ragtime music that plays an elite syncopation in quadruple meter.

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Books with pages and a cover, each one holding its own world inside with characters, players, poets and biographies. Computers will never take them over because they never need electricity, you can take them anywhere, and anyone can afford at least one.

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To be continued….

The Meaning of Christmas

The Meaning of Christmas

December 17th, 2012

Christmas is a time for giving to others, surprising others with your gifts of your time, your thoughtfulness and the joy that comes from being with those you love and hold dear.

The three gifts I got for Christmas was some peppermint bark candy from Jessica and her boyfriend who are my friends from Pizzarito, and a card composed of a beautiful painting by my friend Terry otherwise known as Tiger shark. We have known each other over 5 years and I took photographs of some beautiful paintings in the Pier side Gallery at Bella Terra Mall in Huntington Beach, CA one day. Little would I know that the guy that owned the gallery would steal his paintings and sell them on EBay and Craig’s List! I made a CD with all the photos I took in that gallery to make post cards for him to promote his work, because I believed in him and his talent. I never knew when I took them how valuable those photos would become.

This is the very special card Terry gave me two nights ago.

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We are all given gifts in this world and Edwards is surely photography. He has a special gift of capturing in for all time fantastic images that inspire and touch one’s soul. That is what his photo did when I saw it called “Welcome Home”. This Christmas is my first alone with only my dog since my mother Ramona Lea Le Pore will be living in an Assisted Living Care Home for those with dementia and Alzheimer’s Disease. We are still in transition of finding a place that is paid for with Medical and Medicare in hopes of not having to sell my mother’s house that her and my father paid into for 30 years. I am going to put some sincere effort into this with the help of the Alzheimer’s Association and the social workers there and a few other fantastic resources I discovered today through them.

After 12 years of living next door to her, I can almost see in the picture window of the duplex I still live in waving at me as I go out the door, but alas, there is no mom, just an empty chair where she used to look out the window. I know in time the transition will be better for her and I am hoping she will make friends her own age and will smile once again.

The photo called “Welcome Home” is named because when you approach the picture Christ and all the saints are welcoming you to heaven after a long life. When I did the assignment for my Advanced Photo Shop class at Santa Ana College, I asked if I could do something more persona and “close to home”. I called the Mission San Juan Capistrano and asked if I could do a photo shoot of the Basilica for an art assignment. I spent about 4 hours taking very detailed photos, probably 400 photographs, and then I put them all on my computer and began the creative process. After about 100 hours of editing time I produced this photo. It was as though my hand was guided or inspired from above.

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I have gotten only positive comments on this photo and people requesting their own to frame.

Usually when I am doing photo editing, my eyes get tired and with this one, there was no tiredness. I had to force myself to go to bed. When I was finished with it I felt like I had a hand on my shoulder saying, “Job well done!”

I would like to eventually put a book together of more photos like this one, but I do sell them individually for those who want them. It would be my dream to work with churches and other religious entities to take photos for them.

If you would like to obtain a signed museum quality 8-1/2 by 11 print of this inspiring collage photograph contact my friend Edward Dansby at:

Email Edward Dansby at: olvmstudios@gmail.com

They are $20 and Edward writes something inspirational on the back of each copy.

P.O. Box 12692, Westminster, CA 92685

If you would like to contact my friend Terry Davis, otherwise known as “Tiger Shark” to see more of his fabulous paintings, you can reach him at:

714-640-4637

Tell him you read the article that his friend Paulette Motzko wrote on Totally Inspired Mind and he will buy me a Starbucks coffee when I see him again.

Merry Christmas!

“Christmas isn’t One Day of the Year, But About Loving Others in Act Word & Deed All Year

“Christmas isn’t about the gifts or the bows or the packages, but in the people you hold in your heart and long to hug and be around. Christmas is in friends that became family, plans, great times together and in giving to others and in realizing we are all connected on this planet with LOVE.”-Paulette Le Pore Motzko

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Paulette’s Mother

Farmer's Market Finds

My good friend Kristen

My good friend Kristen

Polly's Tea Pot Menagerie to celebrate quality conversation with great people

Polly’s Tea Pot Menagerie to celebrate quality conversation with great people

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My artist friend Terry, otherwise known as "Tiger Shark"

My dog Lucky Motzko looking cute on my bed one night.

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I have so many friends I don’t have photos of and so many wonderful times that were never captured on film. That is what Christmas is made of. You can celebrate it all year long and a little bit every day of the year, if you wanted to.

The Best Christmas Present I Gave Myself-Time with My Mom-Ramona Lea Le Pore

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The photo shown here is of my mom back in March of this year. We had an awesome day with our friend Glenn at the Huntington Beach pier. It was as though everything went our way. It was the first time my mother and I had gone out on the town, so to speak, since my dad’s death, after having dementia, a severe heart condition and being totally bed ridden. My mother was a caregiver 4 times in a row, and helped me more than once in my life. The best of who I am I owe to her and I would pull a star out of the sky for her.

Now the only time I see her is when I see her in a photo in the Christmas cards I designed or in a cup I had made for her and I, showing the two of us on Thanksgiving.

I had once of the worst days today because my Brother in Law, Mike Bunker, who works at Fancy Stitchin in Moreno Valley, CA will not put a call through to my mother Ramona Le Pore. She will not tell me where she is and insists that I only see her for an hour visit with only him around.

I am just a nice disabled able minded lady who is doing her best to earn a living as a writer, photographer and marketing consultant. Provided I am not living with constant drama, as I have here for what seems like forever, I feel great.

I know all this will soon be over and  as the moving van pulls up and packs up my desk, tables, many books and the room I hate to leave the most, my kitchen, because dad desgined that for me when I was 24 years old. He built the tiles in there, and created a wooden shelf that has tea pots on it now.

Dad I wish you could see all this happening now and stop it. I think the kids thought you were the referee keeping the kids in line. We are NOT kids though. I am 51 years old and then you have varying ages all the way up to 63. Amazing how greedy money can make you. I didn’t want my parent’s money or house or anything, but my parents. I still cry when I see a happy photo of them together because now I don’t have either one.

Let tomorrow bring a much brighter day and a few unexpected miracles!

 

What do you do when a Power of Attorney runs wild and the person turns into a monster?

I want the best for my mother but I came first and he did not.

I also have only so much money to invest in paying lawyers to make this whole mess right.

After living in this duplex next to my folks for 12 years the power is going to be shut down on the property soon and the heat is already turned off. I have a space heater in my bedroom and of course light to write this and electricity and the music from my IPOD, thank God, since my brother stupidly unplugged my receiver on my stereo when he took out the cable box today!

There are times when you can look around and wonder where Christmas is. This is the only one where I have been looking and not finding. I helped a homeless family during the week before Christmas not be home less for a week at a Motel 3 and the kid that had tears in eyes-Christopher Traveno, put a smile on my face when I did it.

Money can do wonderful things. It can cure cancer if you pay the right researchers to find the cure. It can feed the home less, it can find new cures for epilepsy, which I have had since I was 9 years young.

I miss my mom and want to see her as something other than in a picture in the Christmas cards I designed this year. I pulled off a picture of her when she was 16 and so beautiful. There was a time we looked like twins in so many ways. She could light a beacon up like a beam up light.

Mike Bunker was throwing good food, $8 salmon I just bought mom in the garbage while my brother idly watched it all go by. We were raised in a poor house, but blessed what he had and were glad we were alive. We didn’t have a table with chairs but a pic nic bench that mom painted white in our first house on Perrin Drive. Later on, when dad made more money and he did great in sales selling major appliaances, a big maple table came in with big heavy wood chairs. I love the pic nic table we had and how I miss that table now and mom and now dad looking down on all of this non sense.

I am not sure where this story is going but it feels good to write and as the tears stream down my face.

How did my family turn so callous and full of hate and where did those values go to do this? I have come to realize that hatred, that festers inside my sister Brenda Bunker has been like disease that has messed up even my brother’s reasoning making him think this was right?

My dad’s mother we called “Nanny” lived with us then and cooked for us when my mom worked as a waitress. She made oatmeal and showed me how to cook at an early age and cooking was a passion my dad truly enjoyed-food and music and simple things like gardening were his pleasures. That is why it was so sad to see all the things he loved stripped from him at the end of his life, when all he could do was look up at a ceiling, not being able to move his arms from osteoarthritis.

I have one family member and now she is being held for ransom by the way I see it. Nobody should be able to do a power trip or turn out their aggressions by taking away the most valuable family member to me as of December 13th 2012….a few siblings that don’t choose their words wisely and don’t place their values in the right place do not count.

Make this right Lord, I know there is an Omnipotent Presence in this world and I know prayer is powerful but it seems I have been sending up smoke signals by the outcome I am getting here.

I hope to make a move and be out of here before the power goes out on my place and Mike Bunker the evil brother in law turns everything off here just because he can.

We need to change the laws concerning power of attorney because once given, the person can become the equivalent of HItler, as in the case of Mike Bunker.

I am the one suffering here and I shouldn’t be.

My mother and I were very close and always will be. I have two gifts I gave myself under my small tree but the gift I want most of all is A HUG FROM MY MOTHER RAMONA LEA.

If any of you know of a civil attorney who can knock some sense into my sister and brother in law Mike & Brenda Bunker, and make them remember what kindness and fairness is all about, please contact me:

Paulette_Motzko@yahoo.com

Why is the house going to be sold? To pay for the $3000 in medical expenses for an assisted living place.

If you read this and you know of a way we save our house, for God’s sake speak up now!

I woke up to a realtor next door where mom used to be.

Sad part, my family doesn’t care if I am homeless and my mother wanted to will this property to me since I paid $85,000 into it over 12 years with rent.

As soon as word got out they whisked mom out to Moreno Valley and quickly deemed her incompetent! Sound fishy to you? Me too.

How about a “family meeting” at the Hyatt Regency Hotel on Mike Bunker’s Birthday, August 19th, 2012? Dad was dying in a hospital and he was using his debit card on this. What are the odds? I would say 98% good. All my hunches have been dead on right my whole life.

I call a spade a spade and there are people that are just nasty and rotten to the core and my brother in law is just that. I had a really nice sister before she married him.

I will be calling Atlas Van Lines to get a quote to start packing my stuff up. The party I envisioned is going down the tubes, and I just don’t feel any cheer but am hoping tomorrow feels more hopeful.

Why is it that some hold on to their values and what matters and others don’t?

Why can’t the rest realize that my mother has the right to go into her own house and pick things she loves the most to take where she is going? He talks about her as though she is dead and dumb, and that is EDLER ABUSE.

After I know mom is alright, I can rest easy and relax-Hear me Lord? Let me contact all the people necessary to allow me to see my mom when I want and allow her to come back into the house she rightly owns!

This is soooooooooooooooooo wrong!

Paulette Le Pore Motzko

December 13th, 2012

10:25 PM