It’s always summer in my heart.

It’s no matter that I have lived in Las Vegas, NV several years now with the dust blowing around me and the rocks beneath my feet; it will always be summer in my heart and soul.

Me below at the Starbucks in The Stratosphere. The photo was taken a few days ago on the 11th of November. 

I was born in Tucson, Arizona, also the desert Southwest, but for over 40 years of my life. Southern California was my home.

I was old enough to truly appreciate the blue expanse of the Pacific Ocean around me, the palm trees  calm of the beautiful flowers and all of the other  extraordinary scenery  of California.

It is where I went elementary school, Middle School, High School and college graduate School. Where I was married and 15 years later unfortunately divorced. But it’s also where I began discovering who I really was deep inside after being true to my inner voice, as I call my intuition.

I would love to lease a place there and yet keep my place in Vegas. That way, I could enjoy the uniqueness of both and do work with my old clients and discover new ones.

There are no perfect places to live, but ones that can never be forgotten, like the special people who have helped make me who I am.

I hope that what’s coming for me is like my paper whites blooming with twice the blooms they were supposed to have, my goals exceeding my expectations. 

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko

High definition Summer in My Heart image from Zedge.

All other images by Paulette Motzko.

Photo of Paulette Motzko taken by Elvira.

November 14, 2017. 12:45 midnight; updated 2 a.m.

Light House by James Taylor & “A Lighthouse is what I Hope to Be” by Paulette Le Pore Motzko

I am so surprised I have never heard this beautiful song by James Taylor and that it wasn’t played more when it came out years ago, and isn’t played more now. 
His music got me through high school and it’s still getting me by. Between his melodic harmonies,  beautiful guitar playing, and wisdom filled words…he’s still got it and illustrates how you can get better as you get older

Like James Taylor’s beautiful song,

 I  want to be a lighthouse that shine’s a ray of hopeful light out for all to see…

I want it lead the way to safety and more positive and hopeful paths for others.

I have treaded tragic paths so gruesome it would shock most people and I don’t think the average person could have lived and survived through it. I know they wouldn’t have.

Fortunately I wasn’t made average though, and I am always adapting each day, doing the best with what parameters I am given.

I have lived through a literal hell of health problems, striving for better times while making most of the least, while becoming more.

 I had to become strong, industrious and good at research to find the answers to my medical dilemmas and to get answers on how to find my cure to intractable catamenial epilepsy. There is no cure, but with the right medicine, doctor, diet, sleep and winning attitude, I am doing very well. After all, when you have everything to gain from finding the answers, you look harder and relentlessly. 

 When you do find life changing answers to help yourself, you can also help others with it as well and possibly even make history….which gives me great joy at the mere thought. 

In spite of all the hell and lack of friends throughout my life, who I thought had integrity but found friends who are not genuine when they discover you are “different” from them and don’t like you unconditionally as I do with others.

 I always focused on what my abilities were and all the positive aspects of my life. Being dealt a disability-epilepsy at nine years old; that is all I have known. My best and first friend was blind like Helen Keller, and she was genuine and thoroughly as accepting of me as I was her. I learned qualities like compassion and empathy early though, unlike most kids. 

Those earliest memories helped form my character who us one who sees the beauty in all people.

I continually tried to push to the limits, erasing the word DIS and maximizing the word ABILTIES.

I hope and pray one day my disability will simply fade away like a ship in the bleak of night, passing the lighthouse on by, letting my light shine as it was always supposed to.

I hope one day my light will shine so brilliantly, like an aurora borealis crystal, sparking so bright that people forget and simply don’t care that I was “disabled” at all….but know my special talents far way anything else. 
Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko,

Images from Zedge

Compiled by Paulette Motzko

Copyright June 23rd, 2017

12:23 midnight

Updated 7:03 a.m.

When $65,000 a year for a drug is applauded : Pharmaceutical Prices & A Disabled Person’s Right To Live in Dignity with All Needs Met

When $65,000 a year for a drug is applauded

http://www.cnn.com/2017/04/03/health/prescription-drug-prices-public-opinion/index.html

Paulette Le Pore Motzko’s Note to Pharmaceutical Companies on Placing People First and Nevada’s Unfair Treatment of People with Epilepsy, Civil Rights & Disabilities 

I wish more pharmaceutical companies had more or a “Triple Win Attitude”: I Win, You Win & Society Wins. Huge multi million dollar companies need to keep ever present the real, flesh and blood people they are developing the drug to help.

They simply can function effectively as a business and still charge less  for the consumer. 

For instance, my medicine for epilepsy called Vimpat that I take is $20 a pill made by UCB. It cost nearly $2,300 a month along with my Tegretol that I take for a complex partial epilepsy. I have Nevada Medicaid and am on SSI, which allows you to make money and collect it, and pays less than SSDI-full disability.  (it also took two and a half years to win with the aid of a social security disability lawyer  too and I had to say goodbye to my alimony from the rocket scientist I was married to for 15 years to get that crappy $728 but my medical is covered. 

Yet after stating all those facts, the state of Nevada doesn’t think anyone who was diagnosed with epilepsy has a medical conditiom or termed disabled, even though the director at the DMV told me I will automatically get a disabled placard when I update my Nevada state ID.

 (I’m still trying to obtain a certified copy of my old marriage license to prove I’m Paulette Le Pore Motzko. That’s a $65 stupid document is so outrageous it is unbelievable. I’ve been divorced from him since 2001 and my name was legally changed in Garden Grove, California in 1986, when I got married.  I’m going to go talk to one of my friends who is a librarian and see if she can get me the silly document free because $65 is a lot of money to prove I’m who I am! I’ve been trying to get that document 3 times now and it is difficult since my CA ID expired on my birthday last August.

Nevada needs to spend more time educating their political leaders about things like crimehuman dignity, the pedestrian fatality rate and placing penalties on drunk drivers and their educating RTC and people who are public servants about various disabilities, NAMELY neurological ones like EPILEPSY. That would use everybody’s time in an effort worth expending time on.

This may be Nevada and it may have the worst weather in the United States, and 60 mile an hour-knock you on your ass dust storms, high fraud rates,  allergies that wont quit due to blowing dust, and vapes and casinos on every corner with few nonsmoking areas other than Starbucks.

But Nevada is still only one state in the USA it still is the United States of America. And as far as I’m concerned as far as I know, in the USA, we all have certain basic rights.

One of those rights is to be treated fairly. Denying people with epilepsy the right to use Paratransit and having the head Federal representative not know what epilepsy even is is a crime.  

That should be against the law and it probably is.

After after the grand negligence that happened to me regarding Paratransit  and the callousness and apathy on behalf of Senator Harry Reid’s office is disgusting.

 It doesn’t reflect great kindly on him.  The irony is Harry Reid can barely see and uses Paratransit himself, so you think he’d be the first understand the meaning of a doctor’s letter when a doctor writes for a patient to take a medication and says you need it to live, which mine has done since age 9.

You think he would understand as well as the governor,  how important it is to look after the safety of people with epilepsy and not allow them to be injured. I was.

 I was talking to Harry Reid about raising the cost of living index to $1200 a month for all people on SSI and SSDI. 

I still have pictures of the first place I lived in when I first moved here.  That horrid $728 a month buys nothing  in terms of living quality and your standard of life. All you have to do is  think and care and be a responsible person realize that along with all inflation and elevated prices going up, the cost of living index for all disabled people  hasn’t been raised in over 20 years.

SSI is $200 less than what California has per month. Who created an SSI (supplementary Social Security) of $728 anyway? A monkey with an abacus?  Everything needs to be updated  to reflect 2017 prices. Make the minimum BE $1000 for God’s sake! Round it up. Turn the insulting, impoverished amount in to something a human being can really spend, not just make due in the real world. $1200 is actually usable and workable  for the average person.

 Anybody who thinks that SSI and SSDI checks are handed on a platter they are not you are sadly mistaken.


Image from Pinterest.

Lawyer Bill LaTour won my case in Southern California and I can’t count all of the doctors I went to and specialists and career counselors and all the questions I had to answer and psychological assessments in order to finally present my case. Most who are disabled would rather be working. In the final hearing all of the doctors and the career counselor appeared in a small courtroom and they’re the judge asked me what my name was and after about 5 minutes he reviewed all the evidence presented by every one of the doctors that I had to see you over the course of a year and a half before he finally awarded me ssi. That took a mere five minutes and those were the only words that I other than that. 

You can’t sue the government but you can sue people who work for the government.  And one by one I will if I don’t get my Paratransit FOR MYSELF AND SET A PRECIDENT FOR ALL WHO HAVE EPILEPSY IN THE STATE OF NEVADA. 

After all, I’m the former President and founder of The Epilepsy Connection which was a grassroots organization in Orange County, California  that helped countless people in California and many other states, and three other countries who had no other resources whatsoever. I’m also the former director of the Epilepsy Foundation sub affiliate in Garden Grove, California years ago. 

In other words, I am a catalyst for positive change and I hope to  merge forces with other disabled people making us stronger as a united team.


 I’ve got arthritis in that left ankle that won’t go away, just as my dad was  just about paralyzed in a wheelchair from osteoarthritis  before he died several years ago.

After having a drop seizure- due to being out in 115 degree heat when I shouldn’t have been.  That because I was having problems but two idiot’s went against my epileptologist’s letter stating that. I think that’s a crime isn’t it? 

DAN HOWLAND AND JIM CHAMPOU, THE IDIOTS WHO DIDNT VALIDATE THAT DOCTOR’S LETTER AND THOUGHT DR. EVANGALISTA WROTE IT FOR THE FUN OF IT, INSTEAD TO PREVENT INJURY TO ME.

Maybe no lawyer in Nevada has wanted to take my case YET, IT IS A crime AND A  double crime since Dan Howell and told me he didn’t care about people with epilepsy to my face  and he said he didn’t care about learning about anything to do with them he liked being ignorant. After everything  hits the fan and people pay the price they should have paid a couple years ago but I wasn’t any kind of health condition  to be able  to press charges, I hope he’s fired  and not only that I hope charges are filed on him  for endangerment and that is endangering me.

I believe the max I can do is $10,000  in the state of Nevada for him personally and  also Jim shampoo $10,000 and also Tina Quigley, the head of RTC , who all she could say during our phone conversation was “uh huh” after I said anything.  In other words, she did nothing and could have been forced my Paratransit ID once suck it but she did not. That’s another $10,000.

 They put my life at risk because I was having drop seizures of time and that was written in the letter so that’s called personal injury and I with all the evidence that I can bring which is a hell of a lot of it I call it instant win.

It is the principle here. I am hoping I won’t need to and they will come to their senses. Maybe the  Governor can hear the whole sordid story and make it right trade she seemed like the most level-headed person in the most articulate intelligent person I’ve seen hold office in Nevada so far.

 I think Nevada has some disabled Senators who have disabled minds and need to greatly educate themselves about what all this abilities are an update themselves with 2017.

Civil rights and then do the educate themselves on disabilities that go far beyond physical ones in a wheelchair.

The statistics on disability is there are more people with invisible disabilities like epilepsy than those with more visible ones.

California was better with Paratransit by far.  I had Paratransit in California over 25 years and I come to the 1800’s Wild West High Desert of Nevada and here they turn me down. I called Paratransit once waiting 2 hours and after the two hours the lady said, ” oh didn’t you know? Just because you call Paratransit doesn’t mean it’ll show up!” 

Ignorance again.   

You shouldn’t be a leader in the state if you are igorant in the ways I have seen. Dina Titus, Head of Transportation had no desire to help me get what I was owed as a disabled American citizen.

Nevada Medicaid pays for my medicine now and I hope it always does because it’s the best combination I have ever been on in my now 55 years young.

 

 

Even all that being said Senator Reid doesn’t think I have a disability-isn’the that rediculous? 

I even sent Senator Reid pictures of my medicine and all the vitamins that I take and the doctor’s letter from my specialist who prescribes my medicine and the copy of my medical ID bracelet and he still didn’t think that I was disabled!

 Living in Nevada is like living in the wild west where they think they can do anything. The American with Disabilities Act is something that I know all about  and because I was turned down for Paratransit here I could sue every senator in the entire State and when  because my civil rights were violated and I broke my left ankle as a result of having a drop seizure a year ago and was nearly in power chair after! Was I disabled enough for you then Nevada  huh 7 read  the governor ? Is that what you want to but everybody Wheelchairs and that’s the only kind of stability you think exist in this world ? Wake up  you need to get your head examined and go look at the medical book and read it all of this abilities that exist in this world there quite a lot of them  we have a lot of components to our bodies not just a physical body  without your neurological system you’re nothing you can’t write you can’t speak you can’t do anything.

I now have arthritis in that left ankle, which makes might a personal injury case that I didn’t want come into the state I just wanted a place to live it was cheap that’s it I didn’t come here for the gambling  I don’t drink I don’t smoke I don’t do drugs and I don’t gamble why did I come here for cheap rent that’s it hat’s part of living in Nevada is not something I like but it’s also against my civil rights too. 

I’ll be talking to the governor of Nevada this year about all of those issues as well as others that affect everyone or just same old and about raising the cost of living index for all people who are disabled to something that allows them to live in dignity, which the $728 a month does not.

I want to see that all people can afford tm what they need to keep them alive. 

Hear that pharmaceutical companies? 

Remember the human element. 

Remember why you’re developing the medicine in the first place.

 What good  is a fantastic medicine with a high efficiency rate and the low side effect rate and a huge success rate if the patients cannot afford it? I’m asking you that question mark I was made a rocket scientist for 15 years and I’m fairly bright that’s not even logical is it to make the price outlandish.

If drugs are so outrageously priced limiting who can take them, it defeats the purpose why the drug was ever created.

 I wish the scientist who developed the drugs could price the drugs because then they would be priced at something reasonable that makes sense. 

Because people who are scientists creating these compounds to help people would never charge people outrageous prices because they’re more humanitarian in spirit than the simply sales reps promoting the products getting huge commissions driving company cars!

 Let the pharmacology medicine developers help set a price that is more accurate.

 I saw pharmaceutical reps every time I went into one of my neurology offices in Orange off La Veta when I was married years ago.  I think what they do should be against the law because they’re giving doctors Kickbacks to promote drugs. because of that, doctors are  not looking at to the best needs of the patient. The Pharmaceutical reps  are allowed to  dangle money in front of a doctor’s faces and saying over here I’ll give you this money -a bribe.

How in the hell can a good doctor think straight  with the ” Wheeler Dealers” walking around dangling incentives.

Pharmaceutical companies remind me of real estate companies in California. Everybody is so greedy that they have to make “over profit” aking for way more than is affordable for most everyone except millionaires. 

 Medicine companies: Remember the people FIRST. Without people in this world you have nothing. Nothing but dust and a bunch of chemicals a test tube that people NEED.

Written by Paulette Motzko on April 5th 2017 at 12:48 p.m. 

This is story was aired on Totally Inspired Mind: Where Posititive Minds Congregate and Beautiful Soul Shine.

TotallyInspiredMind.com

I created the following document on my Galaxy Note 4 Phablet and the edits are coming in on my Samsung S2 tablet. My phablet  overheated just like I do when I even think about the things that I’ve been through for no good reason.  I almost was history in this town so rather than be history I’m going to make history instead, making it better for everyone.








Edited  April 5th 2017 at 3:36

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko 

Stages of Our Lives Pass Like Changing Seasons by Paulette Le Pore Motzko New Version 

Above images created by Paulette Le Pore Motzko, Copyright 2016

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko.

Copyright February 2017

I accidentally erased the link that was on here going to a blog post called “Stages of Change”, and prior to finding the blog post in the wee hours this morning, I had the idea to write this.

I thought the entire story would be written in an hour or by about 3 p.m. now yesterday afternoon, Las Vegas, NV time. It’s 4:00 a.m. February 28th,  2017 and with a Pentatonix Concert on Neflix playing,  I have been embellishing the post with more images that I feel tell part of the story too and modifying what I wrote.

I hope you will enjoy it. Yesterday was my day to “Get Absorbed in The News Day” writing commentaries. I am an empath in many ways, and can only handle hearing about the news of the world every few days. I would never get anything done if I did otherwise. All I have to do is run into one god-forsaken story about Trump, who’s Triple loser in my book, especially after hearing he made fun of a disabled person. Anyone that would make fun of any kind of disabled person is a pathetic human being. Trump’s animalistic, racist and self demeaning behavior boggles my mind. Yes,  I know he tries to demean other people but all he succeeds and doing it’s just lowers himself to increasing new levels of mediocrity.  I want him impeached to preserve the integrity of the United States as an American citizen. He simply makes us look bad in the eyes of other nations.

Enough of my political view points, that were not in the original post,  but I don’t stand alone in my feelings. 

One of my golden rules in life is to be genuine and totally authentic. People respect that. When it comes to followers and buying followers  I don’t . All mine are real and represent real, living, breathing , wonderful people  who I have impressed somehow, or I’ve inspired, or empowered, made laugh, entertained,  or they look forward to something that I write, my original images,  or they like just me in general and my persona. My followers are real people who follow me  because I am REAL and put on no pretenses. Anything other than that is just fake in my book, and I’m working on two books currently.

 I get asked all the time you want to buy some followers they say why? I have my own real ones from hard work  writing what I feel is good content. I think any industry they call that  organic. As a writer I call it smart because it’s how I know what people LIKE. IF everything is fake and contrived, it doesn’t reflect anything real but it’s just a mere illusion of popularity

  When ever I see Trump’s face, one word comes to mind- impeachment. I sincerely hope that happens so the disasters and hate crimes nationwide he instigated can end. The United States needs to think of our progress rather than regression. I wish Trump wasn’t really and instead a really bad nightmare ,  nut we all wake up and he’s still there unfortunately!
 Like many of my stories, posts and pictures; they are going through a creative evolutionary process, contantly changing or improving, like their creator me! We all change everyday just a little bit, even though we can’t see the changes, we still do. The great thing about that is it we all have a say in how we change,  and in what ways we change. You just have to want to change then catapult your want with action to make it a reality.

Above photo taken by my friend Martha the general manager of The Canonita-Mexico City Soul Food. Photo editing by Paulette Motzko.

Just like the seasons are now changing from winter to spring, this article is changing with every word I write. 

I hope the finished product has you look at not only me in a new way, but life in general in a new way and directs you to a newfound realization of the power you possess in it.

Embrace change. It us the only constant in life.  Those who do the best in life ADAPT.

Much like a surfer on a surfboard riding the wave, those that master the “Art of Living”, ride the wave called LIFE. We can learn from the quick reflexes of the surfer, adjusting what we do in correlation to what’s the way  was coming our way.

Above image photography by Paulette Le Pore Motzko, PLM Studios, 2017

Photography by Leonardo Valencia. Digital Arts by Paulette Motzko. 

Copyright May 2016

Above High definition wallpaper image from Zedge.com

When I was younger I hadn’t discovered my full potential yet and didn’t see the world from a big picture vantage point yet. That was to be uncovered and made visible over time. I was a very sick, misunderstood kid that grew up in the 60’s, at a time before the time “bullying” was invented or before people cared to do something about it at least. 

My nanny came to live with us when I was nine, the same age I was diagnosed with epilepsy. The piano she brought with her would soon become my best friend. It took until high school at 14 to be invented for me to know what size your freedom was.  Until the time kids were just too mean spirited stupid to ever give me a chance as human being, let alone as a friend.  I wrote music on that Henry Ford. Miller piano and read lots of cookbooks and passed the time figuring out what I was going to make and cook, analyzing recipes as though it were a novel envisioning  what I’d make  when I grew up and the parties that I would have and how awesome it would be…….

Image created by Paulette Motzko, Copyright 2016

Every day pray and meditate as your 1st thing in the day.  Connect with your Omnipotent Power of the Universe asking for Wisdom and Guidance. I AM CHISTIAN BAPTIZED CATHOLIC, BUT I AM SPIRITUAL IN NATURE. No matter what your faith, place that part of you first and you cannot be steered wrong.


Above image created by Paulette Motzko, Copyright October 2016. Since that time I have a thousand more followers on 

Totally Inspired Mind

Light an aromatherapy candle and find out how you can tap into what’s inside your SOUL.

 I have always found lighting a candle is a way to connect to a hidden, very special light planted in my soul. 

Chances are, if you try it, you will discover it too.

Before you know it, when you start connecting with your Spiritual Source, you’ll find a light that you can protect outward at the world, and the world will be brighter as result of it. If your light shines brilliantly it’s own special way, the light will never go away as long as the World Turns. If you bring something to the world nobody has ever seen before that has great merit,  you’ll be memorable enough that your memory and good you did will “shine” like the aurora borealis.

The older I get the more I focus on the good I can give rather than what I can get and options and opportunities open like flowers in the Spring.


Photographer Leonardo Valencia. Digital Arts by Paulette Motzko.



Above wallpaper image from Zedge.com



Stay centered.

Keep your focus on what matters.

Don’t do something just because everybody else is.

Have your own viewpoints and own them.

Above 3 images created by Paulette Motzko, Copyright 2015, 2016 and 2017.

Image with diary and old fashioned fountain pen by Zedge.com.

Write every day, even if you are the only one who reads what you write. 

Remember:  “With a pen,  paper and an idea, I have the world!”

Writing is a way you can connect with your innermost self, your hopes and dreams unfurl as you hold that pen in your hand, or as you type. Whichever method helps you connect better and be more prolific, do it! 


Go after what you really want in life early and do what you, and nobody else was meant to do.

Above image of The Venetian Trio who are doing what they were meant to do. That reflects in every song they play.

The above image of Norman Vito, pianist at The Bellagio Petrussian Caviar Bar. He is ” in his element at the piano, as though he’s where he is was destined to be.”

Photographed and created by Paulette Motzko, PLM Studios, February 2017

Keep Supporters of Your Dreams Close To You

Photography by Leonardo Valencia, of Paulette Motzko holding one of her Nikons.

Keep Negative and Hurtful People Away From You. You owe it to yourself to have a happy and productive life. Negative people are like a ball and chain who get their enjoyment from dragging you down because they don’t have the initiative, talent or ideas that you do. Repel them like water beads on Vaseline.

Above image from Pinterest, from Girlheartscamera.com. Quote by Oprah Winfrey. 

Water the Garden of Your Dreams Daily by working on each Project.

Listen to your inner voice, or intuition because it is always right.

Take time for your routine that keeps you most healthy.

If music is a passion of yours, sing a song or put some music out in the universe making your contribution to making a more harmonious world.

Above image photography by Rosie Emberton. Digital Photo Arts by Paulette Le Pore Motzko.

Life is a balancing act composed of spiritual time, personal time, work time, leisure time and whatever other classifications you when to add.


Take time to do self-introspection so you can see how far you’ve come and how far you’ve gone to appreciate Where You Are now.

 Mentor others  so you can help others carry the torch and do things easier than you once did.
Donate your time then to philanthropic things to give back to the world and it will give you more back than you ever dreamed.
Make the most of where you are now. Use the tools you have now, they don’t have to be the best tools but they’re the tools we can afford and use them maximize them and save up for whatever equipment you need to do your job well.
Don’t take the first no for an answer you hear. If you’re not getting what you want with your company go to the corporate level and I guarantee you’ll get what you want.
Aim for your goals like a GPS guidance system guides a Delta rocket to outer space


    I hope you have reading this as much as I have enjoyed sharing my 55 year old wisdom and 20 year old heart with you! 

    Maybe God had in mind me destroying the original post, so I could write this one which is my own, and my brainchild. 

    Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko

    February 27th 2017 at 1:55 p.m.

    Updated February 27th 2017 at 3:19 p.m. and illustrations added 6:38 p.m.

    Updated February 28 2016 at 5:26 a.m.

    If you don’t go after what you want, you’ll never have it. If you don’t ask the answer is always no. Nora Roberts

    Nora Roberts says : “If you don’t go after what you want, you’ll never have it. If you don’t ask, the answer is always no. If you don’t step forward, you’re always in the same place”

    Image photographed and created by Paulette Motzko.

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    From Success Secrets Daily.

    Compiled by Paulette Motzko.

    January 2017. 8:48 a.m.

    Sharing Stellar Ideas Like  Monarch Butterflies Flying From My Hands to The World by Paulette L Motzko

    This all began with me sharing a beautiful Chinese Proverb late in the day and having Jennie Fitzkee, who is a teacher, writer and blogger and wonderful human being comment on how wonderful it was can I share the proverb. See it said that through me  I made the proverb brand new again. 

    And I told her that I had never heard it before so for me it was brand new. 

    From there I tried to put into words what inspiration is to me. And,  for the first time I was able to actually define it in a way that accurately fits what I envision it to be.

    I asked Jennie to email exactly what I wrote in my reply to her, and she did. Somehow when I replied to her on the WordPress Web platform,  my response was completely not visible to me, and they always are.

    “Jennie, I had never heard it so for me it was sparkling brand new.  It is just so gratifying when I share something I know is meaningful here.  I have a photographic memory and am a visionary kind of person.  I picture me gently holding a monarch butterfly in my hand and seeing the beauty of it all…then letting it go free to shine it’s beautiful splendor on the world.  The audience of Totally Inspired Mind are like flowers in a garden, each unique in their own way, none more pretty than the next.  

    When I get an idea I think is along the lines of good or great or empowering, the idea transforms into that “butterfly” that I briefly hold in my hands, admiring it, only to let it go free in hopes it will touch other’s lives to spread joy to them too.

      Jennie inspired me to write that, what I called on a new Board on Pinterest I created today called “Divine Inspiration”….

    People can be a catalyst for incredible ideas and collaboration that would never have been had the two people met. I would have never believed that when I got the idea for Totally Inspired Mind: Where Positive Minds Congregate from a hotel room Huntington Beach after I realized I could no longer take care of my mother who had very acute Alzheimer’s disease. Mom required a 24 hour staff  instead of me. And the most liberating thing was realizing that and being blatantly honest with those realities.

    I began focusing on only myself and putting myself number one, which was strange at first. I was giving everything I possessed as a human being with nothing coming back my way, and I had to quit before the flame was extinguished. The flame bein me.

    Too many caregivers give so much of themselves there remains only a whisp of who they originally were before, with almost nothing left for themselves. That is all too common in the world. 

     I had the idea for this site but just never had a free moment to be able to think or concentrate on anything for longer than 5 minutes. I am not complaing, those were just the realities of helping my dear mother Ramona, now in heaven–I am glad I was there for here because she needed me, and this time’s with her are precious memories that will play back for all time with a smile on my face.

    I wouldn’t ever have believed what began as my brain child where I could envision the greatest, most kind, big picture thinking people all getting together….and meeting one another….around a table set around the world.

    It transformed from my vision to  a website to immediate skyrocket of passionate, Triple Winning people who instantly embraced my idea and loved it. 

    The amount of effort that I’ve expended into it has comeback a thousandfold. It transformed from a caterpillar of an idea and through a kind of time-lapse metamorphosis, became a living, breathing wonderful entity. ….a very human thing because it is composed of imput and comments from all if you-my fabulous readers!

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    I have transformed into a completely different lady too, through the years, who is stronger and more capable and happier with a place I can truly call home.

    Photographed by Montrelle Edwards

    Photo Editing by Paulette Motzko

    Copyright October 2016

    Image of Paulette Motzko taken by Paulette Motzko

    Thank you for continually inspiring me and adding so much richness to my life. 

    You all are extraordinary, and very empowering, people.
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    “Jennie, I had never heard it so for me it was sparkling brand new.  It is just so gratifying when I share something I know is meaningful here.  I have a photographic memory and am a visionary kind of person.  I picture me gently holding a monarch butterfly in my hand and seeing the beauty of it all…then letting it go free to shine it’s beautiful splendor on the world.  The audience of Totally Inspired Mind are like flowers in a garden, each unique in their own way, none more pretty than the next.  When I get an idea I think is along the lines of good or great or empowering it the idea transforms into that butterfly that I briefly hold in my hands, admiring it, only to let it go free in hopes it will touch other’s lives to spread joy to them too.  I have never been able to write that before Jennie.  You inspire me.  God bless you.”
    Your exact words, Paulette.  Please let me know you got this email.
    Jennie
     

    Images found on Pinterest and I could not find the names of the photographers anywhere.


    My Mother is Dying But Her Spirit Lives Through Me

    I was a caregiver for my sweet mother Ramona Lea Le Pore who on the last decade of her life was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s disease.

    My sister in law contacted me to yell me mom has a tumor on her kidney and is now dying.
    I knew the time would come when mom would leave this earth and touch the face of God, being reunited with dad in heaven, but I wasn’t prepared for so sudden of tragic news.

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    In my old kitchen drinking tea with mom after making dinner

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    As long as I am alive, mom’s name will be in the prefaces of the books I will write, and so many creative things my mother helped show me how to do by believing in me: piano playing, cooking, poetry, lyric writing and singing.

    She was my cheerleader, my best friend, my confidant and encouraged my creativity. I miss hearing her voice and laughter.
    She was the most appreciative person I ever knew or will know.
    That’s why it was a joy to do anything for her like cook her favorite meal.

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    Mom and I in the 16 x 20 photo to the right on my desk last Christmas 2015.

    Little would I know that the photo I created to immortalize a stellar moment in time would be the only vestige of my mother to keep me going. With no ability to make phone calls or talk to her the photo was and is all I have.

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    Mom and dad when dad was in The Air Force

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    I had been thinking of mom all week and just feeling something strange like an inner voice telling me mom might not have much longer to live. This morning I looked up at the 16 x 20 mural I had made of mom and I happy in Huntington Beach, CA and am happy I immortalized the moment.

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    Mom sitting across from me happy on a beautiful southern California day at Ruby’s Diner.

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    Mom from the time I was 4 years old read to me and taught me phonetics, opening my eyes to wider worlds. She was a visionary before that word was popular.

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    Mom taught me to see the beauty in the simple pleasures of life….in flowers, nature and taught me to cherish people and take care of the things you own-and in that order of priority.

    Mom loved being useful and when she cared about you, she would go to the ends of the earth to make you happy. If you complimented something she might give it to you!

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    The photo I took from the wall that was cut from a 16 x 20 that survived a fire. Much like my mother, the photo was resilient and a survivor.

    This photo that’s on my upright grand piano and a crucifix that belonged to Nanny my grandmother are all I took when I was told “take what you want from mom’s stuff.”

    Mom was alive but with Alzheimer’s disease and if she didn’t put it in my hand I wasn’t going to take it. I wanted to be remembered for what I gave her instead of what I took from her.

    Hearing the birds singing their morning song at 4:46 a.m. I am going to wrap this up by saying hug those around you who you care about. Live life so you have no regrets and give more than you take. I sincerely tried to do just that with my mother but I will miss her terribly. Her smile was like the sun to me.

    Please pray for my mother and family and I. Thank you.

    Written by
    Paulette Le Pore Motzko
    Photography Paulette Motzko
    July 4th, 2016
    4:50 a.m.

    Watch “Les Brown: Keys To Self Motivation (Inspirational!)” on YouTube

    “The next time you have a 33 minute commute or have a long bus ride like I do quite often, or have something that you’re doing that you want to really hear something empowering and extraordinary, listen to Les Brown’s words.

    He has a wonderful way of taking the experiences that he’s gone through in life transforming them into fresh metaphors and comparisons that empower the world. I guarantee you’ll walk away feeling better and learning after investing the 33 minutes here. I hope that you enjoy all of the videos that I put up today on Totally Inspired Mind. along with all of the  pictures and stories that I write.

    Thank you so much for tuning in.
    And a warm welcome to all of the    many new followers this week! Totally Inspired Mind is approaching 3000 followers now.

    Paulette Motzko
    May 13th, 2016 9:47 a.m.

    Success Comes with Rising Above Your Current Circumstance and Going Beyond That. -Jim Rhon. Paraphrased by Paulette Motzko

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    Image photographed by Paulette Motzko, PLM Studios

    April 2016 4:08 p.m.

    When was the last time in your life that you went beyond what you ever thought you could do in life and surprised even yourself?

    How good you feel when you did that?

    What things have you done recently that showed that you can do anything in this world if you only put your mind to it.

    Written by Paulette L Motzko

    There’s always a blue sky after the rain. Paulette Motzko

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    Maybe it’s raining in your life with problems now, or maybe it’s literally raining like it is here in Las Vegas, NV.

    No matter what, figurative or literal, the sun’s rays will be awaiting you on the other side of the storm.

    Know you are never alone and as you journey through life God is walking by your side like your Mighty Partner.

    The storm clouds will eventually lift and the sun will peer through the clouds again.

    Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
    Image photographed & Digital Arts by Paulette Motzko,
    PLM Studios

    Copyright April 2016

    Prayer is not the overcoming of God’s reluctance, but the taking hold of God’s willingness. Phillip Brooks

    This is on the inside cover of a book that I carry around with me every day and say certain portions of it that I’ve marked with a Post-It notes called “Handle with Prayer” by Alan Cohen.

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    I found my copy for a dollar fifty at a book sale in a Friends of The Library sale in southern California, with coffee stains all over the cover and scribbles on the inside, but I didn’t care. I could see the merit of the wonderful book without even reading it. One’s trash is another treasure.

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    The cover was beat up and damaged so I covered it with cat stickers because if I ever had a pet again it would be a cat. The stickers give me joy, make the cover look a little better and strike up conversations from passers by who see me reading it.

    It’s published by Hay House Publishers.

    I recommend it to anybody.

    It’s a fantastic book then we’ll have you thinking in more positive ways and transforming your ideas about prayer, God, what you can do and accomplish and a host of other things.

    Alan Cohen has written I believe over 20 books.

    http://www.HayHouse.com

    The ISBN number on this book handle with prayer is:

    ISBN 1 – 56170 – 467 – 9 hardcover

    This book is classified as prayer and self-realization and religious aspects.

    Written by Paulette L Motzko
    Photos by Paulette L Motzko
    Copyright March 2016

    7:39 a.m.

    My strength did not come from lifting weights…..

    My strength did not come from lifting weights. My strength came from lifting myself up and I was knocked down.

    This is my favorite one of the year end of last year because that’s exactly what I did in my life over the last year.
    It has been, and will continue to be probably my most positively transformative year in my life. It has also been one of the most exhausting physically.

    Mom and I are and always will be together in spirit, though now she’s a few hour’s away.

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    Mom at age 16……

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    My Nanny’s crucifix that was on her wall for years and then mom painted it with gold leaf.

    I must look a million times a day for inspiration and insight here.

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    Nanny’s praying hands by the wooden Virgin Mary my Uncle Mervin mailed me because I helped him when he was dying of cancer.

    Keep things around you that inspire you and give you strength.

    Written by Paulette L Motzko
    Image found on Pinterest
    Copyright June 11, 2015
    5:52 a.m.