There are so many reasons to look back at 2012 and be thankful for what I have in spite of losing my father, who battled with congestive heart failure for many years and ended up a totally disable man. I know his prayers of “not being in misery any more” when he passed away in September 2012.
I still have my dear mother Ramona who encouraged me to follow my dreams, read to me when I was 4 years old, taught me phonetics and how to read any book and sound out the words, not needing kindergarten being totally ready for second grade.
Creativity was encouraged in my household when I was a kid and I think above all things they gave me the ability to think creatively and do what had never been done. Every night at the dinner table dad would ask every body, “What did you learn today”, and we would go around the dinner table, which was a painted picnic table.
Everybody would answer and we always would feel better, learn something and realize what the meaning of “family” was all about. My Nanny, my dad’s mother, was of course alive then too, and resounded honesty, integrity even more than my parents almost did and her very blunt way, is what I grew up with and what people respect most about me now.
What are your goals for this year?
What steps can you do every day to see you achieve them?
I wish my family would read what I write because they would change their selfish attitudes about life and living and if only one of them would operate their life on a Triple Win mentality, meaning thinking about what would be good for all rather than the one-things would change radically for the better.
I can always hope they will. I have been actually communicating in a positive way with my brother in law who is power of attorney on my mother’s affairs. If he would give me an additional two months to live where I am living, in a house my mother is the sole owner on, I could get into a place that would be better for me. It would take until March 2013 to get the place I want. I am simple going to write him and explain why I need it and hopefully he and my sister will find a way to take care of mom until I am situated and get a place with the state funded disabled housing program I have been working within the confines in for the last year.
I am hoping that God looks kindly on me and for all the meals and good things I did for mom and dad while they were alive and living next to me, I am able to now live a life with dignity and integrity on my own.
IT is amazing how much more you can get with kindness, as my mother used to say.
I know there are simply two ways you can take to life. You can be good to others and treat them as you would want to be treated or you can not. I would rather do the “spread good around” philosophy than the other.
I do know we need more Disability Advocates because as it seems I am the only one I know of when I did that as the CEO Founder of The Epilepsy Connection helping people all over the world who had the invisible disorder for 6 years. I didn’t get paid a cent but was working on getting a501c3 tax status in 1997, and then my ex husband developed a temper that no kitchen remodel was going to get me to stay around for.
I hope all who read this take time to write something positive and let me know what you feel about the things I write.
God bless and I hope God will create some miracles in my life very soon in regards to my housing situation because I need them.
January 4th, 2013