Here’s to the dreamers to the poets, to the artists, and to the bloggers like you and I -reading this.
Here’s to the special people that do things no one has ever done before knowing full well when you have to tread new territory.
Above image photographed by Paulette Le Pore Motzko from the original oil painting by Ramona Lea Le Pore Paulette’s mother.
Below image photography and Digital Photo Arts by Paulette Motzko on the night that I had my Samsung Smart TV hooked up on the 1st night. I love Andre Reiu and PBS had a wonderful concert that night. So I started photographing with my high definition camera. This is one of the best. I am all for supporting educating others and exposing the world to culture as PBS does.
Above photo taken of me by my friend Mr. Gonzales shown below.
One of my favorite photos my friend Leonardo Valencia took of me in my tiny, barely-turn-around-studio-apt. I am happy I don’t live in any more!
You have to chart new path no one has ever walked.
Written and compiled by Paulette Motzko.
December 30th 2017 1:39 p.m., 4:34 p.m.
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Below is a photo of me, Paulette Motzko at Weera Thai from last night, December 19th, 2017. I discovered this awesome Thai Restaurant when I went to go get my new glasses and Eyeglass World yesterday afternoon. I also discovered a great new place to get my hair done too and I made some new friends while I was at it. Mary my hairstylist, was also from California was one new friend and a wonderful, sweet handsome engineer was the second and one of my highlights of my year!
I was blessed all the way around and saved $200 on my two pair of progressive bifocals by not going to Sears Optical.
I hope you make the remaining days in 2017 memorable and very special.
Written and photography by Paulette Motzko.
December 20th, 2017
Updated December 21st 2017.
I would have more followers but I hear there’s no “follow me” button. I will be working on enhancing the features on the site to make that possible.
The great news is that my followers are tried-and-true, they are genuine, they are intelligent extraordinary individuals whose talents even defy my own comprehension at times. What I envisioned when I created this site in 2012 has become literal reality that is even superseded what my vision was of the best for the site. Every follower every reader has come back like a magnet attrated for all the right reasons -because I am genuine and as what am I long-standing Facebook friends Maria Lourdes Lipardo told me-“you are so transparent”. At the time she said it I didn’t quite know what that meant. Now years later I call it a high compliment.
The world is full of far too many Yes Men comply or go along with a crowd. I’ve never been that kind of person I always have been an individualist.
Because I was misunderstood as a child, I am the quickest to try and understand others, and another person’s point of view. Matters to me to understand communication is Paramount. Just as I was telling a nice lady at the station casino Grand Cafe earlier last night:
We’re all connected on the planet no matter what race color creed. It really doesn’t matter what our faith is but that we believe in something greater than ourselves we treat others with dignity. We don’t need to be like one another, life would be boring if we were. We can learn from each other’s differences and grow as people.
The sun is coming up here in Las Vegas now when I can see the white flowers on the huge Bush surrounding my picture windows blooming. I live upstairs and like it because I’m the one making the noise and its private and I can have a garden on my balcony and go out there anytime and be in my “desert oasis” I created over time.
As I was looking at my statistics here I noticed the atlas of the world filling in with the readership from Canada and many other countries that never read my blog prior.
Makes me a really feel gratified to know that the many hours that I invest in this site is appealing to all people and has become quite universal.
Thank you for all your contributions and comments app for putting a smile on my face everyday.
May every single person who reads this be blessed.
Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko.
Photography and Digital Photo Arts by Paulette L. Motzko, PLM Studios, Las Vegas, Nevada.
Copyright August 2017.
My Business Plan I purchased on September 9th, 2016 for TotallyInspiredMind is set to auto renew at $299.00 yearly on the same day this year, only if I feel their customer service improves radically and if I feel like I’m a valued part of what makes wordpress.com successful.
They still haven’t told me WHY they needed more money from me-dodging the question, and instead said that if I didn’t update my payment information they would destroy my site! That’s kind of like backing me into a corner like a rat! Of course I don’t want my site destroyed after I worked relentlessly on it, and it’s won Awards, and I now have attracted nearly 3000 followers who have followed my journey from Orange Cpunty, California to Las Vegas, Nevada, and nearly hundred countries tune in monthly.
(Since this post was there. I got an apology from Edward, one of their a”Hppiness Engineers” which I think is a stupid thing to call themselves. ALL THE BLOGGERS ARE INTELLIGENT PEOPLE who are on here are serious, for the most part, about promoting their work. In a correspondence that I wrote yesterday afternoon, to Maureen, the lady that I was supposed to have a chat (texting back and forth to infinitum) -which I did not show up for.
I told her that I am too busy to sit there chatting like a idiot when this warrants a voice-to-voice, real human being, because I deserve a more personal phone call from someone within the corporate offices and wordpress.com.
Now they were wrong admitted it, they still have it resolved the fact that I paid for numerous other domains that I’ve not seen the.com status on my websites.)
I will be looking seriously thinking about moving my sites somewhere else and hiring a local web company to help me move all the web content over to wordpress.org where I can be guaranteed that I don’t have drama like this.
The thing I will miss dramatically though is the ability to reblog other phenomenal writers material.
It’s not so much the reblogging the other people’s material, but the fact that I become friends with almost every person that I share their material- and I get to know them as human beings and that is enormous. so, in my heart of hearts I would like to work it out with them.)
I created Totally Inspired Mind in 2012, and over time have created many other web logs on WordPress.com. Many have won awards and are very highly rated.
You would think, that whatever money WordPress.com made off me and my winning content, I could have got a better response from them-after all these years- than “Update your financial information or will destroy your site!” That shows no diplomacy or resonsibility to me to be a great company looking after my best interests, does it?
What would you do if you were me?
I’m interested in hearing what you would do if you were me.
I welcome your comments and suggestions on this matter to me.
I’d like to think the company I now have a venerable Blogging Empire on -appreciates MY BUSINESS, my presence, and think that my work is so valuable they wouldn’t think of destroying it in a million years!
The CEO and President of WordPress.com should contact me assuring me nothing like it will happen again.
I like him or her to give me an apology and to be sincerely horrified by the responses of three of their stupid “happiness engineers.”
If you’re paying about $300 or more to make a site run I don’t know about you, but I want to do with somebody other than a happiness engineer who in one heartbeat thinks to destroy your brain child that so many woman hours went into I couldn’t begin to count them all.
Would you call someone to happiness engineer if they wanted to destroy your blog?
Maybe a Grief Creator, or a Drama Creator would more aptly named what their “Happiness Engineers” really are in the real world.
It is after all WordPress.com is a business and it runs very simply.
The fact that after I made the decision to host Totally Inspired Mind here in 2012 I pay them for specific services and for doing that, I expect a level of professionalism and quality control to insure all THE WORK I INVEST in each Web site are protected.
I want the company who has a vested interest in what I build and create and works with me to PROMOTE and insure and improve it, if anything.
The last thing I thought I’d ever hear if some idiot say they wanted to destroy it though when I paid for the VIP plan and the FAULT WAS THEIRS that they admitted in an email to me.
And what would have happened to me if they didn’t realize that they goofed?
And if I hadn’t pointed it out so very very carefully?
I don’t like other people make decisions so quickly the could adversely affect me. That’s a major character flaw in the company which I will see you to never ever happens to me again.
I thought it would feel different about it but I’m down life’s pretty simple: you don’t like what you’re getting from one you go to another person you go to another company where they do respect you.
Every blogger is Golden and their contant is prized. After all, all the top-rated blogs on wordpress.com make WordPress exist. Without the bloggers WordPress is just dust. Remember that. It’s like with a good restaurant you can have the best food in the world, the best silverware the best prettiest pictures on the wall but if you treat people like garbage you have no people there -without people you have no restaurant.
Even though I heard from the customer service person named Eduardo who apologized for what they did and said I was 100% right and said that they were wrong and said it was blame to a computer glitch that they’re resolving, it still bothers me because they were so quick to destroy my site over a mistake they made when I worked on this is 2012 and that is Unforgivable.
The fact that they have stupid people who work for them would make such an idiotic decision or even say it or suggest it is repulsive. They’re supposed to help me promote it not destroy it common the fact that they goofed and made a mistake like that admit it or not, they don’t treat their valued customers the way they should. Is Albert Einstein said “when you repeat the same mistake over and over again it is called Insanity.”
Period I’m a nice lady but I’m not an idiot and business works very simply I pay them lots of money to make all my sites work and in one second a customer service three people didn’t answer my questions, and some idiot who didn’t invest one time in any of the things I’ve created nor know the amount of work that goes into creating it nor does he care was willing to destroy it and one second! Not cool. Not good business practice the better business bureau if I would tell them this whole story they would agree with me and I think any view bloggers out there the millions who sign up to wordpress.com would agree with me. You’ve seen the site from the day I created it and hotel room and Huntington Beach California when I realized I couldn’t take care of my mother any longer who had severe Alzheimer’s disease and I know that she needed and entire staff caring after her versus me, and I needed to not do it any longer and take care of me. Those realizations opened up a world for me and what I wanted to see what this site is exactly what it’s become. This is become a place where extraordinary people who care about the world, the environment, the future, children and everything that matters in life all congregate people people who care more about the entire world and themselves. Every extraordinary follower who is joined this site over the last month what you been over I believe 50, I thank you for your very special presence here. You make the site great and you make it very very special by you being here.
Obviously the people who run WordPress.com are not Triple Winners. They don‘t care about me, or my original web that gave them permission to share all over the place when I signed up to WordPress.com.
It’s too bad that WordPress.com doesn‘t get the big picture and realize that people like me- and you-my dedicates readers and followers matter.
Without the writers and without photographers and without loggers WordPress goes bankrupt.
It’s too bad WordPress doesn’t see it as plainly as I are you do. Obviously money is the only thing on their minds and they don’t care what they do to my content everybody with it.
know that and don’t see that and don’t treat people who are VIPs with respect.
Wordpress hasnt shown they as a company appreciate my business and since this is a big wide world I will be working on taking their business elsewhere.
I wasnt able to find anyone to answer me with an intelligent answer to my intelligent question when I’ve asked them on numerous times why they wanted more money when my billing date is nowhere near due.
When after 5 years contributing original content here, the only thing I hear is “update your financial information or will destroy your site”?
That’s not cool. As matter fact it’s not even professional.
I’ve saved every email, every bit of Correspondence on Evernote from WordPress.com. I have everything dated from every “customer service person” and “happiness expert”- and I‘m not happy who has contacted me with this company. Even with them admitting they screwed up and Eduardo with WordPress.com admitted they had no right to ask for continually more moolah….and they are still adressing why all the domains I bought don’t reflect .com on them.
Their stupidity and rash bad decisions almost cost me every bit of work I spent on here, turning 5 years of labor intensive efforts into dust. It is that and ignorable fact that i’s going to have me move it elsewhere. The site will exist it’s just going to be better than one of these here with no limits and no fear tactics to get unauthorized payments from me.
I’m flabbergasted because I would have thought that WordPress.com would have realized how they can’t exist without all of the writers, bloggers and everyone who makes this site possible. I wouldn’t have created a venerable Empire here if I had thought any different. I guess having hundred countries a month reading your blog isn’t good enough for him though huh. They didn’t create any of my site’s they are so quick to yet they are so quick to think of destroying them?
This is definitely not a good working creative environment.
Anybody have any comments, suggestions, did anyone learn anything by me airing the story?
Hopefully, if you paid for the Business or Premium plans like I did, and you didn’t get what you bought, you’ll address it and get what you should have all along.
Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko on Monday March 27th 2017 at 1:22 p.m.
Updated March 28th, 2017
Updated on March 31st 2017 at 1:40 p.m.
Image of Paulette Motzko taken by her beautiful friend Yanita. Photo editing by Paulette Motzko, PLM Studios, Las Vegas Nevada.
Quotes about Purpose
Written and Compiled by Paulette Le Pore Motzko.
All images photographed and created by Paulette Le Pore Motzko, PLM Studios Copyright March 2017
March 22nd 2017
• As far as we can discern, the whole purpose of human existence is the Kindle a light in the darkness of my being. –
Carl G Jung 1875 – 1961. Memories, Dreams, Reflections.
• Men’s Perfection would be the Fulfillment of his end, and his end would be Union with his maker. William James 1842 to 1910.
• A good cause makes a stout heart and a strong arm. – Thomas Fuller 1654 – 1734.
• The purpose of life is undoubtedly to know oneself. We cannot do it unless we learn to identify ourselves with all that lives. The sum total of that life is God. Hence the necessity of realizing God living within every one of us. The instrument of this knowledge is boundless, selfless service. – Mohandas K Gandhi. In Mahedev Desai, the Diary of Mahedev 1958
• Everything living strives for wholeness.- Carl G Jung 1875 – 1961 from on the nature of Dreams 1945
• Making a chief design and a great business, not to be rich and great but several live in this world as thou mayst reasonably believe that has got with a friend. Thomas Fuller 1654 to 1734. Intraductio ad Prudentum, 939, 1731
• Pursue some path, however narrow and crooked, and which you can walk with love and reverence. Henry David Thoreau. 1817 to 1862. From his journal October 18th 1855.
• Not only to see and find the Divine in oneself, but to see and find the Divine in all, not only to seek one’s own individual Liberation and Perfection, but to seek Liberation and Perfection of others is the complete law of the spiritual being. – Sri Arubendi 1872 – 1950.
This article was inspired by one of my recent followers, who went through a very tragic and tumultuous year. Because of this it stopped this once prolific writer from producing anything at all.
Sometimes we can be over critical on ourselves, overanalyzing everything that we do. That quality doesn’t help us when we create anything of value in this world, written or otherwise. Create because you want to create. Whether it be be a mud pie, a sandcastle, a watercolor painting, a photograph, a beautiful song, a recipe, a loaf of bread, or the manuscript for your first book.
Wallpaper Image from Zedge.com.
Writing can be catharsis or it can be euphoria. You can carve every word just as though you were Michelangelo and you were carving marble transforming something hard and solid into something that breathes with life.
That’s the analogy I like best when it comes to writing, and it has served me well since my Honors English days in High School. I took every English class that Garden Grove High had to offer I had phenomenal teachers, better than even in college.
And one thing I did in every writing class is writing is to write in my personal Journal -and just write every day.
In other words, write things that the world never see.
There are things that are only for you, God, and serve a very valid purpose. If you don’t have a journal, go buy a nice one at Barnes & Noble, or simply use Microsoft Office Word on your smartphone computer or tablet.
Through devoting time to writing in a special place that inspires you, which is very important, extraordinary things will emerge. Stories can develop right before your eyes, poems can be written, recipes can be thought of.
With everything you write anywhere, especially on a Blog that seen all over the world – you’re gaining experience, exposure, notoriety, readership and it’s just enjoyable. The enjoyable part is the most important one of all.
Once you start carving out time for writing, you’ll start carving words that are memorable and lasting and worth remembering.
If you are a writer, check out my other blog called A Writer’s Joy. A Writer’s Joy
Any kind of art, written or otherwise, is an extension of your soul. Art I’d an extension of your inner most being. Writing is one of those timeless arts, that if used in the right way, can outlive you do great things long after you leave this earth, creating a legacy.
Write because you feel what you’re doing is beautiful and has merit, or serves a valid purpose, or can simply give joy, enlightenment someone, educate or you’d simply like to share it with the world. That’s exactly what you can do on a blog.
I’m going to be adding to this book list over the next week. I’m going to start with these two, which in themselves are phenomenal starting points, even if no other books were added to the list.
I hope my words of encouragement and blessings on all of your present and future creations extraordinary Beyond Your Wildest Dreams! To all of the artists, writers, photographers, musicians, and chefs create what’s never been created before. Enjoy the process. Learn everything you can about your craft. Read books, and associate with people who are doing what you want to do and let them enter you in every way they possibly can. Listen to advice and listen to helpful criticism but don’t let others dim the light that shines inside you that’s waiting to burst like a beacon to the world.
Image created by Paulette Motzko, Copyright October 2016.
Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
Copyright, January 2017.
- The Writer’s idea book by Jack Heffron. How to develop great ideas for fiction, nonfiction, poetry and screenplays. Includes more than 800 prompts. I have the 10th anniversary edition. Copyright 2011.
- The Writers Devotional: 365 Inspirational Exercises, Ideas, Tips and Motivations on Writing. by Amy Peters.
A copy of my Christmas card this year old had photographed by Nicole, one if the talented photographers at The J.C. Penny Photography Studios.
I took a photo of my Christmas carday and added text with a photo editor, transforming it into a Christmas card I can send the world!
Some of my home bake shop for the holidays ….
Wherever your friends and family are…wish them live and joy and remember what the holiday really is all about ……
The best gifts don’t come from under a tree but are in the hearts and souls of loving friends and family far and near and friends who are family by definition .
Bake or make something very special for a few people in your life…
Include the recipes and watch what happens . ..
Have a Christmas Tea
Enjoy a Christmas Picnic outdoors go somewhere so you can hear birds chirping in enjoying nature and great company and fantastic company. A beautiful and scenic place relatively close to you does sets the scene-and bring a nice pic-nic basket withave dishes, silverware and plates and watch the experiences that await you!
For 2017 I want more quality and create great times with all the people who matter most to me…..and to enjoy what I already own more.
Thank you to the over 70 new followers this month on TotallyInspiredMind.com.
You continually enrich my life.
Paulette Le Pore Motzko
All photos of PauletteMotzko by Leonardo Valencia, Valencia Motzko Inc, Copyright December 2016
December 13, 2016
I love this song and the video shows how you can triumph over adversity and you are the same no matter what. Also, it shows love can triumph over any set of circumstances.
Awesome job #Jason Mraz!
From one southern Californian to another who loves the palm tree studded Pacific Coast Highway.
The beautiful Huntington Beach Pier in Surf City, CA.
Written & Compiled Paulette L Motzko
Images by Paulette Motzko,
Copyright October 2016
October 19th 2016 11:36 a.m.
TRAVELING – http://wp.me/p3RbwI-vj
All you will have to do is type that in your browser and the site will reroute from the old WordPress.com free plan to the best, most extraordinary Business plan they offer, offering me options that were never avaliable to me (and therefore you all my dedicated followers and fans who tune in faithfully each day and night.
Paulette Le Pore Motzko
October 10th, 2016
This all began with me sharing a beautiful Chinese Proverb late in the day and having Jennie Fitzkee, who is a teacher, writer and blogger and wonderful human being comment on how wonderful it was can I share the proverb. See it said that through me I made the proverb brand new again.
And I told her that I had never heard it before so for me it was brand new.
From there I tried to put into words what inspiration is to me. And, for the first time I was able to actually define it in a way that accurately fits what I envision it to be.
I asked Jennie to email exactly what I wrote in my reply to her, and she did. Somehow when I replied to her on the WordPress Web platform, my response was completely not visible to me, and they always are.
“Jennie, I had never heard it so for me it was sparkling brand new. It is just so gratifying when I share something I know is meaningful here. I have a photographic memory and am a visionary kind of person. I picture me gently holding a monarch butterfly in my hand and seeing the beauty of it all…then letting it go free to shine it’s beautiful splendor on the world. The audience of Totally Inspired Mind are like flowers in a garden, each unique in their own way, none more pretty than the next.
When I get an idea I think is along the lines of good or great or empowering, the idea transforms into that “butterfly” that I briefly hold in my hands, admiring it, only to let it go free in hopes it will touch other’s lives to spread joy to them too.
Jennie inspired me to write that, what I called on a new Board on Pinterest I created today called “Divine Inspiration”….
People can be a catalyst for incredible ideas and collaboration that would never have been had the two people met. I would have never believed that when I got the idea for Totally Inspired Mind: Where Positive Minds Congregate from a hotel room Huntington Beach after I realized I could no longer take care of my mother who had very acute Alzheimer’s disease. Mom required a 24 hour staff instead of me. And the most liberating thing was realizing that and being blatantly honest with those realities.
I began focusing on only myself and putting myself number one, which was strange at first. I was giving everything I possessed as a human being with nothing coming back my way, and I had to quit before the flame was extinguished. The flame bein me.
Too many caregivers give so much of themselves there remains only a whisp of who they originally were before, with almost nothing left for themselves. That is all too common in the world.
I had the idea for this site but just never had a free moment to be able to think or concentrate on anything for longer than 5 minutes. I am not complaing, those were just the realities of helping my dear mother Ramona, now in heaven–I am glad I was there for here because she needed me, and this time’s with her are precious memories that will play back for all time with a smile on my face.
I wouldn’t ever have believed what began as my brain child where I could envision the greatest, most kind, big picture thinking people all getting together….and meeting one another….around a table set around the world.
It transformed from my vision to a website to immediate skyrocket of passionate, Triple Winning people who instantly embraced my idea and loved it.
The amount of effort that I’ve expended into it has comeback a thousandfold. It transformed from a caterpillar of an idea and through a kind of time-lapse metamorphosis, became a living, breathing wonderful entity. ….a very human thing because it is composed of imput and comments from all if you-my fabulous readers!
Image from Pinterest, author unknown
Photographed by Montrelle Edwards
Photo Editing by Paulette Motzko
Copyright October 2016
Image of Paulette Motzko taken by Paulette Motzko
Thank you for continually inspiring me and adding so much richness to my life.
You all are extraordinary, and very empowering, people.
“Jennie, I had never heard it so for me it was sparkling brand new. It is just so gratifying when I share something I know is meaningful here. I have a photographic memory and am a visionary kind of person. I picture me gently holding a monarch butterfly in my hand and seeing the beauty of it all…then letting it go free to shine it’s beautiful splendor on the world. The audience of Totally Inspired Mind are like flowers in a garden, each unique in their own way, none more pretty than the next. When I get an idea I think is along the lines of good or great or empowering it the idea transforms into that butterfly that I briefly hold in my hands, admiring it, only to let it go free in hopes it will touch other’s lives to spread joy to them too. I have never been able to write that before Jennie. You inspire me. God bless you.”
Your exact words, Paulette. Please let me know you got this email.
Images found on Pinterest and I could not find the names of the photographers anywhere.
Above image created by Paulette Motzko, Copyright September 2016
Photograph of Paulette Motzko taken by my manager friend who works at Blueberry Hill- when I first moved to Las Vegas. The background image was photographed by me in Vista, CA as I was walking down the street to go to the Vista Library and I loved the shapes of the leaves on the trees there. Vista in San Diego County is totally different than Orange County in that it is more hilly and has more types of lush green foliage.
The images were united last night with a sophisticated blending and blurting app I installed yesterday.
So, in that photo three different times were involved and would different geographic locations.
Get out your camera and immortalize them.
A great photograph says the world without ever uttering a word.
It is a silent, visual communicator.
Fall in Las Vegas, NV reminds me of just about every day in beautiful southern California with it’s cool Pacific Ocean breezes.
I would much rather wear a jacket and be cool than sweat or bake like a human cookie in 115 degree heat.
One beautiful fall day I was able to see what Autumn looks like a New England in Vermont. I’ll never forget it because I was going on a business trip with no EX yes she really is a rocket scientist with bowling working on the Delta rocket. Later their marriage, because he traveled so much, I was able to go on a few trips with them and the hotel we stayed at was very strategically pickrf yo be by shopping and restaurants all walking distance-because I dont drive. I’m my mind”s eye, and I do have very vivid memory, so I will paint the picture of what I saw on that serene afternoon in Vermont:
I was so fascinated with the fact that the towns were so quaint and Charming but nothing like the big city in Southern California that I was used to. All the properties had you Jones and green like as if you painted them or drew them with the kids Crayola crayon set in green. It it just rained and you could see a white Chapel, just like out of Currier and Ives that was so pristine and quaint and Charming maybe want to go inside look around. Hit my ex been a Christian guy and said agnostic we probably would have done just that. But the memories I have of Vermont in the autumn are so wonderful.
I wasn’t a published writer then and not one of my blogs had been created yet. This was 1990. I want to go back either to Vermont in the Autumn in the future when the leaves are Ablaze with the colors of red, rest, dark green and the foliage comes in about every size and shape you can imagine.
When you grew up in the big city with nothing but towering palm trees that rise to the sky and beautiful blue expanses beaches and ocean- up and down the Pacific coast…. places like Vermont are refreshing, not so much even for the scenic countryside, but for the great and totally genuine people I met while passing through.
People in small towns have more time and more patient and it’s like going back in time to a simpler, gentler time when people stayed off smartphones- because they didn’t exist and made eye contact more and people were the most important thing.
There’s so many wonderful places but I want to go in the United States but I’ve seen just mere vignettes or samplers of what I know is to come.
Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
The first time I was nominated for The Most Versatile Blogger Award was on October 31st, of this year 2013 and was just nominated again yesterday by another fellow blogger that goes by amintiridinbucatarie at amintiridinbucatarie.wordpress.com.
Thank you again to my fellow readers and bloggers.
I answered all the many questions about myself and nominated my choices for which blogs I felt worthy of the same award.
I still have to accept and nominate for The Most Influential Blogger Award, and I forget who nominated me! Sorry folks, but I have been really busy leading the most tumultuous part in my life in history. That award means the most to me because it means that my words meant something to a lot of people and not only got them thinking but acting in new ways.
All of these awards and the 73 countries who have been reading this site on a monthly basis-didn’t know these things were going on, but they are. The readership doubled on this site in the last two months. It makes me elated that I managed to do it all.
I met a nice lady who was a nurse with her two children at Arby’s this week. We had so much in common and she said two words to me- very simply said “Stay Sweet”. I am so happy that people still perceive me to be “sweet’. I didn’t let all the apathy and callousness regarding my mother and I jade me and I will always think that most people are inherently good-if you are good to them.
It is eight months to date since I was callously evicted from my mother’s place (that I chose to live in 13 years ago helping my parents pay their house payment while I had a place to live in the massive duplex they owned in Garden Grove, CA. That ended in April 2013 when my brother-in-law Mike Bunker-made power of attorney by my dad-which was a royal mistake-and my mother-evicted me. I have been in and out of two star hotels, trying to afford expensive southern CA rent, which is impossible with no room mate.
I am eligible for HUD housing but women with kids get priority and I am treated as though I am not alive. (I am not done fighting on this matter to change this fact. I wish I didn’t have to be the only one fighting, since it affects more than myself.)
Of course I am alive and searching day by day to find a family to live with and cook for the family in exchange for a nice, clean safe non-smoking environment I can live in and relax and take care of myself. It will be easy to get ahead when I don’t feel like I have a shot gun to my head rushing around or else I will be out on the street when the money runs out for the hotel I am writing this from!
It is a hell of a way to live and if you would have told me that I would be doing this, when my family once had morals, values and stuck together, I would have never believed you. I am in charge of me-and that is it. That is what I learned out of all this. I am not sure why I have to go through so much and endure so many tragic things in my life, but I will be glad when I have a place to call home. I am working to make more and more money but it is going out the door as fast as I get it.
I have been looking on Craig’s List for Orange County but everybody in CA is greedy and wants $800 to rent a lousy bedroom. In New Mexico you can get a two bedroom two bathroom place for $700 with full amenities! about less than half of what it takes here in Expensive-Ville.
I met a really nice lady today and helped her grand daughter who has ALS find resources and will be posting the story about her and the way to help the family pay for all the medical care for her. I met her at Staples where I do work all the time and noticed her having printed signs with a pretty little girl on them and wanted to know more. The story about her will air as soon as I can get a photo of her. I also emailed the director of ALSA, an association that helps people with ALS and found a clinic for her and her family. All these things are possible because I could and I simply did. I wish more people had that kind of attitude.
My nanny used to say, “What goes around comes around”, and I hope that some of the great things I did in my life, that I never got paid for or recognition for, come back my way and someone helps me now.
Whatever God you pray to, Christian, Native American Indian, Jewish or Buddhist-pray that I find a place to stay soon and better yet, if you know someone who either has a room I can stay in-in exchange for helping with cooking and housework and helping with the kids-let me know.
If you know a person who has been looking for someone who is stable mentally and financially-and who is a good cook and has a good sense of humor and a positive attitude, let me know. I want to sign a year or better yet more-lease. 3 vaults of my life that I pay on each month have been in storage since April and I would rather sit at my desk again in my office chair, cook in my gourmet kitchen and read the many books in my library. Make it so God and let this struggle end
Christmas is only weeks away and here I am watching cable TV-first I have seen of it in months, in a hotel I call home with no kitchen but a microwave, fridge, freezer in safe area. It is $70 a day that could go towards a month in a room in a house.There are cheaper two star hotels that are highly unsafe and dangerous and I have stayed in them but my blood pressure was elevated and I never got any sleep and when I heard a guy beating up a woman in the room next to me, I swore to God I would do everything humanly possible to find the best deal and find a way to pay the higher price in better hotels.
I didn’t know when I wrote about The Most Versatile Blogger Award this would come out but it did. Probably for the best.
I know I am special because have been going through all this without mentioning it to the world. I do know in one heart beat I help others and get such a great joy and high out of it.
Imagine what kind of things I could write and do if only I had one stable nice place to live with no worry?
The possibilities are endless!
Paulette Le Pore Motzko
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I wasn’t born to live in a hotel and need a home to live in because I am disabled with epilepsy. I also am too nice and too kind to have the guy I was living with hit me, but he did…which is what brought me to this hotel.
I have just kept myself absorbed in my work, in what matters and relentlessly contacting congress people and talking face to face with every friend I know on Facebook and elsewhere-and realizing that people, when you go through hell-with totally flaberghast you!
One friend, that I thought was a friend at least-heard about me in the hotel, the guy hitting me etc., things that would have at least got an “Are You OK?” …or something showing that you have a heart and soul and a pulse-got nothing. Just talk of sugar cookies and setting her opulent table with gold baubles on hanging everywhere. I am not jealous because I have all that “stuff” in storage waiting to come out and be united with me.
I call myself DISPLACED AND NOT REALLY HOMELESS. I CAN PAY $500 TOWARDS RENT COME JANUARY FOR ANONE WHO LIVES IN ORANGE COUNTY AND I CAN FURNISH THE PLACE FOR A CLEAN, MATURE, SENSIBLE PERSON WHO IS STABLE MENTALLY AND FINANCIALLY-WHO DRIVES AND DOESN’T SMOKE.
Since I am in a position where I have the whole world, or at least 73 countries reading what I write on a monthly basis, I am using this podium to get ACTION-for me.
My future means a lot to me and I tried to do everything right.
I am the only kid who got any college degree, let alone two.
I know that my best years are still yet to come and once I am settled in a place I can move onward and put the ugly past behind me. That is what I need and crave is closure.
Does anyone know a social worker in Orange County who can pull some strings for me and get me the benefits and help me live to the fullest of my ability?
Any information would be beneficial here and it is all appreciated.
If you read to the end of this sentence, you are better more precious to me than gold-but are like platinum because you care about what I write and you care about allowing the lady who writes the words you read to live the best life she is able within her abilities.
That is really all you can do in life.
All I want for Christmas is the hope of a nice place to live and know I can build my future and to know I can see my mother Ramona any time I want for as long as I live. She is the only living family member that is worth anything and without her, I wouldn’t be the person I am with the talents I possess reaching out to the people I do.
For my mother to see-Ramona Lea Le Pore
Thanks Mom. I PICTURE YOU AND THINK OF YOU OFTEN AND THERE ISN’T A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT I DON’T PRAY YOU ARE ALRIGHT AND THAT YOU THRIVE IN SPITE OF THE HATRED MY SISTER BRENDA SPEWS MY WAY BY NOT LETTING YOU KNOW I CALLED or GIVING YOU THE PHONE.
We are close and will always remain close and nobody will ever stop that. I will always keep my word and make you proud and the philosophy you gave me about “putting my mind to do anything I wanted has paid off”. People read what I write all over the world now on 9 web sites and I constantly mentor young kids I run into. It is all because of you mom and your kind and gentle spirit.
I got you something for Christmas-here and you will love it. I will make it to see you and sorry I couldn’t see you for Thanksgiving, but that was due to Bunker who erases every call I put in. He is a walking ball of hatred and a horrible human being who I hope realizes the damage he did to you and I and pays for it the rest of this life-if even in his conscious.
“You have been on my mind and in my heart all year long. I couldn’t see you or talk to you because I was struggling in some of the most dangerous cities nearly on the street at times. Just like the Kelly Clarkson song “What doesn’t kill ya makes you stronger”, well it did and I went through the ring of fire looking back on the rubble behind me. I was strong to begin with though.”
I have friends who are going to help me get to Marino Valley where you live and even though Bunker and Brenda ban all the calls that come through and pretend I don’t exist-I do and have never forgotten about you one bit. It has been one year since I have seen or talked to my mom-and I used to see her 3 times a day, making meals for her-because I could and I wanted to.
Paulette Le Pore Motzko
I require 8 or more hours sleep and need a private room I can take care of myself in-my medicine that keeps me alive and writing this.
Also, if any of you know any political figures I can contact-let me know or anyone who would change my situation if they only knew. I call people like that Change Catalysts. I am one of those and am hoping I can find one for me now.
Paulette Le Pore Motzko
December 8th, 2013
May 17th 2013
Unexpected Pleasures in the Middle of Late Afternoon…
I thought I was going to do work today at one of my favorite shopping, eating, networking and writing places-The Whole Foods Market at Bella Terra. I walked through the door and heard some jazz music playing and I knew it wasn’t played over the speakers but was coming from the far corner by a wonderful jazz vocalist Maria Schafer and a jazz bassist, drummer and electric guitar…..I realized that this was one of the those days where there would be a major change in plans. I knew I needed some JOY in my LIFE and told a friend I hadn’t don’t anything enjoyable in a month. I think this is what the doctor ordered…..just allowing a little time for some jazzy syncopation and seeing the expressions on people’s faces as they walk through the door.
It is wonderful to do what you love for a living. That is what they do with every song they sing. When I walked up and talked to them to ask what the name of their band was, I said they should turn her voice up.
What have you done lately that gave you joy?
What happened to you that made you want to immediately change your plans and know your plan change was the better choice?
I was on the phone with attorneys all day-or so it felt like it, trying to put the pressure on The John Stewart Company to give me the one bedroom place they promised me months ago, providing I clean up my credit which I did a month ago. Meanwhile I have been building hotel bills and storage costs and that was not the intent.
I know that with what I did today justice will be served and I will get my place and The John Stewart Company will realize that they should finish what they begin and that FRAUD is a serious crime.
I looked in the corner and saw a friend of mine named Peter in the corner with a smile as big as mine, who is a piano teacher. I met him I think when the Grammy awards were on here and we were both eating sitting next to each other.
That is the cool thing about this place, because interesting, intelligent and kind people come here. Does that mean that I am those things then? I guess so.
It is a few minutes till 7 p.m. on Friday night May 17th, 2013
I would love to go out with a nice guy and continue going out with a nice guy and repeat until infinitum, but instead a goofball I met the other day left a voicemail on my phone accusing me of something I never did. Why on earth Lord do you allow me to meet weirdoes with psycho issues? Do me a favor and allow me to not hear from him again. He changes personalities like he changes his underwear.
Due to the things I have had happen to me this last year I am starting to have trust issues. My Toshiba Dual Processor laptop was stolen yesterday afternoon at a Del Taco I was at in Stanton. It was there one moment next to me and I had to bring the rest of my suitcases in the place, since I have been living out of hotels since before April 1st of this year due to being evicted by my brother in law and sister from what was my mom’s huge duplex house in Garden Grove.
The law firm that I hired to fix up my credit took out another $70 out of my checking making me a nice $100 overdrawn now and totally broke. I sit with my fifty nine cent water from Whole Foods Market and there really isn’t much else I can get with the small amount of change I have left. I have two words to describe poverty. It sucks.
I called countless places entitled “transitional living centers” or “transitional living” and I never heard back from the ones that actually took single women and-which is a miracle. Mostly take only women with kids, which go against my civil rights as a woman and human being to have services. I needed money when my ex quit paying me alimony and if I had a kid I could have gotten $800 per child. Something is flawed with our social service system and welfare programs.
It caters to people who have children but give no rewards for those who did things right, but might need temporary financial assistance, as in my case.
I know I am not the only one who thinks it is flawed too. I am not a bigot but the services were created by bigots who give preferential treatment to Latinos. Why else would they ask, are you Latino? What do I get if I answer yes?
The band just arrived back; thank heaven to soothe my shattered nerves. I have no “family” to speak of any more, with exception to my mother who is alive and well but lives with my cruel and hateful sister who screens the calls and won’t give my mother the phone.
I hate to write about things like this, but it is my life now. I know a friend gave me the idea to create visitation rights. I wonder how much that little beauty would cost me?
I hate lawyers because all the ones I have hired, with exception to Mark Murrell from United Credit Enhancement, have lied to me in one form or another. I took a 12 year court case and ended it in two days by simply writing my ex-husband’s new wife. They wrote the check for five thousand dollars more than his attorney was offering, and she said via email, “You are right Paulette. You do deserve five thousand more.” Then they paid what he owed me and nothing more.
I talked to my friend Gina Garcia who works at Oz at The Bella Terra here. It had been ages since I saw or talked to her. Her phone was broken and the only way we communicated was through Facebook or in person. After telling her the whole convoluted story about The Vista Del Rio, what I was promised, which she knew about, and what I got….
My Sun Tran bus accident….and how my sister’s evilness reached its high point when she called my favorite Uncle Lewis in Tucson, AZ and made up lies about me making him say I had 5 days to leave there, after a 13 hour bus ride. Just writing about it makes my blood boil! She has always been jealous of me and never accomplished academically what I did, didn’t work as hard as I did and instead of having a Triple Win Mentality as I do, she has more of a Triple Loss Mentality.
God forbid her to help her little sister, or ask how I am doing? She was the other half of the reason I was “evicted” from my mother’s house without my mother knowing it. They made sure she didn’t know anything which is why they banned all the calls I tried to make to her.
I am writing about this because though I don’t think it is particularly rewarding to write about it; it needs to be written. The truth needs to be said. The whole story why I had my immediate things I rely on to survive in a grocery cart yesterday and why I hung around a Del Taco trying to find a place to go. (It was one of the most humiliating, embarrassing things I ever went through…..)but here I am. Having my computer stolen when I turned my back and brought in my two suitcases is a SAD COMMENTARY on SOCIETY. Where are the people to open a door and help? God knows the slime of the world can seem to always find me!
I know in time I will have a place, a kitchen, a stove and a full fridge and normal life as I once knew it will resume. I am totally sick of coming up with the money for the next day in a crappy hotel. Believe me folks, I tried all the other options. I am hoping my friend Gina can find room at her place somewhere. I can simply pay her something for staying there. She also said she would ask her family if I can put some of my things costing me my vital organs through U-haul in her garage. When the president of U-Haul said he would “give me a storage vault”, I thought that meant just that! Now with that storage vault he gave me I have a $100 bill that goes with it, with the other $200. I will look for a cheaper unit to move it all to. I bet I can find one. I guess if I hadn’t written this I wouldn’t have thought of that!
I have a beautiful rosewood table for sale with a glossy finish like my piano. It comes with 5 chairs for $300 cash. I don’t need it anymore and use the cash a lot more and a smaller storage unit, in other words, LESS STUFF.
It is nearly 8 p.m. now. How does an hour pass so quickly when my hands are flying to the beat of the jazz music band and Maria Schafer.
Here is a great article from Internet Success Tips on why you should create a blog.
I was having this conversation with my friend Julia just yesterday.
Paulette Le Pore Motzko
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