Remember, You Don’t Have To Go To A Party Just Because It’s New Year’s Eve

After my divorce in 2001 to the Polish rocket scientist, I have been secure in my singledom. I dated a Cuban guy for six years named Raul, but he wanted to own everything he kissed!
I prefer secure men who aren’t jealous and don’t try to dominate or “own” me.

If I can’t be with an intelligent gentleman and those two words really mean something to me, I choose to go out with nobody. It is my choice.

I am outgoing, mind you, with countless sales jobs and marketing jobs under my belt, and I could go to a high class club or casino and order Perier or Martinelli’s or decaf cappucinno & strike up conversation with the locals….maybe get a date…
But I don’t feel obligated to.
I am going to take myself to dinner and after I may see a friend or two.

The point ladies and gentleman is don’t succumb to peer pressure. It is OK to sit with a fantastic book you just discovered at Barnes & Noble or write the next chapter in your memoir, or to write the first chapter.

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Paulette Motzko in her new sanctuary, studio apartment, in Las Vegas, NV.
Photo taken by Leonardo Valencia
Photo Editing by Paulette L Motzko

Copyright December 31st, 2014
2:30 p.m.

I will be the only person to post I am happy to see 2014 go. It was one of my worst in my life, and breaking my wrist in February, left me with a left hand I will consult with reconstructive surgery…and my hands were everything to me.
I struggled with a place to live in California after being thrown out on the street of the duplex I had lived in and paid rent on 15 years by the power of attorney & brother-in-law & so called apathetic siblings. The great side is I can use my hands and all the things like playing piano I can still do, and I am back up to 80 w.p.m. and I didn’t need surgery to do that. (I asked you all to pray for a miraculous recovery, remember?)

I need full use of my left ring and index fingers now…they do not bend, ever since Feb 2014 when I fell from the worst complex partial seizure I ever had, due to the stress of living in and out of crappy hotels, places where I endured 168 bed bug bites etc. (I have photos documenting everything for a good personal injury lawyer somewhere in Vegas.) I was seizure free on Tegretol & Vimpat and had I lived in a normal living environment, it never would have happened. I am just human though and epilepsy is a condition that is exacerbated by stress, and I had my share of it in 2014. So much so, I was diagnosed with second stage hypertension after my ssi was lowered.

Good news?

I take a lickin and keep on tickin and after over 70 apartments turning me down, saying I needed double my income, this place didn’t, and it is the best for me.

Since signing the lease here on December 11th, my health improved, my blood pressure is normal again and I know I will soon be able to thrive like a flower potted in the right soil.

I was nearly killed on the 18th of November of this year and when I ate my Thanksgiving dinner I was grateful to be alive. I wish I didn’t have the police report as a souvinir though!

I have a great place now and I made my story have a good ending. I have no family worth mentioning, as they are dead above the neck and have no heart, no soul or conscious.

My family is like a bad poker hand. I would throw out three cards and pick up three more.
I want, above all else, peace of mind and health.
I needed to get settled in my own place and then I would be free to get what’s rightly mine, and it wasn’t a kick in the keister for all paying my parent’s house payment 15 years (as the good daughter who gave and didn’t steal, as the others did.)

I want to make things right and get what I should have gotten if the actual worst had instead been the best.
I am my mother’s voice and I want to see she gets what she deserves and criminal charges are placed on my brother in law for putting me through literal hell.

I am a strong and positive and courageous lady, but I have read one too many posts on what a great year it was.

The best thing about 2014 is it is soon ending!
I know I am not the only person who has had tragic and horrible things happen to them.
I hope by printing what I went through, it will give hope and courage to others out there too.

What did I learn from everything?

1. Take care of yourself first and don’t give a —what anyone thinks about decisions that will benefit you.

2. Don’t assume people will care about you in the way you did them, they might not care at all. Count on yourself and that is all.

3. Do what you know is right, good, just and stand by your morals and upbringing. When everyone else was stealing or destroying everything in my mom’s house-who mind you was alive but with Alzheimer’s disease, I took a photo of her that survived a fire and a crucifix that belonged to my Nanny, who helped raise me.

4. Sometimes horrid things happen to good people. Don’t sit and overthink and wonder why God would allow this to happen. Worry about you, problem solve it and figure out what you can do to help yourself as though that’s all there is.

Always have the courage to change the things you are able to and the wisdom to know the difference, and never ever repeat a mistake.

I am a giver not a theif.
I help and inspire and don’t set out to hurt or destroy.
Honesty is in my DNA.

Sometimes Life or God gives you crap that your only choice is to make mud pies with it.

Before the eviction, which was illegal, btw, I was a different person, happier, healthier and now after being ravaged am still a good person but there is a bittersweet side to me which in time will dwindle.

You just go on. The events will never remove themselves and I am less trusting than I used to be, but through all the many places I stayed in CA, and got no help whatsoever, because I didn’t give birth to a child. Had I, there would have been free hotel stays to be given and compassion by the droves.

My civil rights were violated and I was treated as though I didn’t exist because I had no child?
That’s crazy.

Somebody has to come forward and let the state of CA how poorly they treat disabled people there.

We need to change the power of attorney laws so people like Mike Bunker, power of attorney of my mother Ramona Le Pore, are fined and removed when allegations of stopping me from seeing or talking to her persist and also talking to her like she was not there.

Especially after my personal possessions I have lived without for over a year are back in my possession.

If I don’t love someone, respect someone and value someone, they are simply not in my life.
Since I am not a people pleaser or hypocrite, that is a good philosophy to abide by in 2015 and beyond.

Sometimes you will have to stand your guard and protect what you know is right, and you will be standing alone.

Coming to Nevada I came as The Lone Ranger and knew I would make friends and find my way. I was right.

I have lost 100’s of fly-by-night friends and met two who literally saved my life and another who when they cut my ssi several hundred dollars here helped me live and function. Without him, I don’t know what I would have done.

I am working with key politicians here to double the amount people get on ssi and ssdi.

Be happy when the holidays are over so I can get a meeting with the Congressional Representative to Senator Joe Heck’s office. I have been communicating with Senator Harry Reid and Gov. Brian Sandoval’s offices too.

People care more in Nevada by far and al races, colors and creeds get jobs in Nevada, not primarily Vietnamese and Mexicans as was made a reality by requiring you to speak either Spanish or Vietnamese -to get a good paying job with benefits.
In Nevada you get points for speaking English because international business men and women come here.

Few truly care about others and most don’t make eye contact in southern CA. Nobody wants to help another on with a stroller who has kids, but I have been offered help by more nice guys with the handcart I carry & grocery bags in the 6 months since moving here than in 20 in CA.

Oftentimes in CA if you actually take the time to make eye contact in with someone and talk to them, they will assume you’re only talking on your bluetooth or cell phone! I remember before I left the state, I noticed everyone at Starbucks was in their own little worlds like cyborgs and people who lost all ability to hold a conversation. Everyone went around like horses with blinders on, bumping into eachother because they were walking while texting!

Few do that in Vegas and the huge libraries here are well staffed and open Saturdays and Sundays. I have a beautiful huge one walking distance from me.

I am sorry if this is a more somber post but not really; there is an optimistic undercurrent which will always be “me”, Paulette Le Pore Motzko.

To all the people all over the world who read Totally Inspired Mind, I will say Thank YOU for keeping my spirit alive and having me delve into the depths of my soul where the stories are created from.

Thank you for your support, your prayers and comments.

You, the people who read all my web sites are the BEST things, MOST EXTRAORDINARY things-though I know you’re not a thing.
All of my many readers are like sparkling jewels I wear on a necklace close to my heart.

Here is a wallpaper from me as a gift for you for your support, the new friends I have made, and also your comments.
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I think that about says it all, no matter what our situation and what race, color or creed-it is wise words for us all.

Paulette Le Pore Motzko

Your existence has helped me through the most turbulent, most tragic times of my life.
I feel as though I emerged out of a ring of fire and am stronger but sadder and. I just want all this behind me.
….far behind me.

I will be glad when my scars aren’t so fresh and a wonderful man comes into my life to remind me how great life is to live together.

Here is another great wallpaper hand-selected with all the love in the world from me to the people all over the world who have been tuning in.

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Cheers! To saying goodbye to the bad and hello to new, bright, bold beginnings in 2015!

Paulette L Motzko
January 31 2014
1:39. pm

Pacific Ocean Waves To Pretend You’re In California

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This is my jam: Pacific Ocean Waves by Pacific Ocean Waves on Pacific Ocean Waves Radio ♫ #iHeartRadio #NowPlaying http://www.iheart.com/artist/Pacific-Ocean-Waves-587798?cmp=android_share

I searched this on iheart radio and in between trips back to see the Pacific Ocean I grew up around, and for you to simply listen and unwind and close your eyes for an hour and twelve minutes anytime and imagine…..
You are walking down the pier with the wet sand in between your toes and the seagulls singing their seasong.

Paulette L Motzko

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Lumia Nights by Jonn Serrie, Planetarium Composer

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This is my jam: Lumia Nights by Jonn Serrie on Ambient Radio ♫ #iHeartRadio #NowPlaying http://www.iheart.com/original/245?cmp=android_share

Being that I was married to a rocket scientist for 15 years I will forever be following the celestial orbs and be interested in astronomy and forever looking upward in awe.
I hope this piece relaxes your body and soul and mind as it did mine.

Paulette Le Pore Motzko
December 2014

The Native American in My Soul Loves Medicine Flute by Coyote Oldman

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This is my jam: Medicine Flute by Coyote Oldman on Ambient Radio ♫ #iHeartRadio #NowPlaying http://www.iheart.com/original/245?cmp=android_share

I am part Blackfoot Indian and I am going to see how much this year by the Elder of The Blackfoot Nation Tribe.
I remember seeing the Indian reservations and beautiful black horses in fields when I was four-years-old in Tucson, Arizona, where I was born.
To this day I feel a deep connection with the earth, the mountains and share the reverence the Native Americans share for our Mother Earth and The Great Spirit and Native American philosophy and spirituality.
I got to see an extraordinary, strong spirited Cherokee man by the name Gary Whiskey at Knott’s Berry Farm this past year. When he danced he danced with the grace of a bird and played the flute so beautifully he put tears in my eyes.
His words educated me as to what the Native American people had to go through, in a way a history book could never tell.
I hope I see him again one day.
I told him how his dancing, flute playing and words moved me and what a strong & triumphant spirit he was.
I think I might be a quarter Blackfoot Indian.
My Nanny’s mother-my great grandmother was.

People have stopped and asked me numerous times if I was as well. Has something to do with my dark hair, fair skin, deep set eyes…..

May the Great Spirit watch kindly over you & I hope you enjoy this unique piece.

Paulette Le Pore Motzko
December 30th, 2014
1:25 a.m.

Thank You To My 1700 Followers on Totally Inspired Mind!

I want to thank the many readers of Totally Inspired Mind that daily brighten my days and nights, like stars in the sky of my universe.

I was so elated when I saw the followers hit the 1700 mark this afternoon. The site for the last two weeks has had about 800 views and visitors in the week alone.

There are now 3,372 posts, 2,121 tags, 246 categories of all different types of subjects from positivity to veterans to equality, to disabled people, to God to Buddhism and Motivational, Children, and a variety of others to pick from.

I want to thank the United States, India, Pakistan, Saudi Arabia, Singapore, Slovakia, Canada, Netherlands, UK, Bulgaria, Dominican Republic, Malaysia, Montenegro and Germany who have all tuned each day for the last two weeks.

In Las Vegas, NV here there is a severe weather alert going on. We are supposed to see snowfall by tomorrow afternoon.

I wish you peace, health, love and that all your needs are met…wherever you may live.

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Paulette L Motzko

7:35 p.m.

December 29th, 2014

Malaysia, Thailand hit with epic flooding

Malaysia, Thailand hit with epic flooding
http://www.cnn.com//2014/12/27/world/asia/asia-flooding/index.html

All those affected by the floods in Malaysia and Thailand (or anywhere else in the world), I pray you and your loved ones make it to a safe place immediately.
I just moved to a new place and have no cable TV set up yet and my news comes off the various news feeds and apps from my smart phone.

Paulette L Motzko

Close Your Eyes and Listen To The Waves of Saint Lucia & Feel Your Tensions Melt Off Like Water Droplets

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This is my jam: Ocean Waves – Saint Lucia, Caribbean Sea Sea by Calmsound on Sounds of the Ocean Radio ♫ #iHeartRadio #NowPlaying http://www.iheart.com/original/871?cmp=android_share

This will play for 10 wonderful relaxing, rejuvinating minutes. Listen on your break with ear buds on and come back renewed, as though you took a walk on the beach.

Paulette L Motzko

God Bless The Soul of Jayden Morrison & His Family. Body of Missing 4-Year-Old Autistic Boy, Jayden Morrison, Found in Pond – NBC News

http://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news/body-missing-4-year-old-autistic-boy-jayden-morrison-found-n275121

I never knew Jayden Morrison but cared about him from a distance when I heard the news of his missing.
I had prayed somehow someone would spot him and he would unite with his mother.
Being Jayden was autistic and couldn’t communicate like other children and was in a strange place, it was critical he be supervised.
I pray for peace for Jayden’s parents and for the grandmother who was supposed to be watching him.

Paulette L Motzko
December 26 2014
1:31 p.m.

LOVE OF STRINGS BY MOBY Makes Fantastic Driving Music

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This is my jam: Love of Strings by Moby on Ambient Radio ♫ #iHeartRadio #NowPlaying http://www.iheart.com/original/245?cmp=android_share

If you do a lot of driving for work or pleasure this can make your trip glide along effortlessly.

It also makes a great walking companion. I find when I listen to upbeat tunes like this I can walk further and faster.

Walk at least thirty minutes daily and watch a difference in how you look and feel.

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas.

Paulette L Motzko

December 25, 2014

On The Eve of Christmas Eve….Calzone Making Baking Singing to Christmas Time by Brian Adams

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This is my jam: Christmas Time by Bryan Adams Christmas Rocks ♫ #iHeartRadio #NowPlaying http://www.iheart.com/live/6410?cmp=android_share

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The whole wheat calzones before baking with the herbed turkey filling ready to bake….
Finshed recipe will be on CookingUpaStormWithMissPolly.com later. I have a few to add….been busy.

Paulette L Motzko

Recipe for Herbed Turkey Calzones will be on
Cooking Up a Storm With Miss Polly

As I am kneading the whole wheat dough for my Healthy Herb Garlic Turkey Calzones….
Listening to Christmas music…
I really love the WORDS to this one by Bryan Adams & hope you do too on this Eve before  Christmas Eve 2014.

Paulette L Motzko
December 23rd, 2014
3:09 p.m.

The Christmas Song by THE GREAT Nat King Cole

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This is my jam: The Christmas Song by Nat King Cole Christmas Lites ♫ #iHeartRadio #NowPlaying http://www.iheart.com/live/4596?cmp=android_share

Finally comes my favorite Christmas song of all time.
When I heard his voice for the first time I was four years old in Tucson, Arizona, where I was born and lived until I was six years old….and then moved to southern CA where I lived until I got married in 1986.
I wish you peace this Christmas and if you are not Christian, I wish you the same.
After all, religions were made by man but we are all connected on the planet and peace, love and good wishes for health, prosperity, and love are always in season…right?

Written by Paulette Le Pore Motzko
December 23, 2014
1:39 a.m.

Silent Night by Stevie Nicks and May You Have a Holy & Blessed Night

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This is my jam: Silent Night by Stevie Nicks Christmas Lites ♫ #iHeartRadio #NowPlaying http://www.iheart.com/live/4596?cmp=android_share

Now it is December 23rd, 2014 and it is my first Christmas here in Nevada and even though there is no Christmas tree or presents around it, I am living inside my biggest gift of all…my place and just the peace of knowing it is mine …..
And I can relax. I am planning to bring my things from California soon and I can’t wait.

I hope no matter what is going on in your life at this time, and even if it is far from perfect-you can find something festive in it all…
And, most importantly, you experience the small miracles like the smile on a young child’s face and helping an elderly person in a bad wheelchair across the street like I did today.
In giving you get…it is just that simple.

Written by Paulette L Motzko
Copyright December 2014

Relaxation Music with Ocean Waves Instrumental by Rettenmaier

This orchestral arrangement features strings and harp solos and in the midst are gentle waves and the sound of the rise and fall of the surf. I love this type of thing!

This is a little over an hour long so sit back and enjoy and drift off to dreamland or to a deeper level of consciousness or use it as a foil for a visualization pretending you’re walking down the beach in southern California-my hometown…….that I miss now in my new home in the high desert surrounded by mountains.

I can visit any time I want….
And I plan on it often…

Paulette Le Pore Motzko
December 22, 2014
12:48 midnight

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This is my jam: Relaxation Music With Ocean Waves – Instrumental – Music for Relaxation and Meditation by Rettenmaier on Sounds of the Ocean Radio ♫ #iHeartRadio #NowPlaying http://www.iheart.com/original/871?cmp=android_share

Creative New Global Business Paradigm, By Hugh Traulsen

Creative New Global Business Paradigm, By Hugh Traulsen.

Hugh Traulsen called me today and discovered me while looking for something else on the net. He left a very detailed voicemail that I replayed several times to really comprehend it all and then I called him back.

He was impressed with my biography and writing style and the Triple Win Topics I choose and write for Totally Inspired Mind: Where Positive Minds Congregate.

I love the way Hugh thinks and he sees the world in a broad spectrum way and is able to put 2 and 2 together quickly like I am.  We are all connected on this planet and every action has a chain reaction…so choose your actions carefully.

Christmas is only 3 days away and I know it is a blessed one because I am arranging to move my furniture, 1000 volume library, upright grand piano, my surround sound stereo set, gourmet kitchen things on my baker’s  rack home.

2015 will be the best year yet!

 

Paulette L Motzko

3 Days 10 Hours Until Christmas…May It Be BLESSED!

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Photography by Leonardo Valencia
Photo Editing & Graphic Design by Paulette Motzko
Copyright December 2014

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Photos of The Wynn Hotel & Casino, Fashion Show Mall, The Most Holy Redeemer Catholic Shrine by Paulette L Motzko

Photo of Paulette Motzko by Thomas Wojiensky
Copyright November 2014

Photo Editing & Graphic Design by Paulette L Motzko
“Get Inspired” Photo Badge Promo for Totally Inspired Mind by Paulette Motzko taken at The Huntington Beach Pier, The Bella Terra Mall, and Ruby’s Surf City Diner in Huntington Beach, CA
Paulette L Motzko
Copyright November 2014