Have “Springtime in Autumn” by     Paulette L. Motzko & Watch “Forcing Paper Whites, a How-to Video with Glenwood Weber” on YouTube

I bought 20 beautiful large paperwhites about a month ago, and due to all the terrible weather events we had all over the world, they were delayed in the shipment. I contacted the people that I bought them from and one of the managers contacted me back and they were sent priority mail the next day.

Even though it’s Autumn here in Las Vegas, Nevada with very few if any fall leaves to be seen, I’m going to be creating “Springtime in Autumn” by forcing paperwhites indoors.

Bulbs are so easy to work with and you can keep them going for years. They’re awesome for a beginning gardener. Usually just plant them about 1/2 to 3 times deep of what the bulb size is; the planting directions will tell you.

Years ago in my first house in Sandy Utah, when I was married to the rocket scientist, Mark”s sweet and very generous grandmother Hazel Griffin sent us several hundred dollars worth of bulbs and I had fun playing them all over the yard in around the bhouse. 

I kept those orchids going for many years after and they were absolutely gorgeous. There were jumbo gladiolus and red and yellow and tulips, because we got snow in Sandy, Utah which was 20 minutes away from Salt Lake City. It was just awesome living there. I wouldn’t do it now because of the high amount of snow Utah gets.  it’s great we can have a guy cleaning the driveway, and when you’re driving in a car everywhere you go. But for me who walks and uses lift and gets around a myriad of ways, it wouldn’t be logistically smart.  but I will always remember the extraordinary Panorama mountains and how it look like a painting, how clear it was from where we lived by the Wasatch mountains off to see the Capitol building we could see as clear as day. I would say that Sandy Utah Salt Lake City is the opposite of Las Vegas Nevada. They’re people with their doors open and as long as you were good people they were good to you. Here we have a high crime rate high fraud rate there’s weirdos and goofballs and drunks all over the place it’s the opposite of what that place was, and what many places are I like my place here and it is cheaper to live but there’s prices you pay for that.

 Utah was beautiful country and that the Mormon people were so awesome so kind so nice because I learned all about there  and even though I didn’t believe what they did  we respected one another . I wish more people thought like that . You don’t have to agree with everybody just need to respect their viewpoints and their beliefs. 

Around Christmas time at The Visitor Center, they spent about three months every year wiring lights all around Visitor Center it was absolutely gorgeous. 
Back to the bulbs, you can keep bulbs going for years just by taking them out, if you live in an area where you can do daffodils outside, like I used to in Southern California, I naturalized them outdoors and my last house in Orange California with the now ex and, I had crocus coming up ‘the first to come up in the spring time and daffodils.

I love growing things this is the first place that I’ve had where I could actually do that and think of growing things once I learned how to do it here in the terribly hot  southwest desert.

I hope that by airing this video and buy me writing this, you’ll think of creating “Springtime at Autumn” where you live, and adding joy to your desk or your window sill by planting some really beautiful paperwhites

 I ordered these around my birthday August 31st, which was the time they recommend to plant these. But, if you plant them (force them) indoors, you can have these going all year.

 It’s kind of like having Springtime in your window sill are on your desk, which is what I’ll be having in about 2 weeks once I plant them. 

I have everything but the little glass planter that you need to do these and gravel hydroponically.

I’m soon getting ready to head for church but I wanted to air this. 

As I learn the world learns with me, and that’s just one of the cool thing about having a blog that’s read all over the world.

God bless you all.

If you’re Mormon, Muslim, Jewish, Agnostic, Atheist, Buddhist, and any other Christian faith, or don’t know what you believe, I bless you anyway and I hope that only good comes to you in every way.

We’re all the same on this planet and it really doesn’t matter. What matters is how you act and how you treat people it’s not the name your faith and it’s not how many times you go to church. 

None of that matters what matters is who you are, what you do and what you bring to the world and what you want to leave the world as because you were in it.

Text Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko.

Sunday October 15th 2017 

9:06 a.m.

Update on how the paperwhites are growing in their agate rock with water. I will shoot another photo in a few days…..

Updated October 21st  2017 

6:21 a.m.

When $65,000 a year for a drug is applauded : Pharmaceutical Prices & A Disabled Person’s Right To Live in Dignity with All Needs Met

When $65,000 a year for a drug is applauded

http://www.cnn.com/2017/04/03/health/prescription-drug-prices-public-opinion/index.html

Paulette Le Pore Motzko’s Note to Pharmaceutical Companies on Placing People First and Nevada’s Unfair Treatment of People with Epilepsy, Civil Rights & Disabilities 

I wish more pharmaceutical companies had more or a “Triple Win Attitude”: I Win, You Win & Society Wins. Huge multi million dollar companies need to keep ever present the real, flesh and blood people they are developing the drug to help.

They simply can function effectively as a business and still charge less  for the consumer. 

For instance, my medicine for epilepsy called Vimpat that I take is $20 a pill made by UCB. It cost nearly $2,300 a month along with my Tegretol that I take for a complex partial epilepsy. I have Nevada Medicaid and am on SSI, which allows you to make money and collect it, and pays less than SSDI-full disability.  (it also took two and a half years to win with the aid of a social security disability lawyer  too and I had to say goodbye to my alimony from the rocket scientist I was married to for 15 years to get that crappy $728 but my medical is covered. 

Yet after stating all those facts, the state of Nevada doesn’t think anyone who was diagnosed with epilepsy has a medical conditiom or termed disabled, even though the director at the DMV told me I will automatically get a disabled placard when I update my Nevada state ID.

 (I’m still trying to obtain a certified copy of my old marriage license to prove I’m Paulette Le Pore Motzko. That’s a $65 stupid document is so outrageous it is unbelievable. I’ve been divorced from him since 2001 and my name was legally changed in Garden Grove, California in 1986, when I got married.  I’m going to go talk to one of my friends who is a librarian and see if she can get me the silly document free because $65 is a lot of money to prove I’m who I am! I’ve been trying to get that document 3 times now and it is difficult since my CA ID expired on my birthday last August.

Nevada needs to spend more time educating their political leaders about things like crimehuman dignity, the pedestrian fatality rate and placing penalties on drunk drivers and their educating RTC and people who are public servants about various disabilities, NAMELY neurological ones like EPILEPSY. That would use everybody’s time in an effort worth expending time on.

This may be Nevada and it may have the worst weather in the United States, and 60 mile an hour-knock you on your ass dust storms, high fraud rates,  allergies that wont quit due to blowing dust, and vapes and casinos on every corner with few nonsmoking areas other than Starbucks.

But Nevada is still only one state in the USA it still is the United States of America. And as far as I’m concerned as far as I know, in the USA, we all have certain basic rights.

One of those rights is to be treated fairly. Denying people with epilepsy the right to use Paratransit and having the head Federal representative not know what epilepsy even is is a crime.  

That should be against the law and it probably is.

After after the grand negligence that happened to me regarding Paratransit  and the callousness and apathy on behalf of Senator Harry Reid’s office is disgusting.

 It doesn’t reflect great kindly on him.  The irony is Harry Reid can barely see and uses Paratransit himself, so you think he’d be the first understand the meaning of a doctor’s letter when a doctor writes for a patient to take a medication and says you need it to live, which mine has done since age 9.

You think he would understand as well as the governor,  how important it is to look after the safety of people with epilepsy and not allow them to be injured. I was.

 I was talking to Harry Reid about raising the cost of living index to $1200 a month for all people on SSI and SSDI. 

I still have pictures of the first place I lived in when I first moved here.  That horrid $728 a month buys nothing  in terms of living quality and your standard of life. All you have to do is  think and care and be a responsible person realize that along with all inflation and elevated prices going up, the cost of living index for all disabled people  hasn’t been raised in over 20 years.

SSI is $200 less than what California has per month. Who created an SSI (supplementary Social Security) of $728 anyway? A monkey with an abacus?  Everything needs to be updated  to reflect 2017 prices. Make the minimum BE $1000 for God’s sake! Round it up. Turn the insulting, impoverished amount in to something a human being can really spend, not just make due in the real world. $1200 is actually usable and workable  for the average person.

 Anybody who thinks that SSI and SSDI checks are handed on a platter they are not you are sadly mistaken.


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Lawyer Bill LaTour won my case in Southern California and I can’t count all of the doctors I went to and specialists and career counselors and all the questions I had to answer and psychological assessments in order to finally present my case. Most who are disabled would rather be working. In the final hearing all of the doctors and the career counselor appeared in a small courtroom and they’re the judge asked me what my name was and after about 5 minutes he reviewed all the evidence presented by every one of the doctors that I had to see you over the course of a year and a half before he finally awarded me ssi. That took a mere five minutes and those were the only words that I other than that. 

You can’t sue the government but you can sue people who work for the government.  And one by one I will if I don’t get my Paratransit FOR MYSELF AND SET A PRECIDENT FOR ALL WHO HAVE EPILEPSY IN THE STATE OF NEVADA. 

After all, I’m the former President and founder of The Epilepsy Connection which was a grassroots organization in Orange County, California  that helped countless people in California and many other states, and three other countries who had no other resources whatsoever. I’m also the former director of the Epilepsy Foundation sub affiliate in Garden Grove, California years ago. 

In other words, I am a catalyst for positive change and I hope to  merge forces with other disabled people making us stronger as a united team.


 I’ve got arthritis in that left ankle that won’t go away, just as my dad was  just about paralyzed in a wheelchair from osteoarthritis  before he died several years ago.

After having a drop seizure- due to being out in 115 degree heat when I shouldn’t have been.  That because I was having problems but two idiot’s went against my epileptologist’s letter stating that. I think that’s a crime isn’t it? 

DAN HOWLAND AND JIM CHAMPOU, THE IDIOTS WHO DIDNT VALIDATE THAT DOCTOR’S LETTER AND THOUGHT DR. EVANGALISTA WROTE IT FOR THE FUN OF IT, INSTEAD TO PREVENT INJURY TO ME.

Maybe no lawyer in Nevada has wanted to take my case YET, IT IS A crime AND A  double crime since Dan Howell and told me he didn’t care about people with epilepsy to my face  and he said he didn’t care about learning about anything to do with them he liked being ignorant. After everything  hits the fan and people pay the price they should have paid a couple years ago but I wasn’t any kind of health condition  to be able  to press charges, I hope he’s fired  and not only that I hope charges are filed on him  for endangerment and that is endangering me.

I believe the max I can do is $10,000  in the state of Nevada for him personally and  also Jim shampoo $10,000 and also Tina Quigley, the head of RTC , who all she could say during our phone conversation was “uh huh” after I said anything.  In other words, she did nothing and could have been forced my Paratransit ID once suck it but she did not. That’s another $10,000.

 They put my life at risk because I was having drop seizures of time and that was written in the letter so that’s called personal injury and I with all the evidence that I can bring which is a hell of a lot of it I call it instant win.

It is the principle here. I am hoping I won’t need to and they will come to their senses. Maybe the  Governor can hear the whole sordid story and make it right trade she seemed like the most level-headed person in the most articulate intelligent person I’ve seen hold office in Nevada so far.

 I think Nevada has some disabled Senators who have disabled minds and need to greatly educate themselves about what all this abilities are an update themselves with 2017.

Civil rights and then do the educate themselves on disabilities that go far beyond physical ones in a wheelchair.

The statistics on disability is there are more people with invisible disabilities like epilepsy than those with more visible ones.

California was better with Paratransit by far.  I had Paratransit in California over 25 years and I come to the 1800’s Wild West High Desert of Nevada and here they turn me down. I called Paratransit once waiting 2 hours and after the two hours the lady said, ” oh didn’t you know? Just because you call Paratransit doesn’t mean it’ll show up!” 

Ignorance again.   

You shouldn’t be a leader in the state if you are igorant in the ways I have seen. Dina Titus, Head of Transportation had no desire to help me get what I was owed as a disabled American citizen.

Nevada Medicaid pays for my medicine now and I hope it always does because it’s the best combination I have ever been on in my now 55 years young.

 

 

Even all that being said Senator Reid doesn’t think I have a disability-isn’the that rediculous? 

I even sent Senator Reid pictures of my medicine and all the vitamins that I take and the doctor’s letter from my specialist who prescribes my medicine and the copy of my medical ID bracelet and he still didn’t think that I was disabled!

 Living in Nevada is like living in the wild west where they think they can do anything. The American with Disabilities Act is something that I know all about  and because I was turned down for Paratransit here I could sue every senator in the entire State and when  because my civil rights were violated and I broke my left ankle as a result of having a drop seizure a year ago and was nearly in power chair after! Was I disabled enough for you then Nevada  huh 7 read  the governor ? Is that what you want to but everybody Wheelchairs and that’s the only kind of stability you think exist in this world ? Wake up  you need to get your head examined and go look at the medical book and read it all of this abilities that exist in this world there quite a lot of them  we have a lot of components to our bodies not just a physical body  without your neurological system you’re nothing you can’t write you can’t speak you can’t do anything.

I now have arthritis in that left ankle, which makes might a personal injury case that I didn’t want come into the state I just wanted a place to live it was cheap that’s it I didn’t come here for the gambling  I don’t drink I don’t smoke I don’t do drugs and I don’t gamble why did I come here for cheap rent that’s it hat’s part of living in Nevada is not something I like but it’s also against my civil rights too. 

I’ll be talking to the governor of Nevada this year about all of those issues as well as others that affect everyone or just same old and about raising the cost of living index for all people who are disabled to something that allows them to live in dignity, which the $728 a month does not.

I want to see that all people can afford tm what they need to keep them alive. 

Hear that pharmaceutical companies? 

Remember the human element. 

Remember why you’re developing the medicine in the first place.

 What good  is a fantastic medicine with a high efficiency rate and the low side effect rate and a huge success rate if the patients cannot afford it? I’m asking you that question mark I was made a rocket scientist for 15 years and I’m fairly bright that’s not even logical is it to make the price outlandish.

If drugs are so outrageously priced limiting who can take them, it defeats the purpose why the drug was ever created.

 I wish the scientist who developed the drugs could price the drugs because then they would be priced at something reasonable that makes sense. 

Because people who are scientists creating these compounds to help people would never charge people outrageous prices because they’re more humanitarian in spirit than the simply sales reps promoting the products getting huge commissions driving company cars!

 Let the pharmacology medicine developers help set a price that is more accurate.

 I saw pharmaceutical reps every time I went into one of my neurology offices in Orange off La Veta when I was married years ago.  I think what they do should be against the law because they’re giving doctors Kickbacks to promote drugs. because of that, doctors are  not looking at to the best needs of the patient. The Pharmaceutical reps  are allowed to  dangle money in front of a doctor’s faces and saying over here I’ll give you this money -a bribe.

How in the hell can a good doctor think straight  with the ” Wheeler Dealers” walking around dangling incentives.

Pharmaceutical companies remind me of real estate companies in California. Everybody is so greedy that they have to make “over profit” aking for way more than is affordable for most everyone except millionaires. 

 Medicine companies: Remember the people FIRST. Without people in this world you have nothing. Nothing but dust and a bunch of chemicals a test tube that people NEED.

Written by Paulette Motzko on April 5th 2017 at 12:48 p.m. 

This is story was aired on Totally Inspired Mind: Where Posititive Minds Congregate and Beautiful Soul Shine.

TotallyInspiredMind.com

I created the following document on my Galaxy Note 4 Phablet and the edits are coming in on my Samsung S2 tablet. My phablet  overheated just like I do when I even think about the things that I’ve been through for no good reason.  I almost was history in this town so rather than be history I’m going to make history instead, making it better for everyone.








Edited  April 5th 2017 at 3:36

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko 

Relaxing Background Guitar Music & How Creating An Inspiring Environment by Paulette Motzko

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=Xv1Yx3eFnEg&feature=share

I love this beautiful acoustic guitar play list.  

If you are a creative person just like I am, the key is to find out to flowing inspiration is to know in an intimate way what environment helps you create the best in yourself.

 Keep repeating it over and over again. What works for you will be different than anyone else. 

Things that inspire me are…

Beautiful natural surroundings are beautiful places

The Pacific Ocean

Majestic mountains

Enchanted Forest’s

Inspiring workplaces that are conducive to concentration

Special music playlist and help bring out the best in your artwork. This could be writing, this could be photography, this could be cooking or painting or some other art form.

The special place that everytime you go there you meet someone extraordinary. I have several places like that and I don’t even question what happens I just know it happens. Will meet someone who is absolutely extraordinary every time I go to this certain location. If you pay attention you’ll find then you can maximize the positives in your world. Just pay attention and follow your instincts and usually always steered in the right direction.

And lastly I do a lot of meditation everyday I’m prayer and centering thought hoping to create something I feel give something back to the universe, and will last long after I touched the face of God.

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko

Painted Picture photographed & Created by Paulette Motzko

October 22, 2016

9:33 a.m.

 It’s a learning curve when you’re a writer or a photographer or an artist it would never put you in the right frame of mind, and helps you create the best that is in your soul- then do it.

Watch “Jason Mraz – I Won’t Give Up [Official Music Video]” on YouTube

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=O1-4u9W-bns&feature=share

I love this song and the video shows how you can triumph over adversity and you are the same no matter what. Also, it shows love can triumph over any set of circumstances.

Awesome job #Jason Mraz!

From one southern Californian to another who loves the palm tree studded Pacific Coast Highway.

 I can’t wait to go back and see my friend’s and the beautiful beaches.


The beautiful Huntington Beach Pier in Surf City, CA.

Written & Compiled Paulette L Motzko

Images by Paulette Motzko, 

PLM Studios

Copyright October 2016

October 19th 2016 11:36 a.m.

Watch “Relaxing Harp Music: Help You Enhance Your Life, Sleep, Meditation, Spa, Study | Instrumental Background Music ★49” on YouTube

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=dCvEgqePl84&feature=share

This beautiful and serene video and soundtrack has water sounds on the music track with a solo harp.

The photo slide show is of nature scenes. 

I hope this adds some beauty and joy on your lives today.

Written and compiled by

 Paulette L Motzko 

Image photographed by Glenn Clayton.

Photo Editing and Digital Arts by Paulette Motzko 

Copyright October 2016

Beautiful Chinese Proverb

As I was reading the inside forward of the first of the series of Chicken Soup for the Soul books by Jack Canfield and Mark Victor Hansen, I spotted this beautiful Chinese proverb which I will share with you because it’s enlightening in so many ways and it shows how we’re all connected on this planet and one thing has a chain reaction.

If there is Light in the Soul, there will be Beauty in the Person.

 If there is Beauty in the person, there will be Harmony in the house.

 If there is Harmony in the house, there will be order in the nation. 

If there is Order in the Nation, there will be Peace in the World.

Written and compiled by Paulette L Motzko

Painted Picture of The Huntington Beach Pier, by Paulette L Motzko

PLM Studios

October 8th, 2016 at 5:51 p.m.

Paulette Motzko Welcome’s Cooler Days in The High Desert

Above image created by Paulette Motzko, Copyright September 2016

Photograph of Paulette Motzko taken by my manager friend who works at Blueberry Hill- when I first moved to Las Vegas. The background image was photographed by me in Vista, CA as I was walking down the street to go to the Vista Library and I loved the shapes of the leaves on the trees there. Vista in San Diego County is totally different than Orange County in that it is more hilly and has more types of lush green foliage.

The images were united last night with a sophisticated blending and blurting app I installed yesterday. 

So, in that photo three different times were involved and would different geographic locations.


Wherever you are today, take time to look at Nature’s Bountiful Colorful Gifts growing around you. 

Get out your camera and immortalize them.

A great photograph says the world without ever uttering a word. 

It is a silent, visual communicator.

Fall in Las Vegas, NV reminds me of just about every day in beautiful southern California with it’s cool Pacific Ocean breezes.

 I would much rather wear a jacket and be cool than sweat or bake like a human cookie in 115 degree heat.

One beautiful fall day I was able to see what Autumn looks like a New England in Vermont. I’ll never forget it because I was going on a business trip with no EX yes she really is a rocket scientist with bowling working on the Delta rocket. Later their marriage, because he traveled so much, I was able to go on a few trips with them and the hotel we stayed at was very strategically pickrf yo be by shopping and restaurants all walking distance-because I dont drive. I’m my mind”s eye, and I do have  very vivid memory, so I will paint the picture of what I saw on that serene afternoon in Vermont:

I was so fascinated with the fact that the towns were so quaint and Charming but nothing like the big city in Southern California that I was used to. All the properties had you Jones and green like as if you painted them or drew them with the kids Crayola crayon set in green. It it just rained and you could see a white Chapel, just like out of Currier and Ives that was so pristine and quaint and Charming maybe want to go inside look around. Hit my ex been a Christian guy and said agnostic we probably would have done just that. But the memories I have of Vermont in the autumn are so wonderful.

I wasn’t a published writer then and not one of my blogs had been created yet. This was 1990.  I want to go back either to Vermont in the Autumn in the future when the leaves are Ablaze with the colors of red, rest, dark green and the foliage comes in about every size and shape you can imagine.

When you grew up in the big city with nothing but towering palm trees that rise to the sky and beautiful blue expanses beaches and ocean- up and down the Pacific coast…. places like Vermont are refreshing, not so much even for the scenic countryside, but for the great and totally genuine people I met while passing through.

 People in small towns have more time and more patient and it’s like going back in time to a simpler, gentler time when people stayed off smartphones- because they didn’t exist and  made eye contact more and people were the most important thing.

There’s so many wonderful places but I want to go in the United States but I’ve seen just mere vignettes or samplers of what I know is to come.
Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko

My Mother is Dying But Her Spirit Lives Through Me

I was a caregiver for my sweet mother Ramona Lea Le Pore who on the last decade of her life was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s disease.

My sister in law contacted me to yell me mom has a tumor on her kidney and is now dying.
I knew the time would come when mom would leave this earth and touch the face of God, being reunited with dad in heaven, but I wasn’t prepared for so sudden of tragic news.

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In my old kitchen drinking tea with mom after making dinner

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As long as I am alive, mom’s name will be in the prefaces of the books I will write, and so many creative things my mother helped show me how to do by believing in me: piano playing, cooking, poetry, lyric writing and singing.

She was my cheerleader, my best friend, my confidant and encouraged my creativity. I miss hearing her voice and laughter.
She was the most appreciative person I ever knew or will know.
That’s why it was a joy to do anything for her like cook her favorite meal.

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Mom and I in the 16 x 20 photo to the right on my desk last Christmas 2015.

Little would I know that the photo I created to immortalize a stellar moment in time would be the only vestige of my mother to keep me going. With no ability to make phone calls or talk to her the photo was and is all I have.

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Mom and dad when dad was in The Air Force

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I had been thinking of mom all week and just feeling something strange like an inner voice telling me mom might not have much longer to live. This morning I looked up at the 16 x 20 mural I had made of mom and I happy in Huntington Beach, CA and am happy I immortalized the moment.

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Mom sitting across from me happy on a beautiful southern California day at Ruby’s Diner.

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Mom from the time I was 4 years old read to me and taught me phonetics, opening my eyes to wider worlds. She was a visionary before that word was popular.

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Mom taught me to see the beauty in the simple pleasures of life….in flowers, nature and taught me to cherish people and take care of the things you own-and in that order of priority.

Mom loved being useful and when she cared about you, she would go to the ends of the earth to make you happy. If you complimented something she might give it to you!

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The photo I took from the wall that was cut from a 16 x 20 that survived a fire. Much like my mother, the photo was resilient and a survivor.

This photo that’s on my upright grand piano and a crucifix that belonged to Nanny my grandmother are all I took when I was told “take what you want from mom’s stuff.”

Mom was alive but with Alzheimer’s disease and if she didn’t put it in my hand I wasn’t going to take it. I wanted to be remembered for what I gave her instead of what I took from her.

Hearing the birds singing their morning song at 4:46 a.m. I am going to wrap this up by saying hug those around you who you care about. Live life so you have no regrets and give more than you take. I sincerely tried to do just that with my mother but I will miss her terribly. Her smile was like the sun to me.

Please pray for my mother and family and I. Thank you.

Written by
Paulette Le Pore Motzko
Photography Paulette Motzko
July 4th, 2016
4:50 a.m.

My strength did not come from lifting weights…..

My strength did not come from lifting weights. My strength came from lifting myself up and I was knocked down.

This is my favorite one of the year end of last year because that’s exactly what I did in my life over the last year.
It has been, and will continue to be probably my most positively transformative year in my life. It has also been one of the most exhausting physically.

Mom and I are and always will be together in spirit, though now she’s a few hour’s away.

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Mom at age 16……

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My Nanny’s crucifix that was on her wall for years and then mom painted it with gold leaf.

I must look a million times a day for inspiration and insight here.

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Nanny’s praying hands by the wooden Virgin Mary my Uncle Mervin mailed me because I helped him when he was dying of cancer.

Keep things around you that inspire you and give you strength.

Written by Paulette L Motzko
Image found on Pinterest
Copyright June 11, 2015
5:52 a.m.

3 Days 10 Hours Until Christmas…May It Be BLESSED!

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Photography by Leonardo Valencia
Photo Editing & Graphic Design by Paulette Motzko
Copyright December 2014

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Photos of The Wynn Hotel & Casino, Fashion Show Mall, The Most Holy Redeemer Catholic Shrine by Paulette L Motzko

Photo of Paulette Motzko by Thomas Wojiensky
Copyright November 2014

Photo Editing & Graphic Design by Paulette L Motzko
“Get Inspired” Photo Badge Promo for Totally Inspired Mind by Paulette Motzko taken at The Huntington Beach Pier, The Bella Terra Mall, and Ruby’s Surf City Diner in Huntington Beach, CA
Paulette L Motzko
Copyright November 2014

Paulette Motzko Needs A Room in A Home-She Will Cook & Help with Housework

http://totallyinspiredpc.wordpress.com/2013/10/31/3015/

The first time I was nominated for The Most Versatile Blogger Award was on October 31st, of this year 2013 and was just nominated again yesterday by another fellow blogger that goes by amintiridinbucatarie at amintiridinbucatarie.wordpress.com.
Thank you again to my fellow readers and bloggers.

Me at year ago in my old kitchen I lived in for 13 years and what was my parent's place-sold for $460,000. Need a hard hitting lawyer to make sure Bunker didn't spend it all! He is the guy that evicted me and threw mom's things in a dumpster! I have filed more than my share of complaints with Adult Protective Services. Such a tragic thing-what they did to mom and I.

Me at year ago in my old kitchen I lived in for 13 years and what was my parent’s place-sold for $460,000. Need a hard hitting lawyer to make sure Bunker didn’t spend it all! He is the guy that evicted me and threw mom’s things in a dumpster! I have filed more than my share of complaints with Adult Protective Services. Such a tragic thing-what they did to mom and I.


versatile-blogger-award

I answered all the many questions about myself and nominated my choices for which blogs I felt worthy of the same award.

I still have to accept and nominate for The Most Influential Blogger Award, and I forget who nominated me! Sorry folks, but I have been really busy leading the most tumultuous part in my life in history. That award means the most to me because it means that my words meant something to a lot of people and not only got them thinking but acting in new ways.

All of these awards and the 73 countries who have been reading this site on a monthly basis-didn’t know these things were going on, but they are. The readership doubled on this site in the last two months. It makes me elated that I managed to do it all.

I met a nice lady who was a nurse with her two children at Arby’s this week. We had so much in common and she said two words to me- very simply said “Stay Sweet”. I am so happy that people still perceive me to be “sweet’. I didn’t let all the apathy and callousness regarding my mother and I jade me and I will always think that most people are inherently good-if you are good to them.

It is eight months to date since I was callously evicted from my mother’s place (that I chose to live in 13 years ago helping my parents pay their house payment while I  had a place to live in the massive duplex they owned in Garden Grove, CA. That ended in April 2013 when my brother-in-law Mike Bunker-made power of attorney by my dad-which was a royal mistake-and my mother-evicted me. I have been in and out of two star hotels, trying to afford expensive southern CA rent, which is impossible with no room mate.

Dinner for my friend Ron B. from MA. Table set with homemade stew a promo for Cooking Up a Storm All Over The World! my first blog. CookingUpaStorminCA.ning.com

Dinner for my friend Ron B. from MA. Table set with homemade stew a promo for Cooking Up a Storm All Over The World! my first blog. CookingUpaStorminCA.ning.com

I am eligible for HUD housing but women with kids get priority and I am treated as though I am not alive. (I am not done fighting on this matter to change this fact. I wish I didn’t have to be the only one fighting, since it affects more than myself.)

Of course I am alive and searching day by day to find a family to live with and cook for the family in exchange for a nice, clean safe non-smoking environment I can live in and relax and take care of myself. It will be easy to get ahead when I don’t feel like I have a shot gun to my head rushing around or else I will be out on the street when the money runs out for the hotel I am writing this from!

It is a hell of a way to live and if you would have told me that I would be doing this, when my family once had morals, values and stuck together, I would have never believed you. I am in charge of me-and that is it. That is what I learned out of all this. I am not sure why I have to go through so much and endure so many tragic things in my life, but I will be glad when I have a place to call home. I am working to make more and more money but it is going out the door as fast as I get it.

I have been looking on Craig’s List for Orange County but everybody in CA is greedy and wants $800 to rent a lousy bedroom. In New Mexico you can get a two bedroom two bathroom place for $700 with full amenities! about less than half of what it takes here in Expensive-Ville.

I met a really nice lady today and helped her grand daughter who has ALS find resources and will be posting the story about her and the way to help the family pay for all the medical care for her. I met her at Staples where I do work all the time and noticed her having printed signs with a pretty little girl on them and wanted to know more. The story about her will air as soon as I can get a photo of her. I also emailed the director of ALSA, an association that helps people with ALS and found a clinic for her and her family.  All these things are possible because I could and I simply did. I wish more people had that kind of attitude.

My nanny used to say, “What goes around comes around”, and I hope that some of the great things I did in my life, that I never got paid for or recognition for, come back my way and someone helps me now.

Whatever God you pray to, Christian, Native American Indian, Jewish or Buddhist-pray that I find a place to stay soon and better yet, if you know someone who either has a room I can stay in-in exchange for helping with cooking and housework and helping with the kids-let me know.

If you know a person who has been looking for someone who is stable mentally and financially-and who is a good cook and has a good sense of humor and a positive attitude, let me know. I want to sign a year or better yet more-lease. 3 vaults of my life that I pay on each month have been in storage since April and I would rather sit at my desk again in my office chair, cook in my gourmet kitchen and read the many books in my library. Make it so God and let this struggle end

Christmas is only weeks away and here I am watching cable TV-first I have seen of it in months, in a hotel I call home with no kitchen but a microwave, fridge, freezer in safe area. It is $70 a day that could go towards a month in a room in a house.There are cheaper two star hotels that are highly unsafe and dangerous and I have stayed in them but my blood pressure was elevated and I never got any sleep and when I heard a guy beating up a woman in the room next to me, I swore to God I would do everything humanly possible to find the best deal and find a way to pay the higher price in better hotels.

I didn’t know when I wrote about The Most Versatile Blogger Award this would come out but it did. Probably for the best.

I know I am special because have been going through all this without mentioning it to the world. I do know in one heart beat I help others and get such a great joy and high out of it.

Imagine what kind of things I could write and do if only I had one stable nice place to live with no worry?

The possibilities are endless!

Paulette Le Pore Motzko

Email me any leads or connections you may have at Paulette_Motzko@yahoo.com.

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I wasn’t born to live in a hotel and need a home to live in because I am disabled with epilepsy. I also am too nice and too kind to have the guy I was living with hit me, but he did…which is what brought me to this hotel.
I have just kept myself absorbed in my work, in what matters and relentlessly contacting congress people and talking face to face with every friend I know on Facebook and elsewhere-and realizing that people, when you go through hell-with totally flaberghast you!

One friend, that I thought was a friend at least-heard about me in the hotel, the guy hitting me etc., things that would have at least got an “Are You OK?” …or something showing that you have a heart and soul and a pulse-got nothing. Just talk of sugar cookies and setting her opulent table with gold baubles on hanging everywhere. I am not jealous because I have all that “stuff” in storage waiting to come out and be united with me.
I call myself DISPLACED AND NOT REALLY HOMELESS. I CAN PAY $500 TOWARDS RENT COME JANUARY FOR ANONE WHO LIVES IN ORANGE COUNTY AND I CAN FURNISH THE PLACE FOR A CLEAN, MATURE, SENSIBLE PERSON WHO IS STABLE MENTALLY AND FINANCIALLY-WHO DRIVES AND DOESN’T SMOKE.

Since I am in a position where I have the whole world, or at least 73 countries reading what I write on a monthly basis, I am using this podium to get ACTION-for me.

My future means a lot to me and I tried to do everything right.
I am the only kid who got any college degree, let alone two.
I know that my best years are still yet to come and once I am settled in a place I can move onward and put the ugly past behind me. That is what I need and crave is closure.

Does anyone know a social worker in Orange County who can pull some strings for me and get me the benefits and help me live to the fullest of my ability?

Any information would be beneficial here and it is all appreciated.

If you read to the end of this sentence, you are better more precious to me than gold-but are like platinum because you care about what I write and you care about allowing the lady who writes the words you read to live the best life she is able within her abilities.

That is really all you can do in life.
All I want for Christmas is the hope of a nice place to live and know I can build my future and to know I can see my mother Ramona any time I want for as long as I live. She is the only living family member that is worth anything and without her, I wouldn’t be the person I am with the talents I possess reaching out to the people I do.

For my mother to see-Ramona Lea Le Pore

Thanks Mom. I PICTURE YOU AND THINK OF YOU OFTEN AND THERE ISN’T A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT I DON’T PRAY YOU ARE ALRIGHT AND THAT YOU THRIVE IN SPITE OF THE HATRED MY SISTER BRENDA SPEWS MY WAY BY NOT LETTING YOU KNOW I CALLED or GIVING YOU THE PHONE.

We are close and will always remain close and nobody will ever stop that. I will always keep my word and make you proud and the philosophy you gave me about “putting my mind to do anything I wanted has paid off”. People read what I write all over the world now on 9 web sites and I constantly mentor young kids I run into. It is all because of you mom and your kind and gentle spirit.

I got you something for Christmas-here and you will love it. I will make it to see you and sorry I couldn’t see you for Thanksgiving, but that was due to Bunker who erases every call I put in. He is a walking ball of hatred and a horrible human being who I hope realizes the damage he did to you and I and pays for it the rest of this life-if even in his conscious.

Mom and I at The Bella Terra Mall when I dressed her up and took her all around to meet the many people I know there-business people etc. Mom has a magic about her. I saw people smile that day at Whole Foods Market who never smiled in their life. When we went to dinner, Starbucks- I remember it like yesterday and mom's memory is way better than people give her credit for. I want to have more times like it.

Mom and I at The Bella Terra Mall when I dressed her up and took her all around to meet the many people I know there-business people etc. Mom has a magic about her. I saw people smile that day at Whole Foods Market who never smiled in their life. When we went to dinner, Starbucks- I remember it like yesterday and mom’s memory is way better than people give her credit for. I want to have more times like it.

“You have been on my mind and in my heart all year long. I couldn’t see you or talk to you because I was struggling in some of the most dangerous cities nearly on the street at times. Just like the Kelly Clarkson song “What doesn’t kill ya makes you stronger”, well it did and I went through the ring of fire looking back on the rubble behind me. I was strong to begin with though.”

I have friends who are going to help me get to Marino Valley where you live and even though Bunker and Brenda ban all the calls that come through and pretend I don’t exist-I do and have never forgotten about you one bit. It has been one year since I have seen or talked to my mom-and I used to see her 3 times a day, making meals for her-because I could and I wanted to.

Paulette Le Pore Motzko
3:40 a.m.

I require 8 or more hours sleep and need a private room I can take care of myself in-my medicine that keeps me alive and writing this.

Also, if any of you know any political figures I can contact-let me know or anyone who would change my situation if they only knew. I call people like that Change Catalysts. I am one of those and am hoping I can find one for me now.

Paulette Le Pore Motzko

December 8th, 2013

2:48 a.m.

Paulette_Motzko@yahoo.com
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Unexpected Pleasures in the Middle of Late Afternoon

May 17th 2013

Unexpected Pleasures in the Middle of Late Afternoon…

I thought I was going to do work today at one of my favorite shopping, eating, networking and writing places-The Whole Foods Market at Bella Terra. I walked through the door and heard some jazz music playing and I knew it wasn’t played over the speakers but was coming from the far corner by a wonderful jazz vocalist Maria Schafer and a jazz bassist, drummer and electric guitar…..I realized that this was one of the those days where there would be a major change in plans. I knew I needed some JOY in my LIFE and told a friend I hadn’t don’t anything enjoyable in a month. I think this is what the doctor ordered…..just allowing a little time for some jazzy syncopation and seeing the expressions on people’s faces as they walk through the door.

It is wonderful to do what you love for a living. That is what they do with every song they sing. When I walked up and talked to them to ask what the name of their band was, I said they should turn her voice up.

What have you done lately that gave you joy?

What happened to you that made you want to immediately change your plans and know your plan change was the better choice?

I was on the phone with attorneys all day-or so it felt like it, trying to put the pressure on The John Stewart Company to give me the one bedroom place they promised me months ago, providing I clean up my credit which I did a month ago. Meanwhile I have been building hotel bills and storage costs and that was not the intent.

I know that with what I did today justice will be served and I will get my place and The John Stewart Company will realize that they should finish what they begin and that FRAUD is a serious crime.

I looked in the corner and saw a friend of mine named Peter in the corner with a smile as big as mine, who is a piano teacher. I met him I think when the Grammy awards were on here and we were both eating sitting next to each other.

That is the cool thing about this place, because interesting, intelligent and kind people come here. Does that mean that I am those things then? I guess so.

It is a few minutes till 7 p.m. on Friday night May 17th, 2013

I would love to go out with a nice guy and continue going out with a nice guy and repeat until infinitum, but instead a goofball I met the other day left a voicemail on my phone accusing me of something I never did. Why on earth Lord do you allow me to meet weirdoes with psycho issues? Do me a favor and allow me to not hear from him again. He changes personalities like he changes his underwear.

Due to the things I have had happen to me this last year I am starting to have trust issues. My Toshiba Dual Processor laptop was stolen yesterday afternoon at a Del Taco I was at in Stanton. It was there one moment next to me and I had to bring the rest of my suitcases in the place, since I have been living out of hotels since before April 1st of this year due to being evicted by my brother in law and sister from what was my mom’s huge duplex house in Garden Grove.

The law firm that I hired to fix up my credit took out another $70 out of my checking making me a nice $100 overdrawn now and totally broke. I sit with my fifty nine cent water from Whole Foods Market and there really isn’t much else I can get with the small amount of change I have left. I have two words to describe poverty. It sucks.

I called countless places entitled “transitional living centers” or “transitional living” and I never heard back from the ones that actually took single women and-which is a miracle. Mostly take only women with kids, which go against my civil rights as a woman and human being to have services. I needed money when my ex quit paying me alimony and if I had a kid I could have gotten $800 per child. Something is flawed with our social service system and welfare programs.

It caters to people who have children but give no rewards for those who did things right, but might need temporary financial assistance, as in my case.

I know I am not the only one who thinks it is flawed too. I am not a bigot but the services were created by bigots who give preferential treatment to Latinos. Why else would they ask, are you Latino? What do I get if I answer yes?

The band just arrived back; thank heaven to soothe my shattered nerves. I have no “family” to speak of any more, with exception to my mother who is alive and well but lives with my cruel and hateful sister who screens the calls and won’t give my mother the phone.

I hate to write about things like this, but it is my life now. I know a friend gave me the idea to create visitation rights. I wonder how much that little beauty would cost me?

I hate lawyers because all the ones I have hired, with exception to Mark Murrell from United Credit Enhancement, have lied to me in one form or another. I took a 12 year court case and ended it in two days by simply writing my ex-husband’s new wife. They wrote the check for five thousand dollars more than his attorney was offering, and she said via email, “You are right Paulette. You do deserve five thousand more.” Then they paid what he owed me and nothing more.

I talked to my friend Gina Garcia who works at Oz at The Bella Terra here. It had been ages since I saw or talked to her. Her phone was broken and the only way we communicated was through Facebook or in person. After telling her the whole convoluted story about The Vista Del Rio, what I was promised, which she knew about, and what I got….

My Sun Tran bus accident….and how my sister’s evilness reached its high point when she called my favorite Uncle Lewis in Tucson, AZ and made up lies about me making him say I had 5 days to leave there, after a 13 hour bus ride. Just writing about it makes my blood boil! She has always been jealous of me and never accomplished academically what I did, didn’t work as hard as I did and instead of having a Triple Win Mentality as I do, she has more of a Triple Loss Mentality.

God forbid her to help her little sister, or ask how I am doing? She was the other half of the reason I was “evicted” from my mother’s house without my mother knowing it. They made sure she didn’t know anything which is why they banned all the calls I tried to make to her.

I am writing about this because though I don’t think it is particularly rewarding to write about it; it needs to be written. The truth needs to be said. The whole story why I had my immediate things I rely on to survive in a grocery cart yesterday and why I hung around a Del Taco trying to find a place to go. (It was one of the most humiliating, embarrassing things I ever went through…..)but here I am. Having my computer stolen when I turned my back and brought in my two suitcases is a SAD COMMENTARY on SOCIETY. Where are the people to open a door and help? God knows the slime of the world can seem to always find me!

I know in time I will have a place, a kitchen, a stove and a full fridge and normal life as I once knew it will resume. I am totally sick of coming up with the money for the next day in a crappy hotel. Believe me folks, I tried all the other options. I am hoping my friend Gina can find room at her place somewhere. I can simply pay her something for staying there. She also said she would ask her family if I can put some of my things costing me my vital organs through U-haul in her garage. When the president of U-Haul said he would “give me a storage vault”, I thought that meant just that! Now with that storage vault he gave me I have a $100 bill that goes with it, with the other $200. I will look for a cheaper unit to move it all to. I bet I can find one. I guess if I hadn’t written this I wouldn’t have thought of that!

I have a beautiful rosewood table for sale with a glossy finish like my piano. It comes with 5 chairs for $300 cash. I don’t need it anymore and use the cash a lot more and a smaller storage unit, in other words, LESS STUFF.

It is nearly 8 p.m. now. How does an hour pass so quickly when my hands are flying to the beat of the jazz music band and Maria Schafer.

HB Marathon & Half Marathon Seagull Proudly Sits

Huntington Beach Marathon Seagull Proudly Sits

I took this shot yesterday on one of the clearest days in a long time in Huntington Beach. Everybody was in good spirits with custom his and her bikes on the pier, and this lone gull sat proudly on top of the announcement for the Marathon.

Photos are copy protected.
If The City of Huntington Beach and any other sponsors of the marathon would like to use this shot to market it, just ask me.

Paulette Motzko
TotallyInspiredPC@gmail.com

Valentine’s Day Is Coming Soon

Valentine's Day Is Coming Soon

In southern CA you can tell what time of the year it is by the type of kites that are flying and the whirligig-the things blowing in the photo, people are selling.

I hope by Feb 14th, everybody has someone to be with, including me. My dog might be cute but he doesn’t hold a conversation very well!

Haiku: America’s Child

America’s Child

Haiku by Paulette Le Pore Motzko

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America’s Child

All races and creeds unite

One equal common bond

All being given

The same equal rights

Shelter, food and love

I see too many

Who suffer and have nothing

Urgent need is here

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