I want to give a heartfelt thanks to these countries that tuned in today and made it their point to see what I was writing about, and sharing.
This year has gone off to a good start and e
These are the countries that tuned in on Sunday, January 12th, 2014
Today the demographics totally changed and the main thing that remains constant with all of the things I write is The World Is Reading What Paulette Le Pore Motzko writes.
I woke the world up with the articles I write about how we are all connected on this big blue planet called earth, the homeless epidemic, homeless veterans and why those two words should never go together or homeless disabled person and why I want to see that all people, no matter who they are, are allowed to live with respect and dignity.
From the quotes I select or write myself, to the photos I shoot or choose to air, it speaks worlds about me.
This post originally would have been much better and I intended to elaborate how much I appreciate all the new readers who also are writers and photographers, but something happened to stop me.
I had a bad breakthrough complex partial seizure in the Starbucks that was playing overly funky loud music in Anaheim on Katella & State College Blvd. I asked my friend Nick Belman to ask them to turn the music down. (Because then I could have focused on how to abort the aura I was having with biofeedback combined with imagery and progressive relaxation.) I needed QUIET to do that though.
Instead my “friend” Nick argues me and starts yelling predicting what the baristas would say beforehand, always the defeatest personality….so he never asked them and I passed out, just as I knew I would if he didn’t simply ask!
If that wasn’t bad enough, he started yelling at me and insulting me so the chapters of our friendship closed last night. It is not rocket science to help someone in time of need- is it?
I felt like a steam roller had run over me and knew it had been a bad one and it left me with auras-that feel the same as the seizures. After calling everybody I knew with cars-3 people-and none of them being able to make it for one reason or another….I said a trillion prayers for strength and made it home on the hour bus ride “home”-where I didn’t even want to be-because I live with Nick Belman-the guy that screamed at me calling me names after I was the one that had a seizure!
Oh well. Some have to have it spelled out for them why I will not be friends with him.
A friend looks after another friend, defends a true friend, makes sure they are alright, protects them and doesn’t have to be told these things.
I have heard verbal abuse since my “friend Nick” has allowed me to stay with him. For staying with him I made meals with him and gave him a reason to smile that he didn’t have before. Gave him my 14 MP digital camera so he would have something to shoot photos with, because he is a talented photographer. He doesn’t use it though and has not expressed desire to learn or even try. I think the gift was wasted.
The reason I am telling the world any of this is:
After the age of 18 years of age, people are choices we keep in our lives.
If the person keeps failing miserably and showing you that not only he doesn’t value you or care about whether you make it home safely or in one piece and shows total apathy or stupidity-you don’t need that person in your life. It doesn’t matter if you are related to that person or not, if they abuse you on regular basis, do everything you can to avoid that person and remove them from your life.
People are a combination of who their parents were and also they can become more than their parents were by the dedication and drive and persistence and passion in which they fought for what they believed.
If anyone knows of a kind, Christian family that would love to have me live in a spare room, until I get things settled with my new room mate, who I found. It is only a matter of time now. Between us both we can afford a place and that we will be able to call home. I will cook and can cook really great dishes for the family who I will live with, for the price of a room to stay in temporarily- about a month.
I only hope that Nick can remember the good times we had together, which were numerous, and look at the photos, and remember the meals I cooked for him during the 6 months I have slept on his couch.
Why in the heck was I sleeping on his couch?
Well, that is a whole other story that can be explained by reading “I Am My Mother’s Voice”, and about how after choosing to pay my parent’s mortgage on their house for 13 years and help my mom-still alive, thank God, with Alzheimer’s disease, my brother-in-law & sister evicted me from the duplex and didn’t care what happened to me-literally!
Yes, sometimes bad things happen to good people, and I am a good person that had bad happen to me but I will never ever let it ruin me or warp the inherent good I know are in most of the people I come in contact with through the course of my days.
Question for you: Is something really a gift if you hear about it all the time from the person who gave it to you?
Answer: NO. A gift is something that is willingly given, even knowing you might never ever get one iota of credit for giving it.
You know someone is genuine when they do something knowing they will never get paid for it, but because they can.
If any of you live in Orange County, CA or know of a family member who lives in Orange County and would allow me to rent a room in a clean non smoking household-I can cook for the family, clean for the family and help with older kids.
In other words, create a triple win situation that would genuinely help the family.
Email me at either Paulette_Motzko@yahoo.com
I was seizure free before being evicted from the place I live in April.
When I live in a kind caring home without people yelling at me or screaming at me or belittling me-I will have peace of mind and health once again.
Everybody pray that happens soon!
Yes I am 100% eligible for a HUD housing voucher, but they tell me there is a ten year wait. Quite a joke, isn’t it and they mayor doesn’t care or any of the directors of the Urban Housing program.
Most are overpaid paper turners that just keep turning papers mindlessly and don’t care to get more funding for program that goes hand in hand with having SSI or SSDI.
A program is essential because even the highest paycheck in SSI is below poverty wage. The solace comes in knowing I am not the only disabled person in this predicament, but I want to be the one that changed how pathetic the system currently is…and I will in good time.
Before publishing this blog post, I want to thank God for answering most of my prayers recently. My health and my pills work as long as I am not harassed, yelled at or mistreated.
Hopefully after printing this Nick will see how this reads and sounds and wish me well, be kind and say two magic words that won’t heal it or make what he did right, but at least it shows she has a conscious. “I’m Sorry.” He also could be incapable of admitting he is wrong in any capacity whatsoever, which would be sad for him.
I want to thank these countries for tuning in today and finding inspiration in my words, beauty in my photographs and interest in who I am. More people have read “About Paulette Le Pore Motzko” than anything on Totally Inspired Mind: Where Positive Minds Congregate.
I am the only one by that name in the world, and I have checked extensively. That way, there is no confusion who the lady is who bears that French Italian Polish name!
Thank you to these countries for tuning in to Totally Inspired Mind: Where Positive Minds Congregate.
Thank you for sharing my site and telling others about it 253 times!
There are now 1,268 posts on the site and there are 244 subject categories about everything from American Indian Wisdom to Positivity.
Thank you my fellow writer friends and photographer friends for adding so much to joy and depth to my life.
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Monday, January 13th, 2014
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