Sign and Share Tom Steyer’s Petition to Impeach Donald Trump: https://action.needtoimpeach.com/t4-img?sc=fbs

I already signed this existing petition which allows you to voice your opinion about how Trump is handling things as President. 

It’s all done digitally and takes about 3 minutes to sign digitally.

1 million signatures are needed so share it everywhere if you feel strongly about Freedom, the Integrity of our people as American citizens, and want to see that our children grow up an environment where they look up to their elders and are not disgusted by them instead.

Give me long enough and I can usually find the answer to most anything.

 I’m kind of like a white paper in writing, in that I try tout find the answer or solution in most every situation, finding positive solutions to problems or simply enhancing the quality of people’s personal and work lives.

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Written and Compiled by Paulette Motzko.

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko.

November 30th 2017. 9:26 a.m.

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Light House by James Taylor & “A Lighthouse is what I Hope to Be” by Paulette Le Pore Motzko

I am so surprised I have never heard this beautiful song by James Taylor and that it wasn’t played more when it came out years ago, and isn’t played more now. 
His music got me through high school and it’s still getting me by. Between his melodic harmonies,  beautiful guitar playing, and wisdom filled words…he’s still got it and illustrates how you can get better as you get older

Like James Taylor’s beautiful song,

 I  want to be a lighthouse that shine’s a ray of hopeful light out for all to see…

I want it lead the way to safety and more positive and hopeful paths for others.

I have treaded tragic paths so gruesome it would shock most people and I don’t think the average person could have lived and survived through it. I know they wouldn’t have.

Fortunately I wasn’t made average though, and I am always adapting each day, doing the best with what parameters I am given.

I have lived through a literal hell of health problems, striving for better times while making most of the least, while becoming more.

 I had to become strong, industrious and good at research to find the answers to my medical dilemmas and to get answers on how to find my cure to intractable catamenial epilepsy. There is no cure, but with the right medicine, doctor, diet, sleep and winning attitude, I am doing very well. After all, when you have everything to gain from finding the answers, you look harder and relentlessly. 

 When you do find life changing answers to help yourself, you can also help others with it as well and possibly even make history….which gives me great joy at the mere thought. 

In spite of all the hell and lack of friends throughout my life, who I thought had integrity but found friends who are not genuine when they discover you are “different” from them and don’t like you unconditionally as I do with others.

 I always focused on what my abilities were and all the positive aspects of my life. Being dealt a disability-epilepsy at nine years old; that is all I have known. My best and first friend was blind like Helen Keller, and she was genuine and thoroughly as accepting of me as I was her. I learned qualities like compassion and empathy early though, unlike most kids. 

Those earliest memories helped form my character who us one who sees the beauty in all people.

I continually tried to push to the limits, erasing the word DIS and maximizing the word ABILTIES.

I hope and pray one day my disability will simply fade away like a ship in the bleak of night, passing the lighthouse on by, letting my light shine as it was always supposed to.

I hope one day my light will shine so brilliantly, like an aurora borealis crystal, sparking so bright that people forget and simply don’t care that I was “disabled” at all….but know my special talents far way anything else. 
Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko,

Images from Zedge

Compiled by Paulette Motzko

Copyright June 23rd, 2017

12:23 midnight

Updated 7:03 a.m.

When $65,000 a year for a drug is applauded : Pharmaceutical Prices & A Disabled Person’s Right To Live in Dignity with All Needs Met

When $65,000 a year for a drug is applauded

http://www.cnn.com/2017/04/03/health/prescription-drug-prices-public-opinion/index.html

Paulette Le Pore Motzko’s Note to Pharmaceutical Companies on Placing People First and Nevada’s Unfair Treatment of People with Epilepsy, Civil Rights & Disabilities 

I wish more pharmaceutical companies had more or a “Triple Win Attitude”: I Win, You Win & Society Wins. Huge multi million dollar companies need to keep ever present the real, flesh and blood people they are developing the drug to help.

They simply can function effectively as a business and still charge less  for the consumer. 

For instance, my medicine for epilepsy called Vimpat that I take is $20 a pill made by UCB. It cost nearly $2,300 a month along with my Tegretol that I take for a complex partial epilepsy. I have Nevada Medicaid and am on SSI, which allows you to make money and collect it, and pays less than SSDI-full disability.  (it also took two and a half years to win with the aid of a social security disability lawyer  too and I had to say goodbye to my alimony from the rocket scientist I was married to for 15 years to get that crappy $728 but my medical is covered. 

Yet after stating all those facts, the state of Nevada doesn’t think anyone who was diagnosed with epilepsy has a medical conditiom or termed disabled, even though the director at the DMV told me I will automatically get a disabled placard when I update my Nevada state ID.

 (I’m still trying to obtain a certified copy of my old marriage license to prove I’m Paulette Le Pore Motzko. That’s a $65 stupid document is so outrageous it is unbelievable. I’ve been divorced from him since 2001 and my name was legally changed in Garden Grove, California in 1986, when I got married.  I’m going to go talk to one of my friends who is a librarian and see if she can get me the silly document free because $65 is a lot of money to prove I’m who I am! I’ve been trying to get that document 3 times now and it is difficult since my CA ID expired on my birthday last August.

Nevada needs to spend more time educating their political leaders about things like crimehuman dignity, the pedestrian fatality rate and placing penalties on drunk drivers and their educating RTC and people who are public servants about various disabilities, NAMELY neurological ones like EPILEPSY. That would use everybody’s time in an effort worth expending time on.

This may be Nevada and it may have the worst weather in the United States, and 60 mile an hour-knock you on your ass dust storms, high fraud rates,  allergies that wont quit due to blowing dust, and vapes and casinos on every corner with few nonsmoking areas other than Starbucks.

But Nevada is still only one state in the USA it still is the United States of America. And as far as I’m concerned as far as I know, in the USA, we all have certain basic rights.

One of those rights is to be treated fairly. Denying people with epilepsy the right to use Paratransit and having the head Federal representative not know what epilepsy even is is a crime.  

That should be against the law and it probably is.

After after the grand negligence that happened to me regarding Paratransit  and the callousness and apathy on behalf of Senator Harry Reid’s office is disgusting.

 It doesn’t reflect great kindly on him.  The irony is Harry Reid can barely see and uses Paratransit himself, so you think he’d be the first understand the meaning of a doctor’s letter when a doctor writes for a patient to take a medication and says you need it to live, which mine has done since age 9.

You think he would understand as well as the governor,  how important it is to look after the safety of people with epilepsy and not allow them to be injured. I was.

 I was talking to Harry Reid about raising the cost of living index to $1200 a month for all people on SSI and SSDI. 

I still have pictures of the first place I lived in when I first moved here.  That horrid $728 a month buys nothing  in terms of living quality and your standard of life. All you have to do is  think and care and be a responsible person realize that along with all inflation and elevated prices going up, the cost of living index for all disabled people  hasn’t been raised in over 20 years.

SSI is $200 less than what California has per month. Who created an SSI (supplementary Social Security) of $728 anyway? A monkey with an abacus?  Everything needs to be updated  to reflect 2017 prices. Make the minimum BE $1000 for God’s sake! Round it up. Turn the insulting, impoverished amount in to something a human being can really spend, not just make due in the real world. $1200 is actually usable and workable  for the average person.

 Anybody who thinks that SSI and SSDI checks are handed on a platter they are not you are sadly mistaken.


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Lawyer Bill LaTour won my case in Southern California and I can’t count all of the doctors I went to and specialists and career counselors and all the questions I had to answer and psychological assessments in order to finally present my case. Most who are disabled would rather be working. In the final hearing all of the doctors and the career counselor appeared in a small courtroom and they’re the judge asked me what my name was and after about 5 minutes he reviewed all the evidence presented by every one of the doctors that I had to see you over the course of a year and a half before he finally awarded me ssi. That took a mere five minutes and those were the only words that I other than that. 

You can’t sue the government but you can sue people who work for the government.  And one by one I will if I don’t get my Paratransit FOR MYSELF AND SET A PRECIDENT FOR ALL WHO HAVE EPILEPSY IN THE STATE OF NEVADA. 

After all, I’m the former President and founder of The Epilepsy Connection which was a grassroots organization in Orange County, California  that helped countless people in California and many other states, and three other countries who had no other resources whatsoever. I’m also the former director of the Epilepsy Foundation sub affiliate in Garden Grove, California years ago. 

In other words, I am a catalyst for positive change and I hope to  merge forces with other disabled people making us stronger as a united team.


 I’ve got arthritis in that left ankle that won’t go away, just as my dad was  just about paralyzed in a wheelchair from osteoarthritis  before he died several years ago.

After having a drop seizure- due to being out in 115 degree heat when I shouldn’t have been.  That because I was having problems but two idiot’s went against my epileptologist’s letter stating that. I think that’s a crime isn’t it? 

DAN HOWLAND AND JIM CHAMPOU, THE IDIOTS WHO DIDNT VALIDATE THAT DOCTOR’S LETTER AND THOUGHT DR. EVANGALISTA WROTE IT FOR THE FUN OF IT, INSTEAD TO PREVENT INJURY TO ME.

Maybe no lawyer in Nevada has wanted to take my case YET, IT IS A crime AND A  double crime since Dan Howell and told me he didn’t care about people with epilepsy to my face  and he said he didn’t care about learning about anything to do with them he liked being ignorant. After everything  hits the fan and people pay the price they should have paid a couple years ago but I wasn’t any kind of health condition  to be able  to press charges, I hope he’s fired  and not only that I hope charges are filed on him  for endangerment and that is endangering me.

I believe the max I can do is $10,000  in the state of Nevada for him personally and  also Jim shampoo $10,000 and also Tina Quigley, the head of RTC , who all she could say during our phone conversation was “uh huh” after I said anything.  In other words, she did nothing and could have been forced my Paratransit ID once suck it but she did not. That’s another $10,000.

 They put my life at risk because I was having drop seizures of time and that was written in the letter so that’s called personal injury and I with all the evidence that I can bring which is a hell of a lot of it I call it instant win.

It is the principle here. I am hoping I won’t need to and they will come to their senses. Maybe the  Governor can hear the whole sordid story and make it right trade she seemed like the most level-headed person in the most articulate intelligent person I’ve seen hold office in Nevada so far.

 I think Nevada has some disabled Senators who have disabled minds and need to greatly educate themselves about what all this abilities are an update themselves with 2017.

Civil rights and then do the educate themselves on disabilities that go far beyond physical ones in a wheelchair.

The statistics on disability is there are more people with invisible disabilities like epilepsy than those with more visible ones.

California was better with Paratransit by far.  I had Paratransit in California over 25 years and I come to the 1800’s Wild West High Desert of Nevada and here they turn me down. I called Paratransit once waiting 2 hours and after the two hours the lady said, ” oh didn’t you know? Just because you call Paratransit doesn’t mean it’ll show up!” 

Ignorance again.   

You shouldn’t be a leader in the state if you are igorant in the ways I have seen. Dina Titus, Head of Transportation had no desire to help me get what I was owed as a disabled American citizen.

Nevada Medicaid pays for my medicine now and I hope it always does because it’s the best combination I have ever been on in my now 55 years young.

 

 

Even all that being said Senator Reid doesn’t think I have a disability-isn’the that rediculous? 

I even sent Senator Reid pictures of my medicine and all the vitamins that I take and the doctor’s letter from my specialist who prescribes my medicine and the copy of my medical ID bracelet and he still didn’t think that I was disabled!

 Living in Nevada is like living in the wild west where they think they can do anything. The American with Disabilities Act is something that I know all about  and because I was turned down for Paratransit here I could sue every senator in the entire State and when  because my civil rights were violated and I broke my left ankle as a result of having a drop seizure a year ago and was nearly in power chair after! Was I disabled enough for you then Nevada  huh 7 read  the governor ? Is that what you want to but everybody Wheelchairs and that’s the only kind of stability you think exist in this world ? Wake up  you need to get your head examined and go look at the medical book and read it all of this abilities that exist in this world there quite a lot of them  we have a lot of components to our bodies not just a physical body  without your neurological system you’re nothing you can’t write you can’t speak you can’t do anything.

I now have arthritis in that left ankle, which makes might a personal injury case that I didn’t want come into the state I just wanted a place to live it was cheap that’s it I didn’t come here for the gambling  I don’t drink I don’t smoke I don’t do drugs and I don’t gamble why did I come here for cheap rent that’s it hat’s part of living in Nevada is not something I like but it’s also against my civil rights too. 

I’ll be talking to the governor of Nevada this year about all of those issues as well as others that affect everyone or just same old and about raising the cost of living index for all people who are disabled to something that allows them to live in dignity, which the $728 a month does not.

I want to see that all people can afford tm what they need to keep them alive. 

Hear that pharmaceutical companies? 

Remember the human element. 

Remember why you’re developing the medicine in the first place.

 What good  is a fantastic medicine with a high efficiency rate and the low side effect rate and a huge success rate if the patients cannot afford it? I’m asking you that question mark I was made a rocket scientist for 15 years and I’m fairly bright that’s not even logical is it to make the price outlandish.

If drugs are so outrageously priced limiting who can take them, it defeats the purpose why the drug was ever created.

 I wish the scientist who developed the drugs could price the drugs because then they would be priced at something reasonable that makes sense. 

Because people who are scientists creating these compounds to help people would never charge people outrageous prices because they’re more humanitarian in spirit than the simply sales reps promoting the products getting huge commissions driving company cars!

 Let the pharmacology medicine developers help set a price that is more accurate.

 I saw pharmaceutical reps every time I went into one of my neurology offices in Orange off La Veta when I was married years ago.  I think what they do should be against the law because they’re giving doctors Kickbacks to promote drugs. because of that, doctors are  not looking at to the best needs of the patient. The Pharmaceutical reps  are allowed to  dangle money in front of a doctor’s faces and saying over here I’ll give you this money -a bribe.

How in the hell can a good doctor think straight  with the ” Wheeler Dealers” walking around dangling incentives.

Pharmaceutical companies remind me of real estate companies in California. Everybody is so greedy that they have to make “over profit” aking for way more than is affordable for most everyone except millionaires. 

 Medicine companies: Remember the people FIRST. Without people in this world you have nothing. Nothing but dust and a bunch of chemicals a test tube that people NEED.

Written by Paulette Motzko on April 5th 2017 at 12:48 p.m. 

This is story was aired on Totally Inspired Mind: Where Posititive Minds Congregate and Beautiful Soul Shine.

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I created the following document on my Galaxy Note 4 Phablet and the edits are coming in on my Samsung S2 tablet. My phablet  overheated just like I do when I even think about the things that I’ve been through for no good reason.  I almost was history in this town so rather than be history I’m going to make history instead, making it better for everyone.








Edited  April 5th 2017 at 3:36

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko 

Baby Grand by Billy Joel and Ray Charles on Spotify

Compiled by Paulette Motzko.

Me on my Nanny’s Henry F Miller piano she brought with her from Florida to California when she can to live with us when I was 9 years old. Little would I know how that piano would become my best friend.

I haven’t played this song for some time  since I had my digital Roland 88 keyboard with incredible sampled sounds of a full size concert grand on it. Like many things, it was sold when  moved to Las Vegas. I have often thought of selling this other couch nobody ever sits on and getting a new 88 keyed awesome sampled digital piano with weighed keys. I would have way more FUN with it.

My upright rosewood grand with the dynamic range of a medium size grand piano came with me and sits awaiting my eager hands to play that very song Baby Grand that is the reason I bought the score you see in the picture. 

Images photographed and created by Paulette Motzko, PLM Studios, Las Vegas Nevada, Copyright April 2017

April 3, 2017 at 8:46 p.m.

Updated 8:57 p.m; 10:40 p.m.

Obamacare is the Law of the Land: CNN News. Commentary by Paulette Motzko

Ryan: Obamacare is the law of the land

http://www.cnn.com/videos/politics/2017/03/24/paul-ryan-on-obamacare-mobile-orig-llr.cnn

All I can say about this is “thank God”, because everyone was so anxious to rip a Landmark Insurance care system that was helping tons of people, including myself with epilepsy – a pre-existing illness not covered by any insurance ever in history until Obamacare.

 Trump was so anxious to rip apart a system they gave people life literally and that includes cancer victims, people on dialysis and other very serious illnesses and disabilities. Obamacare covers real needs that are not something you take lighthearted.

 Optimally, when people’s lives are at stake- great thought is involved before enacting a policy that could adversely affect countless people.

 I was really disheartened by the way congress was handling things and so happy that the prayers and all of the things which I’ve been sending out if are heard.

Nobody  was coming up with what they were going to be replacing Obama Care with. 

You always create the replacement first before you yank the program out of everybody’s hands.

It was ridiculous how they were handling it. 

I am very happy that the popular vote won and nobody wanted to take the very needed program away.

Come on Congress! Use your brains all- of your brains together. I was married to a rocket scientist and you never ever destroy something that is working ever!

I don’t know what Republicans do but Jesus Christ have a heart!  Countless people who rely on this program to keep them alive! That is not kidding and I’m not exaggerating one little bit.

Republicans get your heads out of the sand and wake up to the reality and do the smart, responsible thing, the intelligent thing the triple winning things that shows you are human beings who care about the world and not just yourselves.

Replace Obamacare with a program that supersedes it. 

If you can do that go ahead with the other program. Until then, don’t you even talk about taking it away or every disabled person in the United States will come knock on the Capitol building  door and picket.  after all, you can’t sue the federal government but you can sue people who work for the government and if people died as a result of losing Obamacare they have a right to sue every person that signed the bill to do it. And that is a fact look it up.

That just goes to say and it goes right along with everything else Trump is done. Trump is a Loose Cannon as far as I’m concerned; he doesn’t think before he does anything he doesn’t care about the big picture.

Trump just wants to be a dictator like Hitler and he doesn’t care about people or the big picture Community or people’s lives period just wants to see his name in the lights like the god-forsaken truck building it’s down in downtown Las Vegas and I just looked at it and I’m sickened by it.  you see people can have lots of money but if they’re horrid human being they’re not really successful. Trump trump is apathetic to human beings and their suffering. He just wants to walk on everybody he can so he can try to make it to the top. That parallels everything that he’s done in business and in his personal life. I hope he’s replaced with someone who’s a human being soon. I hope things escalate to the point where he’s actually impeached, which I would help make that happen obtaining signatures.

I would like to see our president represent the ideals that America is famous for including freedom for all people, any race color and create and that is not what Trump represents.

Written by Paulette Motzko Saturday March 25th 2017 at 7:14 a.m.

Your Epilepsy News Resource

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More people have epilepsy than you are aware. Many people you know have it but they just wanted to tell you later, for fear that you won’t be their friend or something.

All you need is a blow on the head, high fever, convulsions, severe enough infection or a coma and you could acquire it. I had all those things and nearly died before my second birthday. 

In other words, everyone is susceptible epilepsy under the right circumstances.

I was diagnosed with complex partial epilepsy when I was 9 years old, but I had simple partial seizures when I was four but didn’t know how to describe them. Many seizures are difficult to describe, because they don’t feel like pain, but rather a sensation.

I will always be a spokesperson for those who have the disorder and care about those who disabled because of my experiences as now a mature young minded senior of 55.

I hope to make this newsletter make money (monetize it) this year and work with CURE Citizens United for Research in Epilepsy to use their 501C3 tax status and accept private nations from people and foundations and companies giving them banner ads.

Say prayers all this, with my tenacity becomes a reality.  I have how do you touch bases with someone in marketing from cure already and so the wheels are turning in a very positive direction.

Paulette Le Pore Motzko is the creator and editor of Your Epilepsy Resource Guide and in the past the founder of  The Epilepsy Connection which was a grass roots organization in Orange County in the late 1990’s and former Director of the sub- affiliate in Orange County, California of the Epilepsy Foundation.

Stages of Our Lives Pass Like Changing Seasons by Paulette Le Pore Motzko New Version 

Above images created by Paulette Le Pore Motzko, Copyright 2016

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko.

Copyright February 2017

I accidentally erased the link that was on here going to a blog post called “Stages of Change”, and prior to finding the blog post in the wee hours this morning, I had the idea to write this.

I thought the entire story would be written in an hour or by about 3 p.m. now yesterday afternoon, Las Vegas, NV time. It’s 4:00 a.m. February 28th,  2017 and with a Pentatonix Concert on Neflix playing,  I have been embellishing the post with more images that I feel tell part of the story too and modifying what I wrote.

I hope you will enjoy it. Yesterday was my day to “Get Absorbed in The News Day” writing commentaries. I am an empath in many ways, and can only handle hearing about the news of the world every few days. I would never get anything done if I did otherwise. All I have to do is run into one god-forsaken story about Trump, who’s Triple loser in my book, especially after hearing he made fun of a disabled person. Anyone that would make fun of any kind of disabled person is a pathetic human being. Trump’s animalistic, racist and self demeaning behavior boggles my mind. Yes,  I know he tries to demean other people but all he succeeds and doing it’s just lowers himself to increasing new levels of mediocrity.  I want him impeached to preserve the integrity of the United States as an American citizen. He simply makes us look bad in the eyes of other nations.

Enough of my political view points, that were not in the original post,  but I don’t stand alone in my feelings. 

One of my golden rules in life is to be genuine and totally authentic. People respect that. When it comes to followers and buying followers  I don’t . All mine are real and represent real, living, breathing , wonderful people  who I have impressed somehow, or I’ve inspired, or empowered, made laugh, entertained,  or they look forward to something that I write, my original images,  or they like just me in general and my persona. My followers are real people who follow me  because I am REAL and put on no pretenses. Anything other than that is just fake in my book, and I’m working on two books currently.

 I get asked all the time you want to buy some followers they say why? I have my own real ones from hard work  writing what I feel is good content. I think any industry they call that  organic. As a writer I call it smart because it’s how I know what people LIKE. IF everything is fake and contrived, it doesn’t reflect anything real but it’s just a mere illusion of popularity

  When ever I see Trump’s face, one word comes to mind- impeachment. I sincerely hope that happens so the disasters and hate crimes nationwide he instigated can end. The United States needs to think of our progress rather than regression. I wish Trump wasn’t really and instead a really bad nightmare ,  nut we all wake up and he’s still there unfortunately!
 Like many of my stories, posts and pictures; they are going through a creative evolutionary process, contantly changing or improving, like their creator me! We all change everyday just a little bit, even though we can’t see the changes, we still do. The great thing about that is it we all have a say in how we change,  and in what ways we change. You just have to want to change then catapult your want with action to make it a reality.

Above photo taken by my friend Martha the general manager of The Canonita-Mexico City Soul Food. Photo editing by Paulette Motzko.

Just like the seasons are now changing from winter to spring, this article is changing with every word I write. 

I hope the finished product has you look at not only me in a new way, but life in general in a new way and directs you to a newfound realization of the power you possess in it.

Embrace change. It us the only constant in life.  Those who do the best in life ADAPT.

Much like a surfer on a surfboard riding the wave, those that master the “Art of Living”, ride the wave called LIFE. We can learn from the quick reflexes of the surfer, adjusting what we do in correlation to what’s the way  was coming our way.

Above image photography by Paulette Le Pore Motzko, PLM Studios, 2017

Photography by Leonardo Valencia. Digital Arts by Paulette Motzko. 

Copyright May 2016

Above High definition wallpaper image from Zedge.com

When I was younger I hadn’t discovered my full potential yet and didn’t see the world from a big picture vantage point yet. That was to be uncovered and made visible over time. I was a very sick, misunderstood kid that grew up in the 60’s, at a time before the time “bullying” was invented or before people cared to do something about it at least. 

My nanny came to live with us when I was nine, the same age I was diagnosed with epilepsy. The piano she brought with her would soon become my best friend. It took until high school at 14 to be invented for me to know what size your freedom was.  Until the time kids were just too mean spirited stupid to ever give me a chance as human being, let alone as a friend.  I wrote music on that Henry Ford. Miller piano and read lots of cookbooks and passed the time figuring out what I was going to make and cook, analyzing recipes as though it were a novel envisioning  what I’d make  when I grew up and the parties that I would have and how awesome it would be…….

Image created by Paulette Motzko, Copyright 2016

Every day pray and meditate as your 1st thing in the day.  Connect with your Omnipotent Power of the Universe asking for Wisdom and Guidance. I AM CHISTIAN BAPTIZED CATHOLIC, BUT I AM SPIRITUAL IN NATURE. No matter what your faith, place that part of you first and you cannot be steered wrong.


Above image created by Paulette Motzko, Copyright October 2016. Since that time I have a thousand more followers on 

Totally Inspired Mind

Light an aromatherapy candle and find out how you can tap into what’s inside your SOUL.

 I have always found lighting a candle is a way to connect to a hidden, very special light planted in my soul. 

Chances are, if you try it, you will discover it too.

Before you know it, when you start connecting with your Spiritual Source, you’ll find a light that you can protect outward at the world, and the world will be brighter as result of it. If your light shines brilliantly it’s own special way, the light will never go away as long as the World Turns. If you bring something to the world nobody has ever seen before that has great merit,  you’ll be memorable enough that your memory and good you did will “shine” like the aurora borealis.

The older I get the more I focus on the good I can give rather than what I can get and options and opportunities open like flowers in the Spring.


Photographer Leonardo Valencia. Digital Arts by Paulette Motzko.



Above wallpaper image from Zedge.com



Stay centered.

Keep your focus on what matters.

Don’t do something just because everybody else is.

Have your own viewpoints and own them.

Above 3 images created by Paulette Motzko, Copyright 2015, 2016 and 2017.

Image with diary and old fashioned fountain pen by Zedge.com.

Write every day, even if you are the only one who reads what you write. 

Remember:  “With a pen,  paper and an idea, I have the world!”

Writing is a way you can connect with your innermost self, your hopes and dreams unfurl as you hold that pen in your hand, or as you type. Whichever method helps you connect better and be more prolific, do it! 


Go after what you really want in life early and do what you, and nobody else was meant to do.

Above image of The Venetian Trio who are doing what they were meant to do. That reflects in every song they play.

The above image of Norman Vito, pianist at The Bellagio Petrussian Caviar Bar. He is ” in his element at the piano, as though he’s where he is was destined to be.”

Photographed and created by Paulette Motzko, PLM Studios, February 2017

Keep Supporters of Your Dreams Close To You

Photography by Leonardo Valencia, of Paulette Motzko holding one of her Nikons.

Keep Negative and Hurtful People Away From You. You owe it to yourself to have a happy and productive life. Negative people are like a ball and chain who get their enjoyment from dragging you down because they don’t have the initiative, talent or ideas that you do. Repel them like water beads on Vaseline.

Above image from Pinterest, from Girlheartscamera.com. Quote by Oprah Winfrey. 

Water the Garden of Your Dreams Daily by working on each Project.

Listen to your inner voice, or intuition because it is always right.

Take time for your routine that keeps you most healthy.

If music is a passion of yours, sing a song or put some music out in the universe making your contribution to making a more harmonious world.

Above image photography by Rosie Emberton. Digital Photo Arts by Paulette Le Pore Motzko.

Life is a balancing act composed of spiritual time, personal time, work time, leisure time and whatever other classifications you when to add.


Take time to do self-introspection so you can see how far you’ve come and how far you’ve gone to appreciate Where You Are now.

 Mentor others  so you can help others carry the torch and do things easier than you once did.
Donate your time then to philanthropic things to give back to the world and it will give you more back than you ever dreamed.
Make the most of where you are now. Use the tools you have now, they don’t have to be the best tools but they’re the tools we can afford and use them maximize them and save up for whatever equipment you need to do your job well.
Don’t take the first no for an answer you hear. If you’re not getting what you want with your company go to the corporate level and I guarantee you’ll get what you want.
Aim for your goals like a GPS guidance system guides a Delta rocket to outer space


    I hope you have reading this as much as I have enjoyed sharing my 55 year old wisdom and 20 year old heart with you! 

    Maybe God had in mind me destroying the original post, so I could write this one which is my own, and my brainchild. 

    Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko

    February 27th 2017 at 1:55 p.m.

    Updated February 27th 2017 at 3:19 p.m. and illustrations added 6:38 p.m.

    Updated February 28 2016 at 5:26 a.m.

    If Life Were A Movie I Will Tell You Do It Right The First Time-from 2014 with 2017 Pictorial 

    If Life Were a Movie I Will Tell You Do It Right The First Time Because There are No Retakes & You C… – http://wp.me/p2l665-1Z3

    I hadn’t read this in quite some time but I always saw the story come up as number one on the top 10 on Totally Inspired Mind.

    Even though I was going though a lot of turmoil and changes in 2014, I still was filled with hope, striving relentlessly on my goals and dreams and full of inspiration. 

     As one of the best epileptoligists in southern California said, “God made you special”. That doctor was Dr. William Suthering in Pasadena at The Brain Mapping Center.

    He was the 1st to ever show how small the damage in the temperol region in my brain was. Then he said- “you know your language ability is how articulate you are and how you have a photographic memory, and how you can play music and write songs how you can create recipes?

     This is because the area of your brain that controls the creative centers in those areas of the memory centers are larger than most people. 

    I wouldn’t want to operate on you if you paid me to because it coup ruin all the special things about you.”  All the other doctors wanted to operate on me at the time. God gave you far more than He ever take away.”

    I tell you all that  story because the most valuable thing you’ll ever carry with you is your attitude.

     Even though I’ve almost died five times in my life and I used to be in a wheelchair power scooter, something I called the Chariot of Fire, I didn’t let it all stop me.  I always pushed forward and thought progress  my progress, progress! 

    I developed a scooter with a 20 mile radius, along with Health Net, my insurance at the time. It was my wheels to freedom. It  was my car and I could do anything I wanted when I wanted, within reason.

     Vimpat, that I take now wasn’t invented yet. Vimpat is the single most successful drug ever created for a partial seizures in the world- with the highest success rate over 90% success rate and very few side effects.

    UCB created Vimpat, and was legalized in the United States and I’ve been on it ever since.

    I discovered it in a neurology magazine in the office of my doctor at the time, Barbara Swartz in Newport Beach. Being that I’ve been using big words since I was 9 years old, I asked her why don’t we try this with Tegretol as an adjunct therapy?  She thought my idea was a great one and the two would go together really well…and so a new life was born-my life.

    Life is like a blank coloring book and you put in the colors of how interesting how beautiful how wonderful you are going to make it period only you can do it and only you can paint pictures in your life and only you can alter whatever situation you’re in.
    Have a phenomenal day and figure out ways that you can “color your world” like the words in  a song do you can look back an sat you really lived. .. making the most of every ability you possess and every talent that God gave you and putting any disability on the back burner as though it doesn’t even exist.

    If God was a poker dealer-buy He’s not- it doesn’t matter that you think your cards are losing cards. Many times, with the right ingenuity, that losing hand wins the game and you beat the odds. You can show that it can be done…no matter dealing with or what you’re striving for.

    Witten by Paulette Le Pore Motzko.

     Sunday, February 26 2017 at

     1:37 p.m.

    Updated 7:21 p.m

    Me, Paulette Le Pore Motzko last night getting a great cup of decaf at the Dennys in the Fiesta Rancho Casino last night. I am never alone very long wherever I go.  

    Had  a wonderful and healthy dinner at the buffet of War Won Ton Soup and a stir fry with zucchini,  water chestnuts, emerald green broccoli, lots of minced garlic,  carrots and chicken. ….

    My friends, chefs Romeo and Leo outdid themselves.

    Your Epilepsy News Resource for Valentine’s Day 2017

    http://paper.li/PollyMotzko/1356861050#/

    There are 198 contributors in today’s issue of Your Epilepsy News Resource. 

    More people have epilepsy than you know. They probably just afraid to tell you and disclose the truth for fear that you would look differently upon them.

    Paulette Le Pore Motzko is the creator and Editor of Your Epilepsy News Resource.

    Read. Learn. Empower Yourself and Others With Knowledge. 

    Knowledge is Power. 

    Written by Paulette L Motzko.

    Photos created by Paulette Motzko

    Me at The Texas Station Hotel and Casino last night. 

    Photography by my friend Miss V.

    Photo editing by Paulette Motzko

    February 14th, 2017

    I, for one, love strength, daring, fortitude. I do not want people to kill the fight in them; I want them to fight for the right things. Helen Keller

    Helen Keller Says: “I, for one, love strength, daring, fortitude. I do not want people to kill the fight in them; I want them to fight for right things.”

    One of the earliest known pictures of Helen Keller with her extraordinary teacher Anne Sullivan. She was my role model since I was 9 years old diagnosed with epilepsy. I discovered her and playing piano I’m cooking, and writing, it is very early age and very pivotal age in my life. I realized after reading what she did dealt with what she had to deal with that I could do anything I put my mind to do, if I only wanted to badly enough.

    Later picture of Helen Keller and Anne Sullivan,  also from Pinterest, . Photographer unknown.

    Anne Sullivan brought Enlightenment to Helen Keller’s life. Before Anne Sullivan entered Helen Keller’s dark and Silent world, she didn’t understand why she was there and didn’t understand that everything had a meeting and everything had a name in this world. I suggest you read any of the books that Helen Keller wrote. Your life and your attitude will be forever changed. She was brilliant and it was Anne Sullivan that brought out that brilliance hiding like a tulip waiting to bloom buried deep in the Earth.

    https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.helen.keller.daily

    From Helen Keller daily.

    Image’s from Pinterest, photographers unknown.

    Written and Compiled by 

    Paulette Le Pore Motzko.

    January 17th 2017. 8:34 a.m.

    Paulette Le Pore Motzko: A Pictorial Story Through The Years

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    Obama: Declared Trump ‘Unfit’ Equal Rights, Leadership vs Dictatorship & Disabled Rights in Nevada by P.L Motzko)

    Obama: Trump ‘unfit’ for presidency
    http://www.cnn.com/2016/08/02/politics/obama-says-trump-unfit-for-presidency/index.html

    Hooray! Finally Obama says exactly what I have been writing and saying all week.

    I hope this is the first step to taking very very strict action of for the first time in history deeming someone unfit to be the president of United States.

    It’s not a free chair. You have to earn that chair was there ever a very well-thought-out word you say that shows what kind of person that you are. People aren’t hiring a name to be the president they’re hiring a human being with values.

    If you’ve proven that you’ve alienated every type of minority there is, including women , which for the most part in this world are still a minority, and you’ve insulted even your Republican teammates-what’s coming for us as a nation with Trump as dictator?
    Doesn’t take a rocket scientist like my ex-husband to figure that out!

    Trump would not be a leader. He would be a dictator just like Hitler was and I know it. In my heart of hearts I know that. When you’ve lived over five decades you develop insights, wisdom and have an inner voice and intuition about things. If you really listen to it, you will be dead-on right about everything.

    There’s a difference between a leader and a dictator. A true leader is a Visionary. A leader can bring out the best in everyone and see they’re true hidden potential, even when they can’t even see it themselves.
    A true leader hopes to work in a synergistic fashion with other leaders, and not compete but work with them creating a triple win which is- I win, you win, Society wins at large. I learned that philosophy what I was in the Voluntary Leadership Program at Chapman University where I graduated in 1997 the top of my class. I’m very proud of that because it started with a vision, and an extraordinary idea and it ended with reality.

    Trump would be a dictator and we would smash everything and everybody that’s in his way. He would look at people as obstacles and he would not behave in an ethical fashion. Trump’s fashion would go against everything that America stands for. We would all be subservient to him.

    I was married to a real rocket scientist for 15 years and much of his logical thinking rubbed off on me. In the best of timed my ex-husband and I got along really well because we were both could discuss any topic there was in the world. Even though I was disabled my ex-husband didn’t care because he saw my abilities and he saw what I could do.

    In 2016 we as a nation have become a very sophisticated people. We could work out almost anything we would ever want to work out with any country there is- if we only wanted to . We have to want to more than anything in the world though.

    In order to pave New Roads to a more promising future for all of us in the United States. We need to elect a president who is an excellent speaker and who can articulate all of our wishes as a unified people. Our president must be an excellent communicator. Trump is the opposite of that. He’s the polar opposite of an articulate communicator. Trump is a triple loser. The only element he comprehends is domination at any cost. All of a sudden the triple winning scenario goes out the window and what you’re left with is Trump wins, Trump wins, and society loses.

    One of the things I’ve always wanted to do is be a speech writer or a writer for a politician I endorsed or The United Nations to help unite us as a world. With very carefully chosen words we can avoid war and create positive Alliances. We could work towards a more promising future it. It just takes work and silence and thought.
    It means you have to sit down and you have to be in a quiet room and you have to have no TV blaring and you have to just think.

    Changing the subject but still on the train of thought of equality and civil rights:

    I haven’t had a TV in over 3 years due to the state of Nevada lowering my SSI check over $250 a month, and I am on a payment plan with NV Energy to keep my electric on!
    That’s not living in dignity and far from it. I gave up alimony for this just to have my medical covered?

    People who collect subsidized income would rather be working, and most of all have good health. They would also like to not be discriminated against because of their disabilities and appreciated for whatever intelligence, abilities, and skills they possess. In the real world that’s not how it works. I was given a 50,000 year job by Edison in California then when they heard that I use Paratransit Access they said “oh we won’t be needing you!” I swear to God that happened. I have seen it time and time again so maybe some people like to sit around eating bon-bons all day watching a TV set but that just ain’t me! I placed education first and I want to be hired for my abilities and paid accordingly. Once I get Paratransit I will be able to make more money and be able to make it get to jobs faster and not in debilitating 115 degree heat.
    It’s counterproductive to anything that I’m trying to do in this state.

    This story will be given to Senator Harry Reid and one of the local newspapers here.

    I say it like it is and I’m not ashamed to say that. People respect me for that.
    They expect me to make $14,000 a year on top of the joke of a monthly check of $728 and collect the below poverty wage figure. Sure SSA. You try and earn a living with half the people you deal with are drug addicts, drunks, or just flakes. I am in the process of raising the cost of living index for all people on SSI, SSDI veterans and all people who are disabled who are affected. Inflation increased but the cost of living index for all the disabled people who rely on that for life and survival. It has not been raised in over 20 years. Not cool and it’s about time. Whoever created the figure $728 needs their head examined. That doesn’t even cover the rent. doesn’t cover rent and utilities. I’m in the process of meeting with Senator Harry Reid and I think I will be the first Disability Advocate Nevada has ever had.
    I want to see that all people who are disabled live in dignity.

    After all, I should know about civil rights I had my freedom taken away from me moving to Nevada. They told me that level if he’s not a disability it’s not worth Paratransit you’re not disabled enough that’s what I said that’s what they said amazing isn’t it illegal to cancel or specially when they denied my doctor’s letter stating I needed Paratransit and I haven’t driven for over 25 years to do it almost being killed in a car accident; they turned me down. Makes no sense. It’s called ignorance and stupidity. That ignorance and stupidity cost me a broken ankle and toes and one year later I now have arthritis and then ankle. 3 people were involved with that moronic decision to play God and ignore a neurologists doctor’s order stating that I had heat-sensitive epilepsy and I’ve had Paratransit for 25 years in the state of California with Access. Those people will be sued in civil court at a minimum of $10,000 a piece by me because I suffered because they were stupid and arrogant and the worst part apathetic and callous they didn’t care if I got injured or not but I did.

    I will go down in history as being the first disabled white woman who came to a dust bowl of a town to live and dignity and peace and instead got didn’t find that.

    Nevada is the worst state for disabled people in the world. If you’re disabled don’t come to Nevada. I will say that over and over-don’t come to Nevada if your disabled- especially if you have Mobility impairments because there are tons of people who should be in special homes they should have a personal care attendant with them and they don’t.
    Yesterday I fed and helped a totally blind man who was walking the streets feeling this way the whole way with a cane and he could barely get inside the Jack in the Box that I happen to be at.

    When I was on the phone with my friend I looked up at him and he went to my table and asked for two more quarters because he almost had enough to get a hamburger. This was a veteran who served in the military and because of a bomb he had one of his eyes blown out and the other one with glaucoma! It makes me sick how America treats our military in this country and I want to see that change. The Veterans Administration did a lousy job taking care of my dad when he was alive and obviously is doing a lousy job on the totally blind veteran walking the busy streets with a cane. I do good walking around this state and I have eyes and I can see!

    Cars will kill you in this town and they don’t care that you have the right away because no one makes anybody accountable. That’s the problem with Nevada is life is not sacred, disabled people don’t matter here as with the ADA laws of CA. That’s why they’re so many pedestrian fatalities-ALL because the people who run This Dusty Hot Town seem to think it’s okay.
    It’s not okay. Manslaughter will never be LEGAL and life is sacred and a car will always win against a frail human body.

    I stopped what I was doing and I was horrified when I saw this veteran, of which I know is full name, when just might go to the Veterans Administration myself and say what are you doing for this poor guy? Find out who is case worker is and chastise the crap out of them! As imperfect to Southern California is, if THAT BLIND GUY were walking the streets, feeling his way with a cane, nearly getting killed by hundreds of cars, a police officer would pull over and find out where the guy is and find out where I lived and find out who his case worker is that they would care there’s not a whole lot of that here in Nevada. They don’t tell you all that stuff when I Nevada tourism guide!

    He would have a counselor with the Braille Institute, he would have probably housing it was very good because he has a total disability , that’s what I have but I’m not getting full SSDI for it it’s called the disability that never goes away-like mine which is epilepsy.

    He should have someone helping him a PCA, just like what I used to have until moving to the wild west where everybody fends for themselves and people just watch it all and few help.

    I should have all the benefits of a blind guy has anybody and both of us should know that where ever we go we are driven by a driver.

    The Federal Government needs to rethink the way they allocate the payments people get for SSDI and SSI shouldn’t play God. All should be treated the same.

    Nobody has the right to declare that one disability is better than the other or gets more money than the other. What staff in the heavenly court dictates that? I’ll take pictures of all my medicine that I take during the coarse of a week and have to swallow in the morning so I don’t go to the hospital. I will educate all of them because obviously RTC as a company, the Paratransit division, Senator Reid, and Titus are all in the Dark Ages where epilepsy is concerned. At this very moment August 2nd , 2016 epilepsy is not recognized as a disability in the state of Nevada. WOULD I have come to this cockeyed, dumb state knowing that I would be discriminated against? WOULD I have spent $1,000 moving all my furniture from one state to another, becoming a Nevada state resident, losing all my Medicaid benefits in California when I did that, and then living like this? I don’t think so nobody would their right mind and it’s wrong .
    The Paratransit director Jim Howland told me to my face he didn’t care about people who had epilepsy because he didn’t have to care. Caring about the people he served was not a prerequisite of working and feeling his job. Can you believe he would have the audacity to say such a stupid thing yes he did. I want him fired and replaced by someone who was compassionate and kind and caring and understands about all disabilities not just physical disabilities but neurological disabilities like mine that’s what epilepsy is how about other ones physical ones all disabilities don’t put an imp somebody the equivalent of a chimpanzee behind a desk Who’s acting as God to everybody turning him down when he doesn’t even know what he’s doing when his decisions have bad implications on the people he’s doing it on like mine did. He made the decision to allow me to be injured and put me at risk and that was a bad decision as well as Jim Champou and Tina Quigley.

    Me and the blind veteran are mote alike than observers would guess. I fed him and he ate and that was good but he needed way more than I could give. I felt bad that I couldn’t do more.
    I’m not a social worker I’m just a person on a limited income trying to make a difference in a two-bit town that it seems that the going rate in Nevada is they just don’t care.

    Dina Titus didn’t care that I didn’t have my Paratransit ID. I met with her office and I had to drop seizure in her parking lot. My left knee got all ripped up and bloody and I have pictures of it to show pictures of it to show Senator Harry Reid , along with with some shocking photos of what my first studio looked like here-that’s what $728 buys!
    A picture speaks a thousand words. You can say things until you’re blue in the face and people just don’t get it. You show a picture of something and all of a sudden people wake up out of their stupor and it becomes real. To see up close and personal how people live.

    Not one of Dina Titus’s advisors came out and even asked me am I alright.
    Apathy seems to be Nevada’s creed. Apathy towards the dead pedestrians who get pummeled daily by drunk, preoccupied drivers who aren’t paying attention to the road and you’re not paying attention to stop signs, red lights and do not know the word yield. I’m a pedestrian and there’s lots of other people who are too.
    Senator Reid needs Paratransit if he can barely see and relies on a personal care attendant which I should have like I had in California for 25 years and a driver like I had for over 25 years in California. That right there should not require a test at all should have wished it? There should have been no test for me whatsoever for Paratransit especially when the test is not only test for mobility issues that’s all it does. Most disabilities are invisible and are not Mobility related so going off on a tangent here with my particular situation and I’m fighting for but it’s not everyday you meet with a Federal representative.

    No TV set, no cable, no cable bill either. All the news that I get is on average about 200 different apps that are on my Galaxy Note 4 and they’re programmed for headline news so immediately when the news comes out I get it. Twitter it’s also great for finding out what’s going on in the world as well as Facebook.

    I get it on Headline News, I get it on CNN I get on Las Vegas Review-Journal sometimes I go to CBS News because I like their correspondence and I think they do a good job of covering stories.

    We can take our nation anywhere we wanted to go but we have to think about the future and not just be selfish.

    I wrote Mr. Khizr Khan on Facebook and asked him if we could petition or do some kind of proactive action that would deem Donald Trump as unfit to hold the position of the president of the United States of America. Many people may not know this but he’s an attorney who graduated from Stanford University. Khizr Khan is a very eloquent, hard-working American Muslim who earned every cent he’s getting and who, even though he was verbally attacked by Donald Trump, managed to speak in an eloquent way and choose his words ever so precisely. I commend him and I told him that in an email and a private message.

    We need to increase more positive ways that we can communicate with one another rather than blowing each other up and watching the body parts fly of all the innocent people who die just to kill one person.
    War just like Trump is a triple loss now and in the future. Let’s avoid both!

    Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
    Copyright August 2, 2016
    Link from CNN Headline News

    Paulette Le Pore Motzko
    August 2nd, 2016 at 10:23 a.m.

    Google Talk The Global Translation Chat App & & Paulette Motzko’s Thrill of Discovery

    I learn many things new through the course of my day everyday. I have always had an unquenchable thirst for knowledge, even since I was a small child at 4 years old, learning to read, and then learning phonetics. I learned the meanings of the prefixes and suffixes when I was 6 years old.
    I learned the value of a book and the extraordinary concepts within each cover, and libraries became one of my favorite places, and still are.

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    Hot off the press I just created this image to go with this story from a photo I took in Vista, CA about three years ago now.

    Photography & Digital Arts by Paulette Motzko

    There was never a dumb question around our house and every night around the kitchen table, before we would eat dinner we would bless the food, thank God for everything we had, and look at each other and thank God we had each other. How I wish it was that way today. But people change and so you change with it.

    My dad would ask everyone what we learned that day. He would go one by one, and ask each one of us who’s the most extraordinary thing we learned that day. If we didn’t learn anything he would say “go pick up a book” or “how are you doing in school” and things like that.

    Every night at dinner time we would sit around our table and we would share what we had learned that day.

    Yes, how I wish life was like a projector that you could go back in time and make my siblings remember when they had a heart and soul, but that’s not how life works. Change is the only thing we can count on and those who adapt the best do the best.

    Yes, we sat around with a painted picnic table that was painted by my mother and communicated with each other, laughed, my brothers told jokes, and we were there in the moment.

    Our family couldn’t afford a kitchen table like the kind they sold in a furniture store, but being the industrious people that the Le Pores are, my dad bought a picnic table that my mother painted white.

    As always mom had this way of creating something out of nothing, and when she was done, the table was painted and varnished and had a really pretty flower arrangement on the top of it.

    She then bought some yellow gingham sheets that she found on sale, and transformed them into beautiful drapes for our huge kitchen windows.

    25 years later, after my parents sold that first house they bought for a mere $20,000 and sold it for $100,000 years later, those drapes are still there. People did not want to take them down and loved them and bragged about how beautiful they were. It was my secret, that they’ll never know they were made out of sheets.

    These remain to this day some of the most Stellar memories I have of my childhood.

    My Nanny always told us a family who prays together stays together. It’s something she swore by. It was imprinted on the Rosary she prayed on everyday that glowed in the dark. Her words to this day have lit some of my darkest days much like her rosary beads glowed up in the dark as she prayed Hail Marys.

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    We prayed together then and stood by each other. It’s just too bad, my older siblings sold their integrity getting the profits of my parent’s huge duplex, after my dad’s death. My brother in law was like Hitler as power of attorney and and my siblings fell for his half cocked, uncompassionate and unfair treatment of both myself and my mother with Alzheimer’s disease. I was the only one who looked out for her it seemed and spoke for her with a voice she no longer possessed.

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    We could see each other, side by side, and when my dad made money selling major appliances and the table went outside…we sat farther apart. Then the house began to be filled with state of the art TV’s and a huge stereo. The television was on more and we talked less.

    I saw this big solid maple, fancy kitchen table being delivered with big clunky, heavy chairs I couldn’t lift, and we sat apart from each other. I liked the picnic table better.

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    Necessity creates innovation and ingenuity. Some of the kindest people I’ve ever met in my life are some of the poorest. They know how to do it, that they know how to be industrious, and they know as I’ve learned, to do without and make do with what they had.
    They have more compassion for others in the same situation.

    Back to reading and knowledge..

    Mom read it to me everyday, and my sister bought me Golden Books that I read, each one of them looking at the pictures and being immersed in the stories, sounding out the words.

    If I didn’t know what the words were, we all played a game where I would figure out what the word meant by taking the prefixes and saying what it meant. Most of time I would get it right with a little fine-tuning. That would add to my vocabulary everyday.

    When I knew how easy it was and the extraordinary potential that a person would possess if they could read, assimilate and have the command of the English language, the world was my Pearl.

    Like Helen Keller having Anne Sullivan spelling out the word
    w-a-t-e-r in her hand in sign language, she knew everything had a meaning.

    Mom was my Anne Sullivan, especially as an unpopular kid recently diagnosed at 9 with epilepsy. There was no such word as bullying in school; kids just did it and nobody cared or did anything. Apathy to the max in the school systems.

    9 WAS A PIVOTAL AGE FOR ME. LIFE DEALT ME ONE CURSE EPILEPSY BUT IT ALSO BROUGHT A PIANO IN THE HOUSE AND MUSIC, THEN MY LOVE OF COOKING EMERGED AND WRITING WAS SOON TO FOLLOW. IF GOD WAS A CARD DEALER THE DECK WAS STACKED IN MY FAVOR AT A VERY YOUNG AGE.
    I just took until I’m almost 55 just see it that way.

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    Paulette Anne Le Pore at 9 playing a song I composed called “My Melody” after mom showed me 4 chords and Nanny explained how the pedals worked……

    In 3rd grade at Show and Tell I Showed and demonstrated to my class what the piano did by playing all the songs I wrote. Bringing in bullfrog were boring to me!

    Every thing ever built or ever created has a name. The more we understand what those things are the more we can understand our place in the world. Also, the more languages that we speak the more than we can understand others and their cultures and find a common denominator within the two.

    As in most days I don’t quite ever know what I’m writing but I never worry about it; I just write.

    People who put on the editors cap and are over critical too early in the creative process or worry about what other people think of what they do– never do anything because the creative process is squelched.

    Create because you think it has merit, or you think it’s beautiful. It doesn’t matter that the world doesn’t think it’s beautiful or does think its extraordinary. Create it because you feel your artwork is in the very essence of your soul waiting to escape like a butterfly in a meadow and you want to share the reverie with others…and the people in the world are the flowers in the field.

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    you know it is that’s why are you think I can help somebody or you feel it’s good. And once you create something you throw it out in the universe and you hope it touches the lives of people and inspires them or shows them a new way. When it does then it’s extraordinary because then it’s a triple win. It’s the people whose viewpoint on what you do make what you write and every word you hand chisel come alive.

    When I was a small child I held a book in my hand with a feeling as though I had the whole world in the palm of my hand. I also knew there was so much more available to me and I was just touching a small microcosmic particle of the knowledge available in the World.

    Now have a century later, with me at 54 years young, I hold my Galaxy Note 4 phablet with over 100 apps on it, ebooks, over 5,000 high definition photos, and programs I used to have on a clunky big computer that I recently sold. I installed Microsoft Office and MS Word, allowing me to create documents with vocal recognition software for the first time in my life.

    You’re talking about a person who types eighty words a minute but can now type with this new technology. My phablet types for me and I edit. History breaking stuff. Pretty cool, huh?

    Thanks to engineers, and IT specialist and computer scientists who created the internet systems with satellites in the sky like my ex-husband the rocket scientist help put up with Boeing, we can do things that we never ever thought possible.

    I’m old enough and I’ve seen both sides and it is all pretty extraordinary.

    I have had this Google Talk app on my phone for better part of a year and I didn’t know that it was a translating device that I could talk to people in their native language in any part of the world for free.

    Now that’s a huge piece of info because I have over 800 friends on Facebook and many of them were in Italy, Thailand and the Philippines and Africa. I can learn their language by using it and that’s what’s so extraordinary about it. It comes in handy for business as well.

    I can learn figures of speech in in their language, adding color to my writing. This matters to me. I have some baker friends who are artisan bakers in France and I would love to know and understand more of the French language and the pronunciation of how the words sound. Google Talk helps with that.

    I hope that this article made you look at the world little differently. If it did, that makes me really happy and that is the coolest thing in the world.

    When you change someone’s mind or you Enlighten them to a new fact that they didn’t know,
    You’re in essence opening a magic door to new horizons that were unexplored before. I hope you can use some of this in your life, that you find new ways of thinking brings subtle changes in your life.

    Written by Paulette Motzko
    All images photographed and created by Paulette Motzko, PLM Studios, Las Vegas, NV

    April 26th, 2016 at 8:26 a.m.
    10:20 a.m.

    Everyone Has a Story To Tell – Make Your Story An Extraordinary One by Paulette L. Motzko

    We All Have Our Story to Tell
    Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
    Copyright October 7th, 2014
    All Photography Quotes Created by
    Paulette Le Pore Motzko

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    In life we never know what we are getting and what kinds of blessings or tragedies may befall. You can only stack the deck in your favor so when the hand is played you come close to winning.

    If every one of you reading this sentence could realize that nobody on earth was dealt a perfect life, then maybe you won’t feel so isolated or sad, just knowing you are not the only one. Everybody on the bus every day I see has their own joys, family, friends and struggles. Just because you don’t know them, don’t fool yourself. Problems in life don’t omit anyone, no matter how much money you make. Often the richest people have the most screwed up lives. They have no idea what to do with all their money and have lost the ability to enjoy simple things. They spend their lives trying new drugs and paying for expensive thrills that leave them flat and uninspired.

    As a child who was disabled and went through a merry-go-round-of medicine for epilepsy before I got to the one that worked when I was fourteen-years-old.

    I learned big words and related to teachers better than my classmates who made fun of me because I was different. All the things I went through in my early years toughened me up to be a soldier of life and an ambassador of compassion and good will who can related to everyone with a cane, in a wheelchair and who strives each day to know health firsthand and independence.

    Even though in life you may have looked at hell in the eye like I did and been through moments where you nearly died; remember you made it out the other end.

    A visualization to picture your mind that I created after going through one of the worst year and a half of my life is:

    I can see myself walking through a huge hoop of fire and coming out the other end transformed, stronger, and smarter and where ingenuity is in my DNA. After helping my parents pay their house payment thrown the span of 15 years and being betrayed by my siblings I grew up with; it redefined my existence.

    We were once a good family, not a perfect family, but we were never an apathetic, hate filled family. There was so much negative dynamics going on between my older siblings and that no matter if my mother needed help, if I could have done over again, I would have looked out for number one and that is all, and got the hell out of there. I can see that in retrospect and wish I would done that, but if I had mom wouldn’t have anyone who gave a damn and she wouldn’t be in the senior home she is now.

    The things you learn in life gaining wisdom are vast.

    What have you learned in life?

    Are there lessons you can pass on to others?

    What is a lesson you learned that you can pass on to another to make their path smoother, watching out for rocks and boulders?

    You see, when you do without you learn to compromise. You learn how to substitute and you truly get to know what it is like to live on a bargain basement existence that only those who frequent places like The 99 Cents Store, Dollar General remembering numerous times since moving to Nevada and having my SSI cut by $150 a month-times when I couldn’t afford anything in the dollar store!

    What I do know out of the tragic and almost mind boggling callous and low class way I was treated in the end of making great sacrifices for my mom and financially helping my dad by living on the duplex he was still making payments on after 2001. I learned that there are people who look like a human being but are missing a soul and a conscious; my siblings fit that description. I only hope that they regret it one day. I know I did the best I could in spite of going through adversity myself. In other words, we are only responsible for ourselves and there comes a point where all the talking in the world isn’t going to change things.

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    Move on. Look back and accept what you did and embrace the choices you made.

    Just because you were betrayed doesn’t mean you have betray someone else. Just because you were hit, doesn’t mean you have to hit someone else. Someone else’s cold heart doesn’t have to be yours and shouldn’t be yours.

    Why the Lord allows good people to go through hell none of us will know, especially when their hearts and souls are good.

    In life what matters most is for you to not focus on the dark aspects or “shadows” in your life. Look at the “bright spots” that sparkle like Orion on a clear night in the desert. Keep the friends who have become family; they are your new family.

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    Just because you are related to someone doesn’t give them the right to be in your life. To have the right someone has to treat you with dignity and respect. If those elements are missing, then you really don’t need the person in your life.

    Remember, every negative person drags you down. Every positive person lifts you and your spirits up.
    You want to be dragged down to the nether world, or do you want to keep people around you who also set their aspirations on high and noble things. Forget the rest.
    I pray to meet people who are kind, caring, compassionate who care about the world around them and who care about children, the environment and the world issues.
    Here is a cool visual for you: I also pray to NOT MEET negative, pessimistic people and to avoid or REPEL people with rotten intentions people just like water droplets on Vaseline.
    What story will you retell people?

    Will it be a triumphant one? A Courageous One? An Extraordinary One?

    Make the things you say be as amazing as yourself, because the spoken word is what people will remember about you.

    Do you want to be a mina bird of the same, sad story or do you want to force yourself to grow, find the wisdom in your pain and to help people they are not alone.

    If pain and suffering has to be, let it be transformed to bring someone up from their aloneness.
    I hope this 1,534 word story does just that. Come out of your cave and light the light and let it shine on only the good and the great. No matter what your faith, don’t lose hope and never quit believing the good and just win. And even if they don’t “win” they show everybody in the world how they can! After all, people are only winners or losers in their minds. What you think you are you will be.
    I hope every word changes your minds, and transforms your spirit and helps you think about the experiences you have gone through and how you carry them around.
    Troubles can be on your shoulders like lead weights or you can problem solve, pray and meditate and gain insight. To do that you need solitude and uninterrupted time so you can think. When was the last time you gave yourself that gift? It is through self-introspection that you grow and transform into something greater.
    Learn to journal and write every day your innermost feelings. At first at will feel awkward doing it, but it will come more naturally with time. In time you will look forward to it. Make it a minimum of 30 minutes. Go to a library where you can be guaranteed to not be bothered and where it is quiet enough you can hear yourself think. Preferably have nobody see it but you and God and your soul.
    In your first journal book entry: make a list of all the things you are thankful for this moment.
    Now make a list of things you need to work on to be happier and feel better.
    Number them and create a plan of action.
    Make the most of what you have now. If you want more, work for it all and enjoy what you have NOW. This time will never come again. When you are 85 ladies you will think you look like pretty hot now! Hey guys, tell your mom and dad you love them, they won’t be around forever. I am reminded that our time on this extraordinary earth is limited. Make the most of your travels here.

    It is only then that you can take what were problems and setbacks and throw them in the sea and watch the seagulls take them away to the wild blue.
    Put some beautiful and inspiring music on iheart.com radio or Pandora.com and get in touch with who you really are. When you do that, you will find you have way more going for you but you just overlooked what you were given.

    Written with love to the world.

    Paulette Le Pore Motzko

    October 7th, 2014
    5:15 p.m.

    Paulette Motzko Needs A Room in A Home-She Will Cook & Help with Housework

    http://totallyinspiredpc.wordpress.com/2013/10/31/3015/

    The first time I was nominated for The Most Versatile Blogger Award was on October 31st, of this year 2013 and was just nominated again yesterday by another fellow blogger that goes by amintiridinbucatarie at amintiridinbucatarie.wordpress.com.
    Thank you again to my fellow readers and bloggers.

    Me at year ago in my old kitchen I lived in for 13 years and what was my parent's place-sold for $460,000. Need a hard hitting lawyer to make sure Bunker didn't spend it all! He is the guy that evicted me and threw mom's things in a dumpster! I have filed more than my share of complaints with Adult Protective Services. Such a tragic thing-what they did to mom and I.

    Me at year ago in my old kitchen I lived in for 13 years and what was my parent’s place-sold for $460,000. Need a hard hitting lawyer to make sure Bunker didn’t spend it all! He is the guy that evicted me and threw mom’s things in a dumpster! I have filed more than my share of complaints with Adult Protective Services. Such a tragic thing-what they did to mom and I.


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    I answered all the many questions about myself and nominated my choices for which blogs I felt worthy of the same award.

    I still have to accept and nominate for The Most Influential Blogger Award, and I forget who nominated me! Sorry folks, but I have been really busy leading the most tumultuous part in my life in history. That award means the most to me because it means that my words meant something to a lot of people and not only got them thinking but acting in new ways.

    All of these awards and the 73 countries who have been reading this site on a monthly basis-didn’t know these things were going on, but they are. The readership doubled on this site in the last two months. It makes me elated that I managed to do it all.

    I met a nice lady who was a nurse with her two children at Arby’s this week. We had so much in common and she said two words to me- very simply said “Stay Sweet”. I am so happy that people still perceive me to be “sweet’. I didn’t let all the apathy and callousness regarding my mother and I jade me and I will always think that most people are inherently good-if you are good to them.

    It is eight months to date since I was callously evicted from my mother’s place (that I chose to live in 13 years ago helping my parents pay their house payment while I  had a place to live in the massive duplex they owned in Garden Grove, CA. That ended in April 2013 when my brother-in-law Mike Bunker-made power of attorney by my dad-which was a royal mistake-and my mother-evicted me. I have been in and out of two star hotels, trying to afford expensive southern CA rent, which is impossible with no room mate.

    Dinner for my friend Ron B. from MA. Table set with homemade stew a promo for Cooking Up a Storm All Over The World! my first blog. CookingUpaStorminCA.ning.com

    Dinner for my friend Ron B. from MA. Table set with homemade stew a promo for Cooking Up a Storm All Over The World! my first blog. CookingUpaStorminCA.ning.com

    I am eligible for HUD housing but women with kids get priority and I am treated as though I am not alive. (I am not done fighting on this matter to change this fact. I wish I didn’t have to be the only one fighting, since it affects more than myself.)

    Of course I am alive and searching day by day to find a family to live with and cook for the family in exchange for a nice, clean safe non-smoking environment I can live in and relax and take care of myself. It will be easy to get ahead when I don’t feel like I have a shot gun to my head rushing around or else I will be out on the street when the money runs out for the hotel I am writing this from!

    It is a hell of a way to live and if you would have told me that I would be doing this, when my family once had morals, values and stuck together, I would have never believed you. I am in charge of me-and that is it. That is what I learned out of all this. I am not sure why I have to go through so much and endure so many tragic things in my life, but I will be glad when I have a place to call home. I am working to make more and more money but it is going out the door as fast as I get it.

    I have been looking on Craig’s List for Orange County but everybody in CA is greedy and wants $800 to rent a lousy bedroom. In New Mexico you can get a two bedroom two bathroom place for $700 with full amenities! about less than half of what it takes here in Expensive-Ville.

    I met a really nice lady today and helped her grand daughter who has ALS find resources and will be posting the story about her and the way to help the family pay for all the medical care for her. I met her at Staples where I do work all the time and noticed her having printed signs with a pretty little girl on them and wanted to know more. The story about her will air as soon as I can get a photo of her. I also emailed the director of ALSA, an association that helps people with ALS and found a clinic for her and her family.  All these things are possible because I could and I simply did. I wish more people had that kind of attitude.

    My nanny used to say, “What goes around comes around”, and I hope that some of the great things I did in my life, that I never got paid for or recognition for, come back my way and someone helps me now.

    Whatever God you pray to, Christian, Native American Indian, Jewish or Buddhist-pray that I find a place to stay soon and better yet, if you know someone who either has a room I can stay in-in exchange for helping with cooking and housework and helping with the kids-let me know.

    If you know a person who has been looking for someone who is stable mentally and financially-and who is a good cook and has a good sense of humor and a positive attitude, let me know. I want to sign a year or better yet more-lease. 3 vaults of my life that I pay on each month have been in storage since April and I would rather sit at my desk again in my office chair, cook in my gourmet kitchen and read the many books in my library. Make it so God and let this struggle end

    Christmas is only weeks away and here I am watching cable TV-first I have seen of it in months, in a hotel I call home with no kitchen but a microwave, fridge, freezer in safe area. It is $70 a day that could go towards a month in a room in a house.There are cheaper two star hotels that are highly unsafe and dangerous and I have stayed in them but my blood pressure was elevated and I never got any sleep and when I heard a guy beating up a woman in the room next to me, I swore to God I would do everything humanly possible to find the best deal and find a way to pay the higher price in better hotels.

    I didn’t know when I wrote about The Most Versatile Blogger Award this would come out but it did. Probably for the best.

    I know I am special because have been going through all this without mentioning it to the world. I do know in one heart beat I help others and get such a great joy and high out of it.

    Imagine what kind of things I could write and do if only I had one stable nice place to live with no worry?

    The possibilities are endless!

    Paulette Le Pore Motzko

    Email me any leads or connections you may have at Paulette_Motzko@yahoo.com.

    Put in the subject box: Room For Paulette Motzko-Hope For The Future

    Please no ads folks. I get 1000’s of emails.

    I wasn’t born to live in a hotel and need a home to live in because I am disabled with epilepsy. I also am too nice and too kind to have the guy I was living with hit me, but he did…which is what brought me to this hotel.
    I have just kept myself absorbed in my work, in what matters and relentlessly contacting congress people and talking face to face with every friend I know on Facebook and elsewhere-and realizing that people, when you go through hell-with totally flaberghast you!

    One friend, that I thought was a friend at least-heard about me in the hotel, the guy hitting me etc., things that would have at least got an “Are You OK?” …or something showing that you have a heart and soul and a pulse-got nothing. Just talk of sugar cookies and setting her opulent table with gold baubles on hanging everywhere. I am not jealous because I have all that “stuff” in storage waiting to come out and be united with me.
    I call myself DISPLACED AND NOT REALLY HOMELESS. I CAN PAY $500 TOWARDS RENT COME JANUARY FOR ANONE WHO LIVES IN ORANGE COUNTY AND I CAN FURNISH THE PLACE FOR A CLEAN, MATURE, SENSIBLE PERSON WHO IS STABLE MENTALLY AND FINANCIALLY-WHO DRIVES AND DOESN’T SMOKE.

    Since I am in a position where I have the whole world, or at least 73 countries reading what I write on a monthly basis, I am using this podium to get ACTION-for me.

    My future means a lot to me and I tried to do everything right.
    I am the only kid who got any college degree, let alone two.
    I know that my best years are still yet to come and once I am settled in a place I can move onward and put the ugly past behind me. That is what I need and crave is closure.

    Does anyone know a social worker in Orange County who can pull some strings for me and get me the benefits and help me live to the fullest of my ability?

    Any information would be beneficial here and it is all appreciated.

    If you read to the end of this sentence, you are better more precious to me than gold-but are like platinum because you care about what I write and you care about allowing the lady who writes the words you read to live the best life she is able within her abilities.

    That is really all you can do in life.
    All I want for Christmas is the hope of a nice place to live and know I can build my future and to know I can see my mother Ramona any time I want for as long as I live. She is the only living family member that is worth anything and without her, I wouldn’t be the person I am with the talents I possess reaching out to the people I do.

    For my mother to see-Ramona Lea Le Pore

    Thanks Mom. I PICTURE YOU AND THINK OF YOU OFTEN AND THERE ISN’T A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT I DON’T PRAY YOU ARE ALRIGHT AND THAT YOU THRIVE IN SPITE OF THE HATRED MY SISTER BRENDA SPEWS MY WAY BY NOT LETTING YOU KNOW I CALLED or GIVING YOU THE PHONE.

    We are close and will always remain close and nobody will ever stop that. I will always keep my word and make you proud and the philosophy you gave me about “putting my mind to do anything I wanted has paid off”. People read what I write all over the world now on 9 web sites and I constantly mentor young kids I run into. It is all because of you mom and your kind and gentle spirit.

    I got you something for Christmas-here and you will love it. I will make it to see you and sorry I couldn’t see you for Thanksgiving, but that was due to Bunker who erases every call I put in. He is a walking ball of hatred and a horrible human being who I hope realizes the damage he did to you and I and pays for it the rest of this life-if even in his conscious.

    Mom and I at The Bella Terra Mall when I dressed her up and took her all around to meet the many people I know there-business people etc. Mom has a magic about her. I saw people smile that day at Whole Foods Market who never smiled in their life. When we went to dinner, Starbucks- I remember it like yesterday and mom's memory is way better than people give her credit for. I want to have more times like it.

    Mom and I at The Bella Terra Mall when I dressed her up and took her all around to meet the many people I know there-business people etc. Mom has a magic about her. I saw people smile that day at Whole Foods Market who never smiled in their life. When we went to dinner, Starbucks- I remember it like yesterday and mom’s memory is way better than people give her credit for. I want to have more times like it.

    “You have been on my mind and in my heart all year long. I couldn’t see you or talk to you because I was struggling in some of the most dangerous cities nearly on the street at times. Just like the Kelly Clarkson song “What doesn’t kill ya makes you stronger”, well it did and I went through the ring of fire looking back on the rubble behind me. I was strong to begin with though.”

    I have friends who are going to help me get to Marino Valley where you live and even though Bunker and Brenda ban all the calls that come through and pretend I don’t exist-I do and have never forgotten about you one bit. It has been one year since I have seen or talked to my mom-and I used to see her 3 times a day, making meals for her-because I could and I wanted to.

    Paulette Le Pore Motzko
    3:40 a.m.

    I require 8 or more hours sleep and need a private room I can take care of myself in-my medicine that keeps me alive and writing this.

    Also, if any of you know any political figures I can contact-let me know or anyone who would change my situation if they only knew. I call people like that Change Catalysts. I am one of those and am hoping I can find one for me now.

    Paulette Le Pore Motzko

    December 8th, 2013

    2:48 a.m.

    Paulette_Motzko@yahoo.com
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    I Am My Mother Ramona Le Pore’s Voice & Paulette’s Motzko’s Tragic Story

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    Check out the latest issue of Ramona’s Alzheimer’s Disease Daily, if you haven’t looked at prior issued, this one has 16 contributors!

    Prevention is key here with dementia and Alzheimer’s disease.
    Always stay involved with things you love, learning, becoming and growing as a person. I speak from experience and watched my dad slowly die because he refused to get involved with social interaction activities that would have helped him cope with the congestive heart failure and severe, crippling osteoarthriris that would end up nearly totally paralyzing him! He will be gone a little over a year now and mom-Ramona- is 82 and is responsible for my existence and me accomplishing all I have in my life.

    I want to have the “Use it or lose it” mentality my Nanny had, who lived with us when I was a child. She was my dad’s mother and also had both rhematoid arthritis and osteoarthriris. I suggest we all adopt the “use it or lose it” way of thinking and apply it to staying lucid, strong mentally and not letting our minds and lives become mush sitting around a television set, (which is the worst thing a senior citizen can do with himself or herself!!!) It uses nothing upstairs and is a passive activity.

    If they are in a senior home, as dad was in the saddest last year of his life, he at least was watching a nice movie on a plasma TV with 20 people, which gave him friends to associate with…also in wheelchairs.

    It is important that if your loved one is severely crippled to get them out and about involved with activities they enjoy. If they need counseling to accept their imposed limitations and boundaries of being confined to a wheelchair, then by all means get them to a qualified professional.

    ATTITUDE is everything, and as a persion who has been diagnosed with complex partial and simple partial epilepsy since I was 9 years old, I know what boundaries and limits are.
    The trick is to adapt to live in spite of them.

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    Dad and Mom at Mike & Kathy’s wedding…my brother and sister-in-law….when dad had legs and could walk and was happy. Mom before she took care of dad didn’t have the stress she did dealing with dad’s health problems later in their marriage. God bless them both for they gave me life, encouragement, love, taught me right from wrong and taught me the meaning of honesty and integrity.

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    This is a bit longer than what I thought I would write, but I am pleased with this.

    If I help someone in the world with a parent with dementia or Alzheimer’s disease, then it was worth writing it.

    Also, contact your local Alzheimer’s Association. Tune in to every resource and program they have. I volunteered my time for them when I was married years ago and used to walk to their office, getting materials for my mother and I for her mother who also had Alzheimer’s disease. I prayed mom wouldn’t aquire it, but as in many things in my life, God didn’t see fit to answer my prayer but give me something else instead.

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    Mom (Ramona Lea) when she was 16 years old

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    I pray my mother always recognizes me and knows who I am as long as we both live. I want her to see my books when they’re printed and I miss our talks and tea parties and the many dinners I cooked for her during the 13 years I chose to live in the duplex, nearly paying my parent’s mortgage. The property was sold recently by my brother-in-law in June 2013. I need a great, hard hitting lawyer that deals with property and senior/elder abuse in Orange County, CA. The attorney can bill my sister and Mike Bunker-who evicted me and abducted mom from her own house with no note, destroyed my parent’s belongings and I have photos on this.

    I look forward to seeing mom soon and looking into her emerald green eyes, giving her a big hug and telling her the news over the last year. Just seeing her smile is enough to make the sun come out on a rainy day.

    I want peace of mind. I just want to know that while everyone was going through mom’s things having a field day, I took one picture of her and a crucifix that belonged to Nanny. Mom was alive and unless she physically gave me her things it wasn’t right.

    I called the Garden Grove police dept when they were hauling her stuff in a trash dumpster but they did nothing, the same as the Riverside Adult Protective Services. We need to change the Power of Attorney laws in CA. Mom didn’t know what she was signing and my dad had no right to sign for her.

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    Mom and dad’s $1000 leather Lazy Boy chairs someone hacked up with an ax so the trash man would take them! After all it wasn’t Bunker’s or my siblings…they didn’t care. I am the one kid that stands for principles. It was my mother’s who was alive and is alive now and that was hers. If her property or possessions needed to be liquidated, there is an appropriate way to liquidate something, (which I could have done and gotten top dollar and given the proceeds to my mother), and there is a way you do not do things. They all chose unwisely.

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    That was where I chose to live after my divorce to the rocket scientist I was married to for 15 years. Mind you, I could have bought a house with cash, but chose to help the folks out, pay their house payment, basically, and I saw it as a good thing at the time. I would have never believed it would become the house of horrors with continual drama from people visiting my folks or paramedics and ambulences coming to get my dad every other day.

    People turn right down ugly when you dangle money on a string. Mike Bunker was given debit cards, bank cards, social security numbers by my father who trusted him. He ended up TRASHING THINGS that were NOT TRASH, including the mismanagement of my dad’s care when he was overseeing it.

    I did what was right and what was needed, not what was easy or cheap. I can like myself and I should…lots of others do as well. I have no regrets when I look back, but I know they will one day when someone who is not me-points out how stupid they all were and lazy and callous. I guess INHUMANE sums it up in a nutshell.

    I bought the song “Stronger” on my iPod yesterday and I must say the words are me. It is as though I wrote it.

    I think I might have PTSD but I hope I don’t. Regular income that meets all my needs with no more counting pennies or sacrificing anything. I feel like I sacrificed myself for years and now I want to just LIVE.

    I am not sure how this reads to someone else, but I feel better after writing it. I am not depressed but optimistic.
    I am going to send the link to this story to Oprah Winfrey. I think she would care about my story.

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    Paulette Motzko at age 52 in Orange County, CA where she has been living most of her life and where she’d like to keep living. I need either a HUD Housing Voucher to stay though, or another kind of subsidized housing program for disabled people. My disability is invisible (as are most disabilities). Epilepsy is a developmental disability which is classified as a neurological disorder and mine is treated with two very expensive medicines that work.

    I have sent multiple faxes and letters to the director of the Urban Housing Authority and Housing Authority & Urban Development, the Mayor of Los Angeles who only cares women with multiple children from many fathers instead of someone who tried to do things right and prevent tragedies like that from happening in the first place.

    I feel like a Pheonix Rising out of the ashes. The place I lived was taken from me, I haven’t seen my mom in nearly a year and my sister won’t give mom the phone or arrange for me to see her. All my belongings are in storage vaults and I am trying to get a place and a job at the same time.

    I am three years short of being a senior myself, so in my opinion we have a power attorney run amuck and elder abuse dual fold-against my mom and myself. Total apathy and callousness was exhibited on behalf of my mother and I. Nobody and I mean nobody will ever break the two of us apart.

    Mike Bunker has been malicious in intent and I want to mandate an outside party to look after my mom who would look out for her that I trust.

    Reply here if you know any lawyers who would read this and take my case.

    Paulette Le Pore Motzko

    If you know of a congressman or congresswoman who could change my story to one with a happy ending, or a damn good attorney or someone in the public eye email
    Paulette_Motzko@yahoo.com

    The John Stewart Company unfairly declined my application

    Let me set the scene for you:

    Here it is last night about 7 p.m. and I am drinking some Jasmine Pearl Tea at Peet’s Coffee & Tea. I get 3 emails from Vanessa and one from Ms. Horn the VP of The John Stuart Company stating after being told I was chosen for this place out of thousands in Orange County, giving up my dog Lucky, incurring storage and hotels just to enable to stay wait for my place to be done being built.

    I passed the credit &  background checks weeks ago and saw the place. It was more than an apartment, but supposed to be a way to enable disabled people to live better quality lives.
    It turned into a nightmare.

    After being told two times the project was taking 3 months longer than anticipated, I have been in more Motel 6’s than I want to admit to, had my $1000 laptop and $300 Jetpack 4G portable router stolen and am now friends with the president of Uhaul who has made sure I didn’t lose everything in storage vaults!

    I made a choice to wait for this place as an investment in my life quality, never thinking it would drag out this long or have such a horrid ending!

    It ain’t over yet though.

    I contacted one of the story writers for The Orange County Register and he is considering doing a story about it.

    I hope he does. Just because people are disable doesn’t mean they should be treated like garbage.

    I was told in the pdf file by the VP of The John Stewart Company my application was being denied because I used profanity….well I asked for a move in date and they left it open ended, making me feel like the whole charade could go on to infinitum. I wouldn’t allow that.

    The things I earn money with are in the storage vault…desk office chairs & my upright grand piano.

    Had I moved to Arizona, like I was planning the last week of March 2013, I would be moved in, building piano students etc.

    CA was and always will be my first choice to live…my mom lives here, my friends who are my extended family.

    What was the rent on The Vista del Rio in Santa Ana? $444 a month, free wifi, and Good Will Industries would have helped me with grocery shopping, since I don’t drive any more (after my near fatal car accident 15 years ago having a seizure behind the wheel!)

    I just want peace and wish I would find people who know the meaning of the word INTEGRITY, FAIRNESS and who have a CONSCIOUS. The John Stewart Company possess none of those qualities.

    What should I do?

    Paulette Motzko

    Some People Feel the Rain and Others Just Get Wet….

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    Truly Seeing The World Around You by Paulette Le Pore Motzko

    Copyright March 2013

    I love what this said in that it illustrates that some really don’t truly live but go through life blinders on to the sights, scents and amazing small miracles they encounter. When we open up our world to the sights and scents and all the experiences in life, we truly live.

    For instance, here is a great exercise to become better at TRULY SEEING LIFE. PRETEND YOU ARE EXPLAINING WHAT YOU ARE SEEING AND EXPERIENCING TO SOMEONE WHO IS BLIND.

    I had a great friend when I was younger who was blind and I used to explain in glorious detail what I was seeing for her and only wished she could see what I did. I also had a client who was blind and had epilepsy and he called me for help when I was the CEO/Founder of The Epilepsy Connection. It was Friend & Family Day at The Braille Institute and none of his family wanted to go with him, so I became his family and was honored.

    If you have never volunteered your time at The Braille Institute, or been there it will literally “open your eyes” to some of the most courageous and intelligent people you will ever encounter. I wore a blind fold to simulate blindness and then cooked (or at least tried to) with the blind fold on. It didn’t go very well because I had no grasp of where things were from each other and I realized what blind people have to go through on a daily basis to do even the most simple things.

    Then I wore goggles to simulate being partially blind, which was worse than the other, because things looked distorted and out of focus. Then they gave me a can to walk with and we were supposed to find our way home, with an assistance, who gave directions and described in glorious detail what I was coming up against and allowing my ears to make up for my eyes.

    In the center of The Braille Institute in Anaheim on Dale is a beautiful fountain with crystalline waters flowing from it. I have always loved fountains and the charm of them but had no idea there was a distinct reason why the fountain was there. Do you know why it was there?

    It was to give orientation to all the people there who had vision impairments-blind or partially blind. They could sense where they were from the center of the building.  My senses were not in tune with it and I never really got a sense for where I was at, but I had an even deeper appreciation of people who were blind, who taught many of the courses and looked just like anyone else. Epilepsy and blindness have several things in common:

    1. They are permanent disabilities

    2. They are for the most part invisible to others

    3. They make those whose lives have been touched by it gain a deeper appreciation for the world around them.

    4. Anyone can acquire epilepsy or blindness if the right set of circumstances arose

    In my case, I was diagnosed with epilepsy when I was 9 years old and was a very sick child passing out all over the place and it took awhile to find a medicine gave me the control I now have. Consciousness, uninterrupted normalcy was a highly appreciated thing and compassion was a thing I learned at a very early age, along with big words, and hanging around with people who were 30 years my senior because the “kids” my age didn’t understand what I was going through and were not nice.

    Going back to the name of this post/article, the next time you go outside on a pretty day, pick up a pen and paper and write down what you see. I mean, really write it down as though you are seeing for the first time and are explaining to someone who cannot see. It will change your world forever.

    Paulette Le Pore Motzko

    St. Patrick’s Day 2013

    Life is a Succession of Lessons Which Must Be Lived to be Understood

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    When I was a child of 9 years old I was diagnosed with complex partial epilepsy and little would I know that it would take many years to find a drug named Tegretol to find control in my freshman year of high school before I knew what health meant.

    My best friend in 5th grade was a blind smart girl named Cheryl Lightcap, and I have always thought she was aptly named. She spoke with a southern accent and sat in the back of the class with her braille machine. That year the book drive came around and I ordered the story about Helen Keller’s life. On the back of the book it had the braille alphabet on it and I would practice trying to read it and was always fascinated by my friend Cheryl who would so effortlessly read pages and pages of heavy brown braille paper.

    Her hands were calloused from reading all the books in braille she did. I was so proud to walk with her and amazingly she could touch what I was wearing and know what color it was-light or dark. I would describe what I saw to her and tell her about the day, if it was sunny and what the kids were doing-other than us.

    I would bring cook books and read them in a pink book bag and find a table to read in. The kids didn’t like me because I was different and that stayed that way until Tegretol was introduced in my freshman year of high school. I was able to attend school with the rest of the kids, not miss so much school and not have to work quite so hard. Then boys who made fun of me in years past wanted to “be my friend” of which I wanted no part of. I was the same person, just healthier and older.

    I always knew it wasn’t our purpose on earth to suffer and that even though we weren’t understood or treated as the same we were the smartest kids in the class and we had each other and hope; I knew though I learned big words at an early age I was still only a child and I had my whole life ahead of me.

    I remember for “Show and Tell” one year in Mrs. Acosta’s 3rd grade class playing the piano and showing the kids how it worked. For a day I was treated better than the rest and the kids were in awe and Mrs. Acosta asked me what conservatory I studied at and I told her I learned how to play myself after my mom taught me 4 chords. She looked puzzled. I still play and have written 50 songs on piano that are copy right protected in the Library of Congress and would love the world to hear them one day.

    I wish I knew where Cheryl Lightcap is today. I have searched for her numerous times but she probably married and changed her name. I do think of her often and the special times we had together. I also think of the “Gifts She Gave Me”…of courage, wisdom, persistence, perseverance, and somehow it made what I went through not so bad when I saw that she couldn’t see the pictures in the cook books I brought, and how I wanted her to! I remember how Mr. Hill yelled at me for holding her hand and explaining the world to her and always breaking us up. I think Mr. Hill was a PE teacher and shouldn’t have been teaching at all. It seemed he never took one Child Psychology course and had no heart most of the time.

    There are many lessons I learned in life.

    1. Savor the now and don’t dwell on the past. This is all we have. Give yourself the Present Called Life.

    2. Try not to judge others too harshly until you know their story.

    3. Make the most of your talents and abilities and down play the rest.

    4. Don’t replay negative things others have said about you-it isn’t worth it and it isn’t fair to yourself!

    5. Treat others as you want to be treated.

    6. Ask others the magic words “How Are You?” and really mean it when you ask them. It probably was the first time anyone asked them all day.

    7. Strive to make yourself better, smarter and happier each and every day so you can look back with no regrets.

     

    What lessons have you learned in life so far?

    Would you be willing to share a few with the readers of Totally Inspired Mind? I would love it if you did.

    Paulette Le Pore Motzko